School reopen+lonely+emo [ Monday, 28th September 2009 ]

finally...
we are at school today...
have so much fun on creating nicknames for friends LOL!!!
what ...
Lace, Cells, Moon, Lungs everything came out -___-||
is related and "linked" actually...
but im so lazy to type the long long story out...


due to the long "vacation"...
im kinda not use to it on schooling...
especially during ERT...
because i'm all alone again...
haizzz...
such a hard time for me...
an hour +++ ...
felt like dying even just sitting there for few minutes...


提起了他。。。
SF 说有尝试着帮我,
可是他告诉SF我的脾气太暴躁了。。。
对着不同的人就说出了不同的理由。。。
是借口吧？？
不喜欢。。。所以借口都多过理由。。。
不喜欢。。。就是不喜欢。。。
坦白就好。。。
兜兜转转，以为这样就不会伤到我？
反而伤得更深。。。

仔细想想了。。。
我怎么觉得我没有向他发过脾气之类的。。。
暴躁？是他吧？还很小气。。。
一点点就生气。。。
而且一生就很长时间。。。
我只不过很jealousy,很emo。。。
哪来的暴躁？
我都没生过他的气， 有都是玩玩而已。。。
对他。。。
emo 多过伤心，伤心多过心疼，心疼多过开心，开心多过生气。。。
那。。。你应该知道。。。
生气。。。有多少吧？
哪来的暴躁呢？
他是要说我 emo 吧？ -___-||||

ruining actual song's lyric again -___-|| [ Saturday, 26th September 2009 ]

arghhh forget to post about today's breakfast...
i mean...
(Saturday morning)...
like what i did recently,
went to Choi's house then go mamak have our breakfast...
talked a lot...
or i should call that as "gossip"???
hehehehe...
about what??
nahhhh...
not going to tell you of course...
after that walk to tuition centre lor...
she having tuition mar...
i then accompany her...
and then she said "arghhh is been a long time that we didnt sing our song...(爱死你)"
me " yea..."
den i again started to sing with broken chinese...
and accidentally sing it into "yai" 死你... (cantonese)
which means step on you (until dead)...
the next line : "'yai' 死(是)婴儿纯洁也是爆裂~~"
LOL!!!

then she scolded me say that i didnt go on that day (singing competition)...
or else we can sing this...
after that Choi played the song (the version that sang by 超级偶像 林宗兴 & 张芸京)
and she said "dont know why...i love this one more than the original"
me "me too..."
like usual, im the rapper and she is the vocal...
then before the rap part, 张芸京 said "超级偶像 林宗兴~~" and then 林宗兴 starts to rap...
then i asked her "if we follow this version, what should you say at that part instead of 超级偶像 林宗兴??"
(and after Choi finish singing is my turn to rap)
and suddenly...
i came up an idea "i know i know!!! SMK Alam Megah 的林祖儿!!"
Choi looked at me like that -____-|| and said "is too long lar...must be 4 words"
ok fine... > <
and another idea came "i know i know!!! 蔡玉娟的林祖儿!!"
and she "fall" hahahahahaha...
laugh like mad > <

SuJu's mistakes on It's You & Sorry Sorry Performances... MUST WATCH, SUPER FUNNY!!! LOL!!!!

guess what...
i laughed for the whole night just now...
just because of this video -___-|||
really funny especially HeeChul...
and from what i observe,
Minnie also had few similar situation like them too...
but im so lazy to edit and cut the video -___-||
you can ask me whats the meaning of the captions if you dont understand ^^
where are you looking at ??
yea!!it's you!! im talking about you!! hahahahaha

and also the misheard lyrics...
is funny too if you manage to "catch" the words...

