among them...im the only one...and the only odd one....

last night went out yamcha with my friends...
after i get into the car...
rolled my eyes...
why do i have to sit with the love-bird??
they are being so intimate which annoyed me...

i talk less compare to what i usually did...
perhaps....im the oil and they were the water...
and thats why...
cant even get one of my leg in their topics...
keep quiet will be better???
but i dont want to show any awkwardness...
so...better speak something....
was thinking...
am i coming out at the wrong time and date??
i shouldnt go with them and should just stay at home...
maybe i would be happier to be with the virtual one than reality...
perhaps, internet and forums are part of my life....

oh yea...
went to McDonald...
where everyone is eating except me...
urgh...
im the odd one again...
the foods...quite tempting...
but i just couldnt eat even a bit...
how pity??
then what for to go out? i wondering.....
i was left in the corner of the table...
awkward....
trying so hard to bring out topic...
but just... dont know why, i lost my ability on communicating LOL!!
this is what happened after stuck with the internet for weeks without going to school...

and finally,
we can go home...
arghhh how tired...
disguise?is really tiring...
really....
and still...
SuJu's Sorry Sorry boost me up...
hahahaha thanks for not against on the song i want to listen...
usually, Jing will skip all the songs i am singing or the songs i like...
=.= dont need to be curious or surprise,
because they always against with the things i like...
never ever support before LOL
fandom, idols, just everything...

at the moment when im at the back sitting with the love-bird...
i started to think that...again...im the only odd one...
my friends in the car...
all of them ever been in relationships...
ever liked by the others...
just me who are so odd LOL!!!
odd case?
not only this...
all of them are taking additional mathematics,
just me who are taking ERT, alone...
how odd??
i was forced by the teacher to study ERT...
what the hell...
judge me like that because i get B for Math during PMR???
please dont underestimate my ability ....
and please understand that i never touch any books during PMR...
but at that time...what to say??
can enter account class already lucky....
so...better just shut my mouth...

ok, back to the odd case...
all of them are into c-pop, just me who are into k-pop...
LOL!!! funny...
having different fandom already a problem
even different language...
one thing that i dont really understand,
i never bash your idols nor favorite artist,
why must you bash mine???
why must you against with the things i like???
only Taiwanese/Chinese are normal?
so Korean artist are abnormal???
that you have to bash for everytime im talking about them?
moreover, i knew and thats why i didnt talk about them infront of you all...
compare to SF, who always talks about her lover,
im better a lot LOL!!!
hardship...
because we are so different...
that i couldnt find any similarity on us...
but....
indeed...
i still take you all as my close friends...
no matter how you teased me, scolded me, shouted at me, treated me...
yea...
and im just so stupid...
stupid and silly...
being used for this and that...

and for SF...
happy to see that you are so lucky...
and finally you are not in my gang anymore...
happy to know that you dont need me (mentally) anymore...
you're no longer be like me...
you are crying for love now,
which shows that you had grown up...

left me, the only odd one here...
who are crying like you too...
not much different from you,
as im crying alone here for love too...
however, im crying for love to reach me,
and melt my heart...
unlike you who crying over something that you already have...
temporary, Minnie will be the one who replace my love....
but still, im eager for it...
hahahahaha i know im greedy that i want two....
but i will throw one away when i get another one...
i know im mean...
at the same time im loyal too... > <
just ignore what i said at the above...
i think im a little unconscious...
out of my mind...and also out of control...

I Love My Dear FriendS!!!
And Also People Who Always Be There For Me To Support Me!!!
No Matter What,When,Where&How...

