continue to be emo...and...hope u can reli move on... [ Wednesday, 29th July 2009 ]

not feeling well for da whole day...
dizzy~~ and headache...
+ emo... bwahahahhahaa
haizzz...
planned to study on today (b4 test)...
bcoz there is lots of times b4 da test...
who knows -___-||
read a lot...
but couldnt rmb even a word..
giv up den...
haizzzz...
mayb is bcoz i didnt sleep enuff??
caused dizziness...

got scold by Jing...
ermmm not reli scold lar...
is like...nag??mayb... > <
nag me bout da pillow...
and some of da topics...
-___-||
wats wrong lar???
is already da past...
ermmmmm alto sometimes i will flash bak lar ...
but still...
is da past....

hmmmm...
is already da sixth days dat i didnt on my msn... (included today)
as i tink...
there is no point for me to on my msn...
wasting time and speeds...
made me more emo only -___-|||
but hor...
im afraid dat my sifu is waiting for me to reply her off9 msg leh...
cham lor...
sorry lar sifu T______T
actualy...
im juz...
trying to run away from da fact ...
hahahahahaha dun wish to face it -___-|||
haizzz wake up lar...
even u din on for weeks, months, even years....
no one would care anymore...
formerly...
there is still a person who care...
but not anymore...
im no longer being welcome...
no longer being 重视 by others...

u seem to hav a person for u to move on adi??
congratz...
jane??or brenda?? i tink is jane...
even made a video for her and uploaded on youtube...
for tis 1 year, 10 months and 17 days....
ermmmm nid to take out da 3 months...
so is 1 year, 7 months and 17 days....
for so long time i've been knowing u...
no...
been wit u....
u never make me even a simple video...
my bday for da 2 years,
u've forgotten...
i dun mind...
but not even a belated present dat im receiving from u....
wat am i ??
even played songs for them...
for so long dat i requested from u....
do u play a song for me???
not reli...
is juz u r playing and i recorded it by myself...
so manual hahahahaha...
but still...i rmb d other things dat u made for me...
da 3 pics....
songs u sang and said dat were dedicate to me???
i duno if is reli dedicate to me or juz saying...
but i tink dat fella is more pitiful -___-||
din get even a pic if im not mistaken??
i duno too...
mayb she get it but not satisfied wit wat she had??
hmmmmmmm....
anyway...
im still glad to know dat u could move on...
at least wont be like me...
i mean...
wont feel wat im feeling rite now....
dun worry, be happy...

tink bout dat...
reminds me bout da pillow...
even a normal fren...
still made dat for me...
no...
is giv me dat...
not reli make it bcoz of me...
but at least i still get smth...

juz a normal fren who dun even luv me...
could treat me tis nice...
unlike u...
always said dat u luv me so much and so on...
though u always emphasize da luv is in fren's way...
but u juz never do like what they do... (they = normal frens who dun luv me as much as u do...)

special msg to Jing :
ok..
im started to be confuse when i reach tis part -___-||
yea lar i know im 矛盾 lar -___-||
ignore me lar...
aishhh im like dat one mar...
u oso know de lor... > <


and dat berkelakuan ganjil one (my bro) came bak and again continue torturing my com > <
and oso now turned to be him who addicted in chatting -___-||
he hor...waliao...
on my com for hoursss didnt off... (9 hours on yesterday continuously )
sam tong dao me~~~
and kept chatting there -____-|||
aishhhh...

emo...
emoooooo....
weeeeeee...
emo while surrounded by a group of happiness -___-||
ok again emphasize...
dat happiness obviously is not referring to me and im not included...

Gohonzon...
what should i do in order to live a happy life???
chanting for 9A's???
is that what i want???
im not happy at all...
even get 9A's...
also wont be happy...
moreover.... not happy.... emo like this... how to get 9A's???
would You help me up???

이성민...
Oppa....
do you really existed in my world??
or is just a fantasy again???
is doesn't matter...
just let me rely on you...
or else i really got no one to think of already...

shitty shitty life of mine... [ Tuesday, 28th July 2009 ]

on these days juz like dat lor...
still crazy over Min...
bcoz besides saving photos and watching videos of him,
i tink i got nth to do adi...

wat had i become??
useless...
shitty life...

memories kept going around my mind...
juz memories dat i hav...
dat is juz wat they left for me...
smiling alone for sometimes...
but still being emo after im wake...

yesterday had a reli weird dream -___-||
i was taking nap...
and i dreamt dat da fella called me,
told me dat they make up and being together again...
i didnt giv any respond there (in my dream)
juz "ohhh...i c...congratz"
den she again doing wat she do as always,
teased me...
" i know u r jealous rite?" -___-||
"im not"
"i know u r...dun lie...but hahahaha u wont get it...foreva..."
and den i kept denying and she kept "playing" me...
-____-|||
wat the hell...
even in da dream still behaving da same to me -___-||
100 years oso never change...