Koko went back T__T aiksss + ~~~~~~~~~

just came back from sending my bro to bus stop...
is really fast...
a week had past...
and i did nothing in this week...
besides watching SuJu hahahaha...
nono...
besides stalking Minnie hehehehe

Papa asked about Jing (did she went to Johor?)
and of course she did hahaha...
Mami then said she is great that she managed to go Johor by her own...
then i said "arghhh is just because she wanted to see 'someone' ... she will do anything just to meet 'someone' "
and my mami again asked " how about you??"
"what?!"
" you have a bf?"
"WHAT LAR!! i dont have!"
"really???!!"
"of course.. no one would wants to have me as a gf lar"
"how come??? my daughter not bad what..."
-____-|||
ok, this is not the first time that she ask me...
she asked me about that tons of times before this...
and even said this before " how would i know?? you always surf the net and look at the guy's pic"
Omo... -___-||
when did Minnie became my bf??
i will be really lucky if it is true...
i wish too!!! hahahahahaha -___-|||
kept slander me that i have a bf... > <
**vomit blood**
i wish to have a lover too T_____T
unfortunately.....

hold on...
why am i using such formal language to type ???
hmmm.....
whatever -____-|||

and im really shocked to see Minnie's new hairstyle...
-____-|||
i just started to likes his short hair and now he changed another one for me to "re-start" ...
im not used to it with his .... ermmm curly hair??? > <
Minnie ar... stop giving me heart-attack by changing your hairstyle ... -___-|||
anyway...
honestly...
really...
honestly...
i dont really like his new hairstyle...
but whatever he will be...i still love Minnie hehehehe XD

just realize that i kept changing the way i call Sung Min -___-|||
day by day...
the way i call him become more intimate... > <
from Sung Min, to Min...
from Min to Minnie...
this is what i used when i type in English...
when i talk about him to myself (commenting on him alone after seeing him)
at first, 晟敏 (Cheng Min - Sung Min)
and then 晟敏哥(Cheng Min ge - Sung Min oppa)
and now, 敏敏 (Min Min) LOL!!!
i didnt create it by myself...
i get this after visiting his cyworld...
he call himself "min ming" (if im not mistaken) -___-||
hmmm or i should say he wrote that at his cyworld page...
and it gives me an idea on calling him like that...

an untitled post?? + meet my(?) E.L.F, grannyLEE !!!

hmmm...
im kinda "unfamiliar" with short form (English) right now...
maybe because i didn't use MSN for a long time??
and always talk with foreigner...
ermmm i should say...always talk to E.L.F hahahaha...
and that's why ...
im used to it to type in long form like this...


and also, if you are reading this, grannyLEE... hahahaha
im typing in long form and also in the "right" language so that you could understand ^^
wondering will you really read this like what you said in M-INvasion??
you should put a chatbox in your blog so that i could talk to you over there -___-|||
or else we will be like spamming M-INvasion ...
not talking about Minnie...but talking about our things instead hahahahaha...


arghh...
dont know what to say...
im just kinda...
not kinda...
is super empty...
wondering what am i doing for the whole day...
for everyday...
is my life really this meaningless that i got nothing to do besides watching Minnie??
haizzz......
have a strong feeling....on what????
hehehehehe...
is embarrassing to tell...
so blekkkk...
not going to tell either XD

不可理喻的家伙。。。+ 只剩下让我感触的回忆。。。

那天。。。
对。。。就是那天。。。
我上线了。。。
停。。。
为什么我要用华语呢？
安全着想。。。
已经做好了。。。
本想要让他开开心心过。。。
怎知道。。。
他的那堆“废话”。。。
朋友？
只是朋友？？
你否认得很轻松。。。
也无可否认，
我们的确就只是朋友。。。
可是如果你说，一向来，你像朋友这样的对待我，
那就很大问题。。。。
是谁，
不断的再挑拨我？？
是谁，
很配合我的“每一句”？
你大可以不要配合我， 让我清醒。。。
不要一次一次的用这一句来顶我 “我以前也是这样和你说话”。。。
以前是以前。。。
现在是现在。。。
以前的你喜欢吃鱼并不代表以后的你不会对鱼反感。。。
以前当我们这样的时候。。。
那条粉肠还没出现。。。
这些话。。。
未能告诉你。。。
那是因为。。。
那天是大好日子。。。
不想扫你兴。。。
而且就算说了，你也不会承认自己的错误。。。


