Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Monday, 13rd April 2009

wake up early in da morning..
mong cha cha...
dun wan to wake up...
wanted to sleep more eh...
got shocked by her msg...
is so...sudden...
which is reli.... shocking -___-|||
macam ini...
from -___- become O_____O
immediately 精神 ....
is reli...
aishhhhh...
duno y suddenly i "suk sa" -___-||
so scare pulak...
kept being goosebump...
wondering y > <
aishhhhhhhhh....
scare wat scare lar???!!
reli useless de...
lil thing oso wan to be tis scare -___-|||

today my turn to be emo liao...
at skool...
kept tinking tinking and tinking..
and tis Jing....
reli...
i reli duno wat shud i say...
kept scolding me de -___-||
not reli scold lar...
is smth like...
say??
is not say lar...
is more like forcing and after dat she will be very syok to c im speechless -___-||
go to library...
more cham...
dat Jing and SF gang up and 审问 > <
more like "bek gong" > <
wat???
they asked me y i dun let them to care me (y i dun wan to tell them my things)
and i reli dun uds wat r they actually tinking de lor...
b4 tis...
i was so "willing" to tell lar...
kept wanted to tell my things...
but no one wants to listen...
so fine...
i oso dun wan to be dat thicked skin to wan or force others to listen to my story....
dat is y i always blog-ing...
to express my feeling here ...
and oso to tell my blog since no one wanted to listen...
(if is bout other things like frens, studies, parents, lifes and all den my darling will be my listener as always)
and oso learn to be not dat thicked skin lar...
learn to hide everything and not keep pulling ppl and force them to listen...
bcoz i know is very suffer+torture to listen to my boring stories...
tried so hard...
and finally i succeed in hiding my feelings...
but to tell my blog..
den wat happened to them??
say i dun wan to tell them my things to let them care pulak...
alamak...
reading my blog is one of da way to know bout my things...
but u know de lor...
my thing...lai lai qu qu oso da same...
if u so hate to know bout it...
den wat for to read???
after read den cum and scold me...
den make me so scare to type out my feeling and all at here liao...
nid to hide tis hide dat even writing diary...
write dao so 辛苦 and 委屈 duno write lai zomok...
if continue like tis i will reli move da whole blog away... -____-|||

reasons dat i wanted to hide...
tell u all...u all r like dun wish to listen...
even listen oso like so 委屈...
i c u all so 辛苦 den dun wan to torture u all de ear by telling my things lor...
if not leh??
tell liao den kena marah...
already enuff hurt lor...
still cum scold me -___-||
comfort me yi xia will die ar...
den u tink i will so dak han to tell my things out and let u all scold or sarcastic me anot??
no rite??
not scold me den say i stupid tis and dat... -___-||
dun even know wats going on...
ok... den fine...
keep quiet...
dun wan to tell liao...
den wat??when i dun wan to tell den kept wanted to dig my things out...
tried so hard to dig tim~~
put so much effort on digging my things out rite??
-____-|||
den after digging out wat i get??
get scold lar of coz...
so easy oso duno...
until i nid to consider and check everytime b4 i publish my post...
do u know dat i stop writing diary??
and now im taking my blog as my diary...
and is of coz writing wat i feel like wan to write in MY DIARY...
and is not writing wat u wan to read -___-|||
if so suffer i better continue wit my old way...
write diary wit hands..
or else den move da whole blog...

i know u care me...
ermmm obviously da "U" is referring to our Jing...
bcoz only she so free hor cum and 8 my boring stories hahahahaha
but so sad...
da one who cares me is da one who will scold me like hell on da next day at skool -___-|||
but if is related wit "other ppl" den i will tell geh...
but da prob is...
my things is more bout "dat" -___-||
so wat u wan me to do har??
den i tink my dat phillipine fren bu chuo lor...
she never reply me anything harsh...
but giving advice and comforting me...
mayb bcoz she has da same situation as me..
and she knows very well dat how i feel...
she is always a gud listener....
and who i nid?wat i nid?
is a listener...
juz dat...
and oso wish to be u all de listener...

after reading tis post dun cum and scold me tomoro at skool -___-||
but u wan scold i oso cant help it -___-||
phobia uiii~~

while walking bak home...
jing tell me de thing...
is diff situation...
well i juz can say dat is hard for u to say anything on it if u wanted to say dat is my fault in disturbing their life...
our relationship is not as easy as u tink...
is smth reli complicated...
u will only know wat we r if u read our conversation since da day we know each other...
and i dun reli agree wit wat u said...
bcoz we r like tis since da beginning...
and suddenly wan us to change??
is hard for us...
and is reli very long in complaining bout tis lar -___-|||
luckily i only type it on "today" (tuesday)
if not it will be more longer -__-||
bcoz i cant reli rmb some of ur words...


reach home den hav a talk wit my darling bout wat happened at skool...
had a lil argument bout dat...
not reli argument lar...
juz......discuss > <
den after dat she translate+romanize a thai song for me...
and is reli funny dat juz da title suits her....
and da whole lyric is actually suits me more > <
choose wrong song hahahahaha
den at nite...
aishhh duno wat da hell is wrong wit me...
kept being hot -___-|||
last time oso seldom hot like tis...
sei lor...
my turn to be so jealousy liao > <
aishhhh...
but quite fun oso > <
bcoz change reli fast hahahaha
awhile moody awhile shy > <
if not den kept talking smth weird -___-||
**slap myself**
sampat sia .... -___-||
and tis gal...
wanted to play song for me to listen...
den i was tinking she is playing da song for herself or wat -___-||
kept repeating da front part...
dun let me to listen da whole song...
and tell me dat she likes da front part -____-||||
let her gek sei...
scare scare scare oso let her make dao not scare liao... -___-|||
cum and "chi gek" me > <

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