hmmmm still dat words...
"ppl around me" seem to be reli 幸福...
and again...tis ...
"unlike me..."
emo~~~~

juz now (nite) got scolded by papa -___-||
bcoz i forgot to bring my pencil case to skool and ask them to bring it for me...
aishhhhh...
den papa scolded :" wats ur prob??wats wrong wit u??har??? not forgetting da bread den forgetting ur pencil case...ur bro ar, he never wan us to bring anything to skool for him b4...u know y??"
"aishhh...how would i know??"
"use ur brain to tink lar...is bcoz he never bring foods to skool " and den he laughed...
my bro laughed along -____-||
ok...
im not da exception too... > <
so "fei" de lar...
den when he was scolding me,
im bzy saving Min's photos again...
and he scolded "see lar...always look at da man in white...see until forget to bring tis and dat...right???"
i fight bak " wat lar!! he is guy not man ok?? and b4 knowing him i already hav tis kind of habbit, which is forget to bring my tupperware (bread) ..."
dadi "i dun tink so...i tink u started to become like tis more frequent after looking at dat guy "
-____-||||
aishhh speechless...
mayb is true hahahahaha...
see Min until lost my soul -___-||
other fans even more exaggerated...
case like suffocated, heart attacks, couldnt breathe well happened on them -___-||
anyway, is juz da comment they wrote,
n they r still alive for sure...
hahahaha like to membesar-besarkan -____-|||

今天。。。
不是。。。
是从拜一开始就带小青青去学校。。。
因为考试，
要睡觉。。。
今天有事故发生。。。
那个死菜 -____-||
趁我不注意的时候就把我的小青青给藏住。。。
害我紧张到要死。。。
真是的。。。
当我发现到不见的时候，
问 Pei Yee 有没有拿，
他就在那边笑，
还以为他拿了 -___-|||
就一直叫他拿出来。。。
他又继续笑 -___-||
后来考试开始的时候，
菜在他书包拿出来。。。
然后对着我笑。。。 -__-||
“等下你就死。。。”
害我考完要用手睡 -___-|||
他就很舒服的睡枕头。。。
睡醒过后还说不好睡，
我给他炸到 -___-|||

四处都是“幸福的味道“,但我不被包括在内。。。 [ Friday, 24th July 2009 ]

early in da morning....
sitting at my place...
den already surrounded by those “幸福的味道“ ...
lol...
E e E e E e...
well, not trying to tell my name -___-||
but having such feelings...
envy...
emo....
haizzzz...
argued wit SF....
-___-||
no point of argue-ing...
she is like dat...
but didnt wan to admit...
apa lah > <
unreasonable...
and dat Jing -___-||
tot we fight,
den kept pressing my hand -___-|||
dun let me to fight bak > <
aishhhhh...
hahahaha cute lar Jing,
afraid dat we will 伤感情...
but reli beh tahan -___-||
dat “幸福的味道“ reli very “重”... -____-||

bout midnite...
our first time -___-||
i mean dat tiger duno sot plak or wat > <
suddenly ask me free or not,
wan "keng gai" wor...
den talk craps talk liao 40 mins++++ > <

lol...hurtful...bond which actually dun belongs to us?? [ Thursday, 23rd July 2009 ]

and finally u leave me off9 msg...
waited ur reply for a few days...
never giv me even a blank msg...
but once u reply,
ur words are reli lol...
how cruel....
juz bcoz of dat fella,
and u treat me like tis???
thanks a lot for doing dat to me...
back stab u???
lol...
ok, i admit dat i do...
n sorry for denying at da first place...
bcoz i cant reli rmb wat i said in my blog...
but i dun call dat as back stab though...
y it is??
im juz expressing my anger and sadness over here...
cant i??
moreover i tink dat wat i said sounds true too...
(i duno if it is true anot, datz y i said "sounds true" ... )
and my words...
were probably...
contrast...
wit wat im actually tinking...
i know i lied to myself...
even lied to them dat i could move on...
n now...
see??
wat am i rite now???
clearly shown dat i couldnt...
is juz a lie....
lied myself, lied anyone...
but y not u???
y am i being so true wit u for everytime???
is bcoz of da promise dat i made??
i dun tink so...
is bcoz...
lets figure it out by urself...

is reli so painful while reading ur words...
y must be dat fella??
y...
y da bond between us...
is more like belongs to dat fella n not me???
im reli...
speechless....
totally speechless...

haizz...miserable life?? lost...regret...kit teung mak mak... [ Tuesday, 21st July 2009 ]

sei lor...
july test coming...
after dat den SPM trial liao...
but still continue 混 at skool -___-||
walau cham lor...
study lehhhh~~ (knock wall wit head)
haizzz...
cham lor...
my life -____-|||
not meaningless...
but super meaningless...
still looking for my aim...
still wondering y am i alive...
y am i living???
and wat am i living for???