Can't Live Without You-All~~~
My Family, My Friendss & My Unnie.... (no oppa)

Arraso?? (知道了吗？)

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home = flood T.T what an unlucky day... [ Thursday, 29th October 2009 ]

just now,
i was taking nap...
and suddenly black out...
because of the thunder+lightning ...
my grandma said if on the switch now later will black out again...
so...
we just stay like that...
and my mami came back with KFC... > <
while eating, i was trying to take out my lamb chop to unfreeze it...
suddenly, hmmm why is something dripping on my feet,
(because there isn't any light so i couldnt see properly at first)
turned around, what the heck "MAMI!!! OUR HOUSE IS RAINING!!!"
actually is common that there is water dripping/leaking out from my kitchen's ceiling...
it happened everytime when rain heavily...
but this time is really...omg...
the water is leaking out everywhere...
almost the whole kitchen that even pails cant help anything...
adn then i called my daddy "papa! ur house is flooding !!"
and because i have to deal with these,
my whole body gone wet ...
haizz first time felt like holding an umbrella inside the house T.T
if you are here you will know how serious it is...

went to sms my bro to tell him...
gosh, he still joking with me > <
really...
and even ask me if there is any gold fish in our house =.=

my room...
even worse...
my whole bed is wet T.T
and the water until now still dripping...
my mum said my bed need to be throw away already because is like half of the bed is wet...
T___________T NOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~!!!
my queen size and comfortable bed T.T
even my comforter is wet...
haizzz..
where am i going to sleep tonight??
luckily my bro's room is the only room didnt encounter with the "flood" > <
so...probably, im sleeping there tonight...
i want my bedddd T_____________T

busy sweeping and wiping away the water just now...
arghhhh so tired...
please~~~
**protest** I WANTED TO MOVE TO THE OTHER HOUSE!!!!
i couldnt stand with this house anymore...
because my hosue is even worse than those small houses -___-||

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basketball??cigarette??Neway+Sing K... [ Monday, 19th October 2009 ]

early in the morning...
went to play basketball...
not really...
just play for awhile and then started to sit there and talk again XD
today...
my very first time...
seeing Choi holding a cigarette in her hand...
i've stop her...
but she is just like...couldnt control herself...
i kept scolding...
she just ignore my words...
and she still lit up the cigarette and started to smokes...
gosh...
what happened to all my friends??
at first SF...
and now her turn...
why cant they be more mature???
why are they doing this to harm themselves while showing others that they dont love themselves...
is this the only way to solve problems??
frustrated??
i am too, as well as everyone...
did they do the same thing like what you did??
you are just looking excuses for you to smokes...
i'm alcohol addicts too...
but did i went and booz until vomit everywhere when i am frustrated??
even after drinking or smoking,
things are still the same, never change...
really...
incurable...
i dont know what should i say about them...

went to Neway to sing K after that...
of course i will choose Sorry Sorry hehehehe...
what makes me surprise is Jun Lim knew about the song as well...
wow XD
even know how to sing...
and that is the first song that he is singing...
unfortunately...
he only get chorus...
for me...
i sing till almost out of oxygen...
never have that chance to breathe...
1 person singing 13 person's parts...
non stop -___-||
gosh...
and also the song is fast like hell...
at last when i reach heechul's part even off pitch LOL!!!
so embarrassing > <

after singing then went for tuition...
when i got back im already like a dead meat...
tired like hell...
plus last night didnt sleep well...
only sleep for few hours...
haizzz...
pitiful...

"teh"?? + lunatics in the class + weird dream > < + Chinese class incident [Thursday, 15th October 2009 ]

on Tuesday...
at E.T. (for tuition of course)
Mrs Lee say me very manja... > <
and i was like "huh???am i??"