有时候。。。
不对。。。
是时常。。。
很想一脚“央”他。。。
真的。。。令我。。。很反感。。。
他。。。让我对他“那类”的。。。
都超反感。。。
令人作呕的变态。。。
这感觉。。。在四月差不多五月的时候就开始了。。。
对他的人非常反感。。。（或许你不会相信，不过都是真的）。。。
可是对有关他的回忆。。。都很感触。。。
所以。。。有些post才会这样写。。。
那绝对不代表我对他还没死心。。。
只是。。。找不到别的人来代替，来让我写。。。
感触的回忆。。。就只有那些。。。
而那些。。。通通。。。都跟他有关。。。

昨晚因为没事做。。。
所以偷偷上线来了。。。
又是他的留言。。。
说什么。。。　“你要知道。。。你给我的伤害。。。也不少”
你还好意识跟我提伤害？？
想比一下你给我的吗？？
那可是我给你的十倍！！
在那一年多，我给你的伤害，都不算得是什么。。。
可是你给我的。。。足以让我生不如死。。。
开始增加。。。
都是因为那次你给的最大伤害而开始的。。。
你其实并不用那么痛苦。。。
是你自己拿来的。。。
我想走。。。你却不让我走。。。
对你不理不睬的。。。就说那是伤害。。。
我给的。。。都是无心伤害。。。都有道歉。。。。
你给的。。。不但是刻意，还要装着很无辜的样子否认自己的错。。。
以德报怨？　我也很想。。。
但是。。。那应该是还你的。。。

你比那些男生还要贱。。。
比我更要犯贱。。。

以前。。。你没给我的。。。我都会给你。。。
现在。。。你给我的。。。我也会“连本带利”的还你。。。

（讲是一回事。。。做是另一回。。。所以。。。应该猜得到。。。我做不出吧？哈哈哈哈 既然做不出。。。那就继续被伤害吧。。。呵呵。。。)

"Reborn" at Pyramid [ Friday, 18th September 2009 ]

went to Pyramid today...
arghhh is been a long time since our last "outing" hahahaha
watched "Where Got Ghost" together wit Choi, Jing and SF...
and oso Eugene+his frens...
quite funny...
both me and Choi laughed like mad but the other two kept holding tight on each other -___-|||
for me, i tink it is not scary at all -___-|||
is reli funny...
but wondering why they are "over-reacting" like tis...
hahahahaha...

lazy to talk...
pics to tell...

i duno y...but i felt dat i looks weird over here -___-|| doesnt looks like me??


love tis pic among all... first time dat both of us looks gud in da same pic hahahaha > <





weird facial expressions...
XD both me and Choi wit da same "pose"? XD
"odd" Jing > <




全家福...


tis one is actually 全家福...but dat Jing duno y again "disappear" herself... -__-||
she is always like tis....


wit Jing and my "moo moo" XD


wit Choi again...


kacau-ing her XD

cant help it... im taking pic together wit her all da time... > <
and juz realize dat i didnt take pic wit SF -____-||
actually she took one...
but she deleted...
due to da blur-ness...
-___-|| no fate...

my new "nai zhao" XD from living cabin...

i cant find anything gud on myself???yea, i find nth gud on myself...

sing quite a lot of songs on these days...
not quite a lot of songs -__-||
but some songs...
kept repeat again and again...
practising...
record again and again...
but it seems like...
no matter how many times i tried,
da "song" dat comes out still tis worse...
no...is worst...
my voice reli...
sucks -___-|| like hell...
dat im not suit to sing at all...
unpleasant to hear...
arghhhhhh~~!!

fine den...
guitar den...
play songs better than sing wat...
at least is not my voice > <
who knows...
cant play even a song...
aishhhhhhh....
for so long time,
i only know how to play da beginning part of Love Story...
how disgraceful...
chord?dun even know how to strum...
cant press well on the strings too...
ARGHHHH!!!!!

juz these...
already prove "myself"...
i reli find nth good on myself -___-||
couldnt find anything which is gud...
juz da brain and heart are working very well...
other than dat,
reli nth gud adi...
haizzz...
no wonder....
no wonder...
no wonder wat?
lol...
i wont tell u here...
guess it by urself...
is smth dat i always mention bout in my blog...

my very first time?? + am i doing da wrong thing?? [ Friday, 11th September 2009 ]

last nite went to Station 1 together wit Mun and Jing ....
wahhh dat Jing...
such a dangerous driver -___-||
kept speeding...
wondering y is she dat rush...
somemore rabun malam one -___-||
no no,
even know that the road is uneven but still speed...
den bing bing bang bing bong > <
aiyoyo later the rims of the car broken lor....