recently not dat hunger for luv...
moreover there r "such thing" happened on me -___-||
totally disappoint me...
numb is not enuff???but wan my heart to be dead??
lol...
BoA made my days after i lost my precious "one and only"+"3 in 1"...
now Sung Min's turn hahahahaha...

urghhh...
wat u scolded me is reli so true dat im gonna eat myself and dream of my idol for my whole life...
hahahahahaha....
so wat??cant i??
since there is no one for me to concern of...
and at least i found da only reason...
still better than living for nth ...
right???

hmmm...
Choi seems to be very happy...
and oso very sweet wit her lao gong hahahaha...
aiyoooo for sure lar...
even da stomach pain like hell but after see him den immediately recovered -___-||
exaggerated...
reli lar...
-___-||
from wat i observed, it is like tis > <
hahahaha luv is always da best&effective medicine....
still better than doctor hahahaha... XD

how wish i could hav an effective medicine too : (
i still rmb very well dat i fell sick for a reli long time after dat day...
med expired??
doctor ran away???
hahahaha wondering too...
my med is not only my med...
my doctor is not only being a doctor...
but at da same time taking lots of roles too...
miss??
certainly...i do...reli...
but i uds dat...
time couldnt turn bak...
and da same as da bond between us too...
it might be my fault??
and yea...
definitely, it is...
mianhae...
kor tod na, tee rak....
alto u wont get to c my blog,foreva...
but tis is da words which hiding deep inside my heart, mind...
hahahaha im always like dat wat...
always type smth which i wanted to tell over here though u wont get to know...
hehehehe tis is wat we call, unique...
or strange??hahahahaha...
crazy instead... > <

another day has gone
i'm still all alone
how could this be
you're not here with me
you never said goodbye
someone tell me why
did you have to go
and leave my world so cold

everyday i sit and ask myself
how did love slip away
something whispers in my ear and says

that you are not alone
for i am here with you
though you're far away
i am here to stay
but you are not alone
for i am here with you
though we're far apart
you're always in my heart
but you are not alone

today again Sejarah teacher 搞针对...
-____-|||
waliaooo my eyes small jek,
den slandered me say i sleep...
-___-|||
wat the....
y must u call only me har??
everytime...
aishhhh...
wats related wit da rain???
cant find any excuse of calling me out??
and even can take rain as ur excuse??
bravo~~!!!
obviously...搞针对...
针对 me den tell lar...
i know i failed my sej...
and many of them failed too...
but y must be only me???
i wouldnt blame or complain anything if u r being fair...
bcoz i know dat is my fault...
totally speechless...
fine...
anything will do...
since tis is not da first time adi...
习惯就好...

these reli suits me a lot...
(designed and drew by Jing)

犯贱の快乐

MIS3RabL3 Lif3

WTH???!! totally pissed off!!!

wat the hell...
who do u tink u r ???!!
huh???!!
other ppl might hav dat right to judge me but not u!!
u duno me at all and oso u r not anyone of mine,
not even a normal fren u r...
u r reli thicked skin...
and oso THANKS FOR INSULTING ME!

wats wrong wit my behaviour??!!
judged my behaviours juz bcoz of dat???!!
or i shud say u judged me by nth !!!
and juz bcoz of dat u cum and 重伤 me???!!
i bet dat u felt fun to scold me and saying those words to me...
n indirectly u r telling dat u r such person too...
reli lol...
never c tis kind of person b4...
reli pissed off...
and for da following~~~
secret~~
tis kind of "fishy" things not nice to share hahahahaha...
keep it better...

TMD到他们阿...做么我这样可怜??还有他们真的是有够自私+TMD的 -__-|| [ Thursday, 16th July 2009 ]