and on last night...
the truth hits me T.T
i found that i am really like that LOL!!!
duhhh~~~
on last night, we have addition class for account (tuition of course)
and we need to do test...
but then ...
since i long time didnt do some of the question so i've forgotten how to do it...
and kept asking for teacher's help...
who knows teacher kept going for others while i kept calling her...
after a long time she still continue to ignore me and ask me to wait...
then i started to wriggle and act like a kid...a.k.a "teh" > <
until my teacher also couldnt stand it and kept laughing there ...
aishhhhhhhhh -___-||
and when she is teaching me...
i'm correct but she said that i am wrong so then i fight back...
and she noticed that she see wrongly and i started to wriggle again and she laugh again...
and sayang me by touching my head/back...
it keep repeating like this > <

oh one more thing...
actually wanted to complain that i got scolded by SF again on last night asking me to shut up...
feeling so bad and hurt with her words...
but then seeing her acting like this during account class...
i make up my mind not to blame her nor complain...
because...
understandable ...
she is out of her mind LOL!!! she's just like a lunatic, kept talking with herself ...
i mean like, having conversation with herself...
if not then shout loudly all of sudden without any reason...
oh God...save us -___-|||
not only her, sue yinn, chu ling and eugene also the same...
especially that sue yinn...
holding my hand sanitizer and said "joey...next time dont buy this brand you know?"
and i was like "huh??why?"
and she said "you seeeeeee this only kill 99.9% of germs and bacteria but not 100%, u better dun buy this" and she start laughing right after she finish her sentence...
me and Choi went like this >>>>> -____-||||
and Choi said "teacher, lets move to other room and left the mad ones over here... for our safety"
but we didnt have that chance T____T
and that SF remain to be crazy...
she is just like a drunker ....
the way she speaks and all...
and Choi scolded her "you can go back blog-ing said that she 发'siao' "
"huh?? i think she not only 发siao...
but straight away 发孝...
fermentation you know?her new name...fermentation"
and SF agree by saying this "yeaaaaa thats why im like a drunker because i am fermentation ... alcohol is processed through that..."
-______-|||
leaves rustle~~~~ and wind blows~~~
is so cold =.=



and finally comes to today's event...
event -___-||
wrong word...
going for chinese class...
and i sleep really early on last night...
but ...not dont know why, i know the reason why i wake this late...
is because i had a dream again...
what the...
wondering why...
on these days kept dreaming dreaming dreaming which made me wake lately on everyday...
all weird dreams and also foods dreams which i dont remember clearly after i woke up...
the same for today...
i just remember that this dream is kinda sweet...
awwwwwwwwwww....
is embarrassing to tell here.... > <
i mean to tell in a public area which is visible to anyone...
and also im not qualified for that lar... (talking about my dream)
if you are curious or wanted to know,
you can ask me ...
and i'll consider on telling you personally about it...
dont be late...
because i easily forget the content of my dreams...

and also have so much fun during chinese class...
our Pn Yong is still being that humor ...
and im so surprise that SF came for the class too O.O
even more surprise is she came together with "104" O________O
omoooo~~~
whats on earth is happening??
why is she acting strangely/weirdly on these days????
that even she herself also wondering why is she like that?????

what a phone conversation...which once again making me feeling bad...[ Tuesday, 13th October 2009

had a talk with Jing on the phone...
is so excited ehh??? hahahaha

but suddenly..
i not really remember what makes me start to be blue again...
when responding her,
i slip of the tongue end up saying this : "yea...wondering why...the guys you met are always good one...me?? lol.... not a pervy then an insulter..."
(didnt want to let her know about such disgraceful things about me actually...but since she already knew everything and i ever told her some of it...so...let it be...)
and she ask me to not say so...
and i replied her " why? it isn't like that?"
and she kept quiet...

apparently ...
that is the fact....
non of the them that i met is a good one...
besides bad...they are still bad...
maybe...
when they are with other people, they acting good?
and when it comes to me, they act differently to me...
is because they arent gentleman?or is because of me?
probably...no...obviously...im the cause...
until now...
i still didnt know that what and how a gentleman is...
a good one maybe??but how...i really have no idea with it...
and even see the bad one as a good one...
admittedly, how blind i am??? LOL
hey...
just to tell that im not stupid nor idiot...
is just...blind...
what kind of blind??
love blind LOL!!!
i'm smart enough, kay?
i still know how to distinguish a white and a black...
(of course, im not having colour-blindness LOL ) > <
and also i see everything before they reveal/do it...
is just that...
i choose to .... hide "them"...
which is the fact that i wouldnt want to know but what to do?
i already knew it right before it is being reveal...