so many first time for last nite...
my very first time being fetch by Jing...
and oso my very first time go out wit frens tis late...
my very first time going to Station 1 -___-|||

if u read her blog,
sure u know what happened at Station 1 hahahahaha
and dat Jing reli...
like a turtle when order...
made da waiter waited for a reli long time...
after dat they asked da waiter to bring out all da "toys" ... > <
and they said "we are reli childish " hahahahahaha
we played the Uno blocks...
is reli challenging ...
and both Jing and Mun kept screaming like mad > <
everyone look at us...
aishhhhh so "fish" > <

reached home at about 12am+++
waliao...
luckily i didnt eat anything...
juz drink da strawberry already felt like vomiting after got down from da car...
not bcoz of da drinks,
but is Jing's driving skills > <

(at first i tot myself hav motion sickness bcoz i always got dizzy after got down from my dad's car...
and my dad said dat he drives so well i still get dizzy??
but i sit my sifu's car once and im super fine...
only i know dat da prob is da cars...
i easily get dizzy if da car isnt stable...
so im totally fine after my dad changed his car into da new Nissan Sylphy...)




FRIDAY
early in da morning waked by SF's call...
in a unconscious condition...
me "hello"
SF "u....r u going later??" (to skool for singing competition)
me "no"
SF "den how bout our cd??har??!! u wan us to go ur house to take???!!"
**hesitate**tink bout wat Jing told me... and finally .... "uhm..."
SF "ok den..."
~hung up~

and tis pop up in my mind...
"am i doing da wrong thing??shud i bring da cd for them??? "
actually i tot bout tis prob few days ago and i asked Jing wat to do wit da cd since we r not going for singing competition...
and she said "ask them to go ur house and take lar...好笑... "
and im kinda agreed wit her ...
y???
1st, we r da one who go and look for "their" musics (which isnt our job) and Jing downloaded da musics
2nd, Jing is da one who provides da CD....
3rd, im the one who edit the musics to make it louder...
4th, im the one who burn it into da CD...
5th, we are da one who trying so hard looking for a better version for them...and we can actually ignore dat...

while we r working so hard on all these, they did nth....
not even a thanks (if im not mistaken, Choi did said thanks to me when she requested us to help her find da musics)
and on da phone, sf sounds like she "beh song" us...
and da one who came to my house to take da CD is Chai Tjun...
-____-|||

kinda guilty...
but must rmb tis, dun follows ppl's wills easily...
dun get bully...
bcoz im no longer being protect (mentally) by "others"...
and if i told my dad,
da first thing i'll get is "scolding" ...
for sure he will scolds me and said dat im stupid blah blah blah...
and say dat isnt my job and shudnt be my job too... > <

but still nid to apologize here bcoz we din inform u earlier...
or i tot u know??
hmmmm...
im reli sorry...even though u wont cum and read tis, but still......... nid to apologize...
(almost type mianhae > <>

and BINGO!
is juz like wat i predicted...
reli got scold by SF during tuition...
"u 2 fan cheong ar.... din go for da competition" -___-|| how rude....
how innocent, im not da one who decide to not go but Jing T_____T
and i end up being scold by them again -___-||
how "lucky"~~
anyway....
alil alil...
get used to it ....

diff fandom??diff world??silence is golden...again... [ Wednesday, 9th September 2009 ]

today ...
gud day...
9 9 9...
so cum and update my blog yi xia...
if not later my one and only visitor complain me -___-|||
haizzz oso duno wat she complain...
as u know, i got no one to talk about...
besides my idol, family and frens...
and den tis gal, always hate what i luv -___-||
reli got no idea...
always 唱反调 ...

wats wrong??
wats wrong wit my SungMin???
cant i luv my one and only ??? : (
since i got no one...
and he is d only one...
4 of u dun like k-pop, so im not allowed too???
having diff fandom wit 4 of u reli hard to 相处 ... -___-|||
u like to see me being emo for da whole day izzit -___-|||
yea, it is not realistic...
i know...
but...
i cant help it too...