ahem...
因为不想给那些马来人看道/知道，
所以我只好写话语了。。。 -___-||
今天他们真的很过分 （那些拿 ERT 的马来人。。。)
等下。。。
我那三个英文之母会不会很明显？？ -__-||
等下他们叫人帮他们翻译我马惨？
用代号好了。。。
就叫“医阿替”。。。
认识我的人大概都知道我不是拿“加数学”的，
是拿医阿替 （跟那十一个“粉肠”+两个“黑鬼”一起）
今天我知道在十一点四十五分我们得去礼堂因为有讲座。。。
可是他们就很理所当然的在下课之后下去，
哪里知道还没开始，
他们就趁机跷课，
跑去 “煮饭房”那里，（我们平时上课的地方）
怎知道那边没开，
我就很高兴因为可以回班粘着我的朋友。。。
哪里知道那些自私鬼，
不想上课，
叫我在那边游荡，
不给我回班。。。 （因为如果我回班的话就是在暗示老师他们跷课）
有购 TMD 自私的。。。
我一个人站在那边站了很久，
又闷，
又没有东西做，
我又没带功课下来。。。
超不爽。。。
他们当然爽啦，
不用上课，
又有人陪他们在那边聊天+玩。。。
简直没有顾我的感受。。。
自私到他们啊。。。。
可怜到我啊。。。
生气？又能怎样？
又不能出声。。。
毕竟里面只有我一个华人，
不想以后每当医阿替节的时候被针对。。。
真苦。。。
我够想上班咯。。。
不过我可以吗？？ 哎。。。
这种就叫做有家归不得。。。
不是。。。
是有班归不得，
还要站在那里站这样久，
真是有够可怜的。。。
那口气，
憋到很辛苦，
真的很想狠狠地大骂他们一顿。。。
我的天啊。。。
为什么我会跟这样的一班人一起上课 T____T
真的很痛苦。。。
跟他们没有话讲，
只能“载”听+笑，
没份讲。。。
还要给他们欺负。。。
唉。。。。。
唉。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
阿！！！！！！！！！！！！
我快疯了！！！

华语学会才艺表演 夏日梦之“恶搞白雪公主“ [ Wednesday, 15th July 2009 ]

Part 1


Part 2

白痴的双鱼座，白痴的我。。。 [ Wednesday, 15th July 2009 ]

昨晚，
你终于被我看穿了。。。
也不是被我看穿，
是你自己白痴到把真相给说出来。。。
笨到你啊。。。
第一次看到这种这样“诚实”+白痴的骗子。。。
原来那天我认定你是不怀好意，是没错的。。。
可怜你？？
不如你来可怜我吧。。。
相信你也知道我很惨。。。
看在我这样可怜的份上，
你就放过我吧。。。
不要来玩弄我。。。
我已经受够了。。。
再这样下去我就快患精神分裂症。。。

为什么他们非要这样对我？？

“实验”证明。。。
我的推测果然没错。。。

“找”我的就只有三种人，
一：瞎了。。。
二：得空没事做， 找我“玩”，顺便尝试不曾体会过的东西。。。
三：有“需要”。。。

我也终于明白。。。
为什么没“其他”人看上。。。
因为他们并没有以上的那三点。。。
或许会有其中一个。。。
不过。。。
因为比较了解和善良。。。
也可怜我。。。
所以把我给放了。。。

昨天SF对我说的一句话,
让我清醒了...
不然我又来了。。。
明知道是陷阱可是还踩上去。。。
“不要因为觉得自己没有人喜欢，有人追就接受。。。顺其自然。。。要，就跟自己喜欢的在一起。。。”
突然觉得什么都他们讲完的 -___-||
当我觉得顺其自然，没去找的时候，他们又讲我讲到这样大声，说我没去找。。。
好了。。。
等到我去找的时候，
又说我太主动。。。叫我顺其自然
好咯。。。
你们讲完了咯，
我什么都不用讲了 -___-||

身为双鱼座的我，
就是这样。。。
喜欢活在自己的世界里，活在幻想世界里。。。
喜欢欺骗自己。。。
喜欢牺牲自己。。。
也有可能出卖自己。。。(可是。。。我还没到这样严重的地步啦 -___-||| )
有购白痴。。。

happy + emo -___-||| [ Tuesday, 14th July 2009 ]

kept singing in da class for today...
so many body language for da song's lyric somemore > <
reli funny lor...
especially Jing's version de song... XD
kept laughing like orang gila at da bak -____-|||

during recess time,
Hue Ting told me and SF to stay bak for rehearsal (performing drama for Chinese Society)
but i got tuition at E.T. mar...
4pm++ nid to get ready adi,
i where got so much time??
moreover i didnt sleep well on last nite leh...
very tired de leh...
normally din stay bak already felt very rush...
now still wan to stay bak...
super beh song...
everything is fine if she told me earlier or we rehearsal few days b4 da day...
but ... last minute only tell us dat we nid to stay bak...
walau eh...
da thing i reli hate is "last minute"...
now not only last minute but oso last day to practise...
dun feel like staying bak at da first place,
but c her pitiful face -___-||
beh tahan...
wan scold her but dun dare to scold,
later she cry -___-|||
den if dun wan go she will be sad too...
den Pei Yee kept persuade me to go and tell me how disappointed is Hue Ting dat we dun bekerjasama > <
aikssss...
stay lar stay lar...
bear wit da madness...
i bearrrrr~~~

den already frustrated,
dat sej teacher,
walauuuuu -____-|||
again 搞针对 ...
and y must be me ar??
i din even talk...
i juz be emo and look at d other paper,
den she called my name and kept scolding me -____-|||
wat the...
den fine lor...
i look at da sej text book den...
den SF say got thing wan tell me but will tell me later,
den i mar write on da paper asked her wat she wanna tell,
den she said later...
den later lor...
den i mar conteng da paper lor...
walauuu...
kena called again -___-|||
kena scold again...
ask me wat im doing there...
impossible i tell menconteng one mar -__-||
i mar diam diam lor...
den she kept scolding...
-__________-|||||

juz now+now+ my current "condition"
= super emo
haizzzz...
y lar ...
y me T______________T
no...
i shud ask...
y only me???
haizz...
always like dat...
no matter wat,
is still only me who kena...
aiksssss ...
suan liao lar suan liao lar~~~~~

他今天终于“pou tao” 了。。。
好就不见。。。
看他的 display name...
hmmmm...
应该是又有新欢了吧？
不过。。。
-____-||
人家有新欢关我屁事啊。。。
-___-||
真是的。。。
算了吧。。。
就很想晶讲的，
会唱不会做 -___-||
“过去让他过去~~ ”

got slandered by Jing T____T wu wu wu~~ [ Monday, 13rd July 2009 ]

well...
i know there r smth wrong wit me -__-||
bcoz i kept smiling like very happy -____-||
and actually im tinking of my Sung Min <333333333333333333333
hehehehe...
but tis Jing -___-||
so perasan nia...
i din look at her den she said i kept looking at her (while smiling) -___-||
i didnt lor...
i juz looking at other things which is close wit her... > <
but tis gal,
so muka tembok nia...
den during science class...
waliao "bi gong"...
-___-||
kept beating me and ask me tell her wat happened...
got new lover or wat -___-||
crazy...
my life now is empty lar...
go where find love lai??
imagination got lar -____-|||
den i mar said lor "tell for wat lar??after tell u oso wont believe me one lar"
den she blackmail me -___-||
said if i dun tell her den next time she wont care bout my things anymore and wont wan to listen to my storeys anymore -___-||
wahhhhhhhh~~~
den mar tell lor...
"bcoz of my fav. artist larrr"
den immediately kena pukul -____-|||
she " u dun jia jia lar u...faster tell lar"
me "see...i told u...even i tell u oso wont believe and u reli dun believe -___-|| "
she "i know u for so long time adi...u tink u duno ur pattern meh??"
well...
sometimes my pattern would be like dat...
but for tis time is reli diff -___-||
not related to "love" at all...
ermmmm....
related lar -___-||
luv my idol oso luv mar XD

anyway...
i reli din lie lar...
im telling da facts + truth ...
dat im crazy over Super Junior -__-||
sorry, one of da member only.....
SUNG MIN~~~!!! <333333333
XD
-___-|| ignore me...
he is reli...adorable **pure** dreamy **pure** charming **pure**
and etc etc etc...
recently bzy saving his pics from da net...
waliaoooo alottttt
and finally at bout 11am++++ like dat i finish saving -___-||
and now having 122 pics of only him XD
and oso 135 pics of Super Junior...
but of coz -__-||
da whole folder still couldnt beat my BoA XD
for BoA, is not 100 or 200++ of pics...
but for da pic folder of BoA is 208mb...
woww...
nyek nyek nyek XD
unbeatable, undefeated XD
wanna beat BoA??
still got long way to go~~~
but how cum juz Jun Su (Xiah from TVXQ) pic den already 140 -____-|||
aiyooo dat one diff case oso...
hehehehe bcoz i take quite a long time to "collect" his pics...
admire Xiah since last year???
but until now (13rd of July) only 140 worr...
bout 1 year ++++++++
hehehehe unlike Sung Min...
juz 2 weeks den already 122 XD
wakakakakaka...
ok -___-||
actually im not here to tell my "collections" -____-||
anyway...
wanna see my Sung Min??hehehehehe

photo of Sung Min (when shooting MV of "Sorry Sorry")


he looks so damn cool lar XD


love tis part da most XD (he was dancing to Sorry Sorry at road show)


cool cool cool~~~!! doing magic tricks at Star King (a korea show)


dar darng~~~ YES!! is tis!!! (setting ----> set as wallpaper)
and now tis pic is my mobile's wallpaper XD
isnt he looks adorable??? > <


-___-||
ok lar cukup lar ...
wan video mar??
hahahahhaa -___-||
dun wan lar...
later ppl say me sot...
but still...
can i post da magic tricks one over here?? **pure**
hehehehe free den take a look lar...
is reli cool XD
and made me speechless...
bcoz i duno how to describe -____-|||

My cute&funny de papa mama -___-|| [ Sunday, 12nd July 2009 ]