Minnie ar Minnie...
look at them... T____T
haizzz....
y do u looks so adorable but not handsome dat u couldnt attract them... :(
after u r being "discovered" in my world,
i always hav an urge wanted to get marry ... LOL!!!
wanted to marry someone like u...
not ur appearance, but ur personality and ur ability.... ^^
moreover u r multi-talented which most of them agreed ^^
such a perfect husband ... (for me) XD


bak to skool...
not much thing dat happened at skool...
but today ...
not only today lar...
is like everyday...(skooling day)
there must be smth dat i said wrongly which made ppl unpleased...
haizzzz...
for some reason, i shud watch my words b4 letting it out...
but...i juz...couldnt control...
in tis case....
da only thing i can do is...
study and keep quiet...
dun talk dat much in dat group -___-|||
1 on 1 conversation is much more better...
juz like when i talk wit Jing only...
hahahahaha...
on these days always jing jing jing jing jing jing =.=
duno leh...
i juz felt like i doesnt suit in their world (SF & Choi)..
and being eliminated ....
or isolated mayb???

my pc's hard disk dead T__T [ Saturday, 6th September 2009 ]

early in da morning 10am+++
went to hav breakfast together wit Choi at mamak...
wahhhh reli a long time dat i didnt hav breakfast together wit her....
still rmb dat during holidays we always hav breakfast together and den i will visit her house den only balik rumah....

haizzz....
having prob wit it on yesterday...
went to da repair shop again....
and wat he told me???
he said dat y hard disk dead already...
wat the???!!!!
and i was like... totally blank...
because my last back up was...
i dont reli rmb when was my last back up....
if im not mistaken, 2 weeks ago???
and between this 2 weeks, i downloaded and saved lots of stuff...
videossss and photossss...
i wasted so much time on waiting the videos to be done ...
and now wat???
all gone T___________T

was going to cry...
or i shud said, already cried...
da tears kept coming out...
having such a tough time on holding da tears -___-|||
carrying my cpu from here to there...
from Digital Mall to Summit...
every shop to see if my hard disk can be save anot....
but all of them said dat my hard disk is dead... T____T
bcoz da disc is not spinning at all....

recover data??? da cheapest is RM200 and oso...it doesnt guarantee dat all of ur files will be recover....
at first i was tinking ...
"even it is RM1000 i wan it to be recover as well using my own money"...
but when i reach home...
when my tears arent falling anymore...
i calmed down....
videos??download again den...no idea adi...
photos...save again .....
juz 2 weeks's things wat...
dun nid to cry like my family died -___-||||
but i reli worry if my last back up isnt last 2 weeks...
but i rmb, after i get bak my computer (my com has da same prob) den immediately i backup everything...
is 2 weeks ago....
so...im pretty sure dat dat was my last backup...
haizzzz...
T_____T hard disk ar hard disk...
why...
why didnt u warn me or giv me some signal b4 u dead???
so dat i can backup my data T____T
on dat day i still tinking of backing up...but why i didnt???
i wondering too -___-|||
wat the...
y am i so lazy???
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....



and still rmb dat 2 weeks ago dat technician told me dat my power supply and graphic card spoiled???
and last nite...
bcoz i was too free...
so i went to test both da power supply and graphic card on d other computer (which da power supply already spoiled)...
and da truth hits me....
it works very well -____-|||
so i plug da graphic card there....
IT WORKS AGAIN....
***broooom brooooom**
and i wasted about RM200 on da new one... T_____T
and now im using tis "miracle cpu" ....
den da graphic nid drive but tis stupid cpu got no cdrom...
so i went to "steal" one of my cdrom from my actual cpu lor... XD
and place inside dat acer cpu...
den my koko said "wahhh u can become technician adi" (sms)
lol i oso felt so... XD

haizzzz...
i shud hav make a decision to buy new cpu 2 weeks ago when da "1st dead" ...
so dat my data wont lost T_____T
haizzz...


hope...hope...hope
hope dat i reli did a "complete backup" on last 2 weeks T____T

i deeply learned smth new today....
and i will backup my data everynite b4 i sleep -___-|||

Koko performing Sorry Sorry by Super Junior

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