-___-|||
话说。。。
on last nite...
their 老人痴呆 cum again liao -__-|||

papa : “老婆，你做么又开房间的冷气咧？ 还很早吗。。。客厅又开了。。。”
(start to gaduh liao -___-|| )
mama : “我哪里有开冷气？你发傻啊？ 我刚刚关了就没有开过！ 是你开的！”
papa : “我哪里有？？？！！ 你开了又忘记了啦你！”
mama : “我都没有进房间，怎样开你真的是越老越死，自己开了又忘记。？？？ ”
papa : “是我开的咩？？ ” (go bak into da room)
me : sei lor.... 阿爸几时又有老人痴呆了？惨咯。。。两个都sot 了。。。

and i reli hav no idea dat who is da one dat switched on d air-cond...
but i wan cry liao -___-||
juz mama 老人痴呆 already very horrible (always go out and forget to off da fire...)

前科　: ever tried to burn our house by leaving da fire there boiling da soup until da soup ..nono until no more water left and da fire starts burning da pot and finally my whole house full wit smokes and im sleeping ...luckily my neighbour cum and knock da window at da bak of house and i woke up... XD safe~~ )

now add mai papa...
cham lor -___-|||
i will leave tis world very soon... XD


today afternoon...
bcoz my mama wan go to her shop...
and she lazy to drive,
so she asked papa to fetch her...
but papa dun wan bcoz he juz got bak from buying roti,
den mama said "女儿，载我去店"
den i look at her and said " 骑脚车载你啊？"
(bcoz i only know how to fetch ppl wit my bike -___-||| )
den mama said "驾车啦，什么骑脚车"
papa "他啊？撞车就有啦．．．驾车．．．．"
-____-|||

den evening,
bout nite...
their cantonese+mandarin cum again liao...
mama was talking wit me about the cosway thing...
ask me to ask my fren "bong chan" her when she joined...
den she said "你要帮我给你的朋友　card pian..."
(dat pian u read it as 便宜　de 便 ... gabung wit dat card... card 便... -___-|| i tink she wan to say it in cantonese "card pin" -___-|| but she "gao luan" liao...)
den i kept laughing there...
den my dad was on phone...
talking bout da meeting...
den he said " 我约了他明天"
(-___-|| u know how he read?? 约 = yolk -____-||| it sounds super ok if is in canotese but super funny if is in mandarin -___-|| )

anyway,
for daddy is reli common lar..
he always read mandarin words into cantonese -___-||
and i tink my mama kena influenced liao~
her 护士　in cantonese bcome "hu xi" -___-||| (by right is "wu xi" )
and her 白手起家　ever split into 2...
"bai shou" "heng ga"
den i was like??????
den i said "is bak sao heng ga -___-|||"
den she again dun wan admit (she always dun wan admit when she is wrong )
and she said "aiyooo i scare u dun uds mar...dat chinese part is for u de and cantonese part is for koko de"
-____-||| walau like dat oso can...
beh tahan...

Korea’s Top 50 Best Voices

Top 25 Male Voices
01. Kim Junsu (TVXQ)
02. Kim Jae Joong (TVXQ)
03. Se7en
04. Kim Ryeowook (Super Junior)
05. Andy Lee
06. Kim Hyun Joong (SS501)
07. Jung Ji Hoon/Rain
08. Lee Min Woo
09. Park Yoo Chun (TVXQ)
10. Kang Ta
11. Cho Kyu Hyun (Super Junior)
12. Lee Hong Ki (F.T. Island)
13. Jun Jin
14. Shim Changmin (TVXQ)
15. Kim Jong Kook
16. Kim Ye Sung (Super Junior)
17. Shin Hye Sung
18. Son Ho Young
19. Kang Daesung (Big Bang)
20. Oh Jung Hyuk
21. Lee Seung Gi
22. Kim Jong Hyun (SHINee)
23. Tae Yang (Big Bang)
24. Ryan (PARAN)
25. Lee Dong Hae (Super Junior)

Top 25 Female Voices
01. BoA
02. Ivy
03. Dana (CSJH)
04. Jang Ri In
05. Jang Nara
06. Park Ye Eun (Wonder Girls)
07. Lee Hyori
08. Park Jung Ah (Jewelery)
09. Solbi
10. Stephanie (CSJH)
11. Kim Tae Yeon (SNSD)
12. Lee Jung Min
13. Sun Mi (Wonder Girls)
14. Jessica (SNSD)
15. Bae Seul Gi
16. Nam Gyu Ri
17. Park Bom
18. Bada
19. Min Sun Ye (Wonder Girls)
20. Han Seung Yeon (Kara)
21. Lina (CSJH)
22. JOO
23. Seo Hyun (SNSD)
24. Isak
25. Heebon


nyek nyek nyek...
both my BoA and Xiah were da top XD
proud proud proud...
and Micky is in da list as well...
but sad : (
my Sung Min is not there...
wondering y Ryeo Wook get 4th -___-||
and is oso quite unbelievable dat Dong Hae was in da list too > <
and dun misuds > <
i didnt create these thing by myself...
and didnt "lou zok" too > <
credit : http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/koreas_top_50_best_voices/
nah nah nah XD

anyway...
im wondering...
-___-||
when did i turned to be Super Junior's fan too?? -___-|||
is all bcoz of "sorry sorry" > <
and oso bcoz of Eun Hyuk's powerful dance moves...
and i was bzy watching their videosss on utube until late nite on Fri & Sat > <

wat a day??? :( and im reli sorry for da wrong way of caring u and oso da wrong way of discussing wit u.... [ Thursday, 9th July 2009 ]

early in da morning,
dat SF already cried like ......
duno how to describe...
juz crying non stop for da whole day...
her tears keep dropping...
i duno anything bout dat...
so im not giving any comment...
she said she felt regret dat she didnt treat Wing da best...
and felt regret dat she didnt tell out wat she reli feel for Wing on time...
da regrets seem to be late...
mayb tis would be her lesson...
a reli painful lesson...
and mayb she will much more treasure and appreciate her lover after tis...
she reli... -__-||
duno how shud i describe...
is like...
a lil' bit of 不惜福... mayb????


there r smth i forget to tell on yesterday's post -___-||
is bout at APD room...
our B.I. teacher let us watch some videos which ....
not reli related wit B.I. but science -___-|||
so swt...
ok da main point is not tis...
we were sitting on da floor...
and tis Jing duno wat happened -___-||
kept 偷击 me -___-||
smth wrong wit her...
she never be like tis to me since da day i know her lor...
but today kept wanna kiss me...
scary -___-||
get rid off her "attack" for da first few times ...
but at last still kena liao T___T
hahahahaha but luckily...
not even my cheek dat she get XD
somewhere below my ear which is not face or neck -___-||
ok...
yesterday still very very....
very 亲密 one...
but today...
hurt liao my Jing : (
aiksss...
felt super regret and super remorse...
im sorry...
and i know,
juz da word sorry, couldnt mend anything...
is juz like wat she always said to me when i apologize, " sorry 大完阿? "
is my fault dat i didnt tink on ur side...
and is oso my fault dat i know nth but shouting at u...
i dun mean to scold u...
juz...
i duno how shud i tell...
i hope u uds wat im trying to tell...
and oso hope u uds da way of our caring...
mayb is too much for dat...
and mayb im not caring in a fren way but is more like a mother's way... -___-|||
as a fren, definitely, i do not hav da right to scold u...
bcoz even ur parents still didnt scold u for dat -___-|||
and i tink i shud not meddle in ur things...
mayb is da time for me to set u free...
u already grown up...
i believe dat u know wat to and to not do...
and clear wit urself, make ur own decision which u tink is right...
still wanna nag for my last time -___-||
try ur best on ur studies and SPM...
no one would blame u if u had tried ur best...
i will try my best to not be like a 管家婆 too hahaha > <

"雨"... 不停落下来... haizzz [ Wednesday, 8th July 2009 ]

a very complicated feeling...
duno how shud i describe...
it happened on last nite...
actually i didnt plan to view da comment...
but duno y...
smth pull me to there...
after reading...
and again...im being paranoid... -__-||
ppl who knows me well shud know dat im super sensitive...
a normal ppl read it absolutely they will feel nth wit dat sentence...
but for me, a very sensitive person, a negative-thinker, pessimistic person and oso a person who had lots of 阴影....
dat sentence...
is reli...
hurtful...
actually, i wont be blue if is juz "this" (singular)...
but thing goes worse when i relate everything (current and past) together and kept tinking of "theseeeeee" at once...

y???
wats wrong wit me??
y ppl always judge me in bad way??
y they like to slander me ??? as always???
for them,
my explanations are excuses or stories...
and always twist around my meanings...
or else den say dat im fake...
lol...
yea...
sometimes it might sounds exaggerated for my words...
but at least...
im telling da truth,
da actual thing,
da thing which reli happened...
and not create it by myself...
and for feelings,
im being even more honest to myself...
i dun tell out if i reli dun feel it...
and sometimes...
even i feel it...but i din express it out or tell...
until being ask...
anyway...
is juz useless telling here...
bcoz i know im still fake...for u...

and lol...
anything which is bad must be related wit me...
tis is da way they tink of me...
ppl's faults became mine...
da one shud got scolding din get, but im da one who get it for them...
im da one being slandered but at last being twisted again...
din even do anything but got hated by others...
juz talk like normal but became annoying for them...
too much to say...
anyhow...
and somehow...
im always da bad one...
being da scapegoat as always...

tears dropping uncontrollable...
it seems like it will never ends...
until da day i die...

waking up wit a swollen eyes almost every morning...
lol...




today ERT class masak again...
tis time din hangus lar...
bcoz im not da one who cook > <
Fatiqah cooked...
i cut and wash dishes ...
but tis gal -___-||
cook wit a reli big fire until da pots gone black > <
luckily is washable hahahaha -___-||

during Ekonomi SF again drawing tattoo for me...

today de tattoo cool abit de XD i tink is evil -___-||

again..ignore my laps > <


when reach home already 脱色 lor...
at skool i so bzy...kept re colour it...
but 脱色 脱 till very yeng yi xia


and for yesterday de group tattoosss photo~~
Pei Yee's and Mine XD


eh??? tak cukup orang??


arghhh...we forgotten Choi > <


proud :$
im da whitest XD
-___-|| hand only larrr > <

den dat Ekonomi teacher...
walau...
again 针对 us -___-||
i tink is da second time me and SF together kena...
i rmb on da first 2 months of Form5,
we get 针对 by her b4...
-___-|||
waliao...
we oso din do anything,
somemore we din reli talk lor...
juz she bzy drawing da tattoo for me -___-||
and tis teacher,
scolded and say dat we talked -___-|||
死针对...
kesian SF -___-||
always 被遭殃... > <
now i very yong sui meh -___-||
always catch only me -__-||
scold only me...
whole class doing wat im doing but never see u scold...
wat the hell...
i never say dat im gud in ekonomi b4 lor...
u r da one who kept saying dat we r...
den kept scolding dat we fail ekonomi...
i fail for mid-term is bcoz im sick wat...
see lar u...
wait and see...
one day i will take da result and throw on ur face -___-||
丢死你...
somemore at there eat me and Fatiqah cook de foods...
小心啃到。。。
nono...
is 啃死你 -___-||
eat eat eat...
eat so much...

hope dat tonite i can sleep well...
haizzz...
already long time dat i didnt sleep well : (

oh finally~~~ my auto-gate is "reborn" XD touching~ [ Tuesday, 7th July 2009 ]

today ar...
bringing a pair of not reli very obvious de swollen eyes to skool...
-___-|| 7 sin liao de lar me...

and again...
we go to skool 混...
-____-||
juz realize dat even teachers oso cum to skool 混 one XD
laughed like mad during moral class together wit Pei Yee -___-||
wondering wats so funny..
but...
aiyaaa both of us are always like dat one lar...
习惯就好.... (tis sentence is for those 旁观者 ... )

den math...
sleep~~
din reli sleep dao lar...
hot like hell -___-||
even under da fan stil hot...
wondering wat kind of fan is dat,
shud be dispose -___-|||
den tis SF too dak han liao -__-||
drawing name on hand...
ermmm..
is namesss on handssss...
she hor...very artistic de lor -__-||
somemore say wan to hav dat as tattoo -___-|||
well...
da photos of our "fake" tattoosss will upload on tomoro -____-||
bcoz is taken using Choi's mobile eh~~
aahahahhahaa -___-||
but if u wan to c mine den sure got lar XD

close look of da words~~ (tis gal ar, can even spell my name wrongly -___-||| and when i get bak from skool da tattoo already 脱色 > < )


ermmmm ignore my lap -___-||


b4 going to tuition...
wahhhh...
oh finally~~~
my auto-gate repair "ho liao"
my uncle lar -___-|||
spoiled for yearsssss liao -___-||
but now only cum and repair > <
and added smth new on our auto-gate XD

dar darng~~~~ hmmmm aiyaaa tis one not for da chicken sit one har -___-|| and i oso dun sell Nam Heong chicken rice de > < ( u will uds if u read my previous post)
tis stainless steel thingy is to hang clothes de~~


den our Jing duno wat happened... (at E.T.)
da face 凶神恶煞 > <
macam 黑面包青天...
i tink 包黑脸 sounds nicer leh XD
so scary -____-|||
talk to her oso dun wan answer us de > <
ohhhh mayb she tengah "亲爱的那不是爱情"...
datz y like dat...
hmmmm...
at skool den keep calling our names and kept hugging us...
no no...
is hugging our body part...
leg ar...hand ar...waist ar...shoulder ar...
later den hold ppl's hands -__-||
ask her wat happened but didnt plan to tell > <
at skool den very 热情,
when tuition den very 恐怖 -___-|||

oh yea...
today at E.T. meet bak Pui Kuan XD
one of my daughter last time hehehehe...
grow taller liao -___-||
yen wang~~
and said she got shock to c me there...
-___-|| never c daddy b4 ar?? > <

刚刚他信息我。。。
感觉好陌生。。。
很像很久没有这样了(向我报告)。。。
突然又报告回，
大概是发烧吧?
可是他说自己傻了 -___-||
算了吧。。。
反正。。。。。。。。。。。
唉。。。。。