smart?is that good??
is tiring...and sad...
sometimes i wish to be a dumb dumb...
be pure and simple...
innocent as well...
but he is my papa...
and i inherited what i didnt want from him...
papa is tiring you know?
need to be alert and aware of everything and anything...
even just a tiny stuff, but you are over-reacting to it...

if i am not...
i might not know that...
they actually never ever have feelings towards me...
never really like me...
non of them...
but just playing with my feelings...
have so much fun huh??
im just a companion when they are lonely??
maybe... when their real girls weren't around them?
and im just a replacement after all....
they are so worse...
really...worse...
worst ever...
or is just me who is the worst one??
accepting me...
not as their love's one...
but as their slave???
lol...
slave... i am a slave...
yea...and that is why i said im so worst...
that im agree being their slave...
so...again...is my fault on being their slave willingly??
or is their fault on taking me as their slave ??
slave... kinda polite on describing me... isn't it?
should just straight away admit that im a slut instead of slave LOL!!!

c'mon...
slave...slut...bitch...
anything...
because 3 of them suit my personality and actions so well...

my Choi...
ever protected me in front of the other friends...
saying that im not like that...
is just because i love the person i love...
and that is why im acting like this...
but it doesnt mean that im a bitch or something like that...
thanks a lot for your words...
it's you...
and only you will protect me by ignoring what others had said about me...
neorago.....
im glad with that...cherish...and treasure...
but then...i somehow felt that i am just like what they said...
and they are right...
and actually...i didnt admit that at the first place...
but after that...i felt like...
everyone is agreeing and is just me who denying...
maybe that's the fact thats why everyone is agreeing ???
must be like that...
and i started to accept the fact that i am like this, so what???
it might be humiliating for me...
not might...
but certainly, it is...
anyhow... accepting the fact...is a good thing...???

fanfics addict. XD

grannyLEE arrrr~~
gifs is coming soon...
you must be patient ok???
im looking for people's help of making a clearer gifs...
with small file size...
and still scratching my head with your recording stuff...
whats your recording arrrrrrr
really curious....
is about SuJu??
hmmmm but you said is not singing?
hmmmmmm....

recently kept reading...
arghhhh exam is around the corner...
but...
im reading...
yea im reading....
reading fanfics LOL!!!!
not text books -___-||
what a good student > <
and also addicted with the fanfics...
people who knows me well should know that im lazy and also hate to read long article...
but of course...
if is Minnie then different case hehehehehe....
even read for the whole midnight until forgetting myself...
-____-|||


the fanfics....
a lot of "yaoi" content and also "yadong" LOL!!!!
uh hum...
Midnight Fantasy huh???
i knew im underage hahahahahhaa...
but the writer really...
really -___-||
i have no idea with them...
they like to pair up KyuHyun and Minnie...
ok ...well kyumin... everywhere...fine then...
(personally, i prefer KangMin hahahahaha....)
but they really likes to put something "weird" on Minnie -___-|||
i've read some of the fanfics telling that Minnie is pregnant > <
what the.....
Minnie is the only one who always pregnant -___-|||
aishhhhhhhhh....
or else then Minnie is the one who always got "bang" by kyuhyun -___-||
aishhhhhhhhhhhhh....
cant blame too...
Minnie is feminine...thats why...
but he is manly right now aeeeee~~~
haizzzz...
no choice too...
since most of the fanfics writer were kyuhyun fans...
even it is not, i can only see kangteuk but not kangmin...
eunmin is not bad too...
ryeomin maybe??hehehehe so that it will be "vise versa" uh hum~~~

bless you + went to yamcha... [ Wednesday, 7th October 2009 ]

over here...
just wanted to say that...
i hope everything is fine at Phillipine...
especially you!! grannyLEE !!! dont die.... > <
dont leave your dongsaeng like this...
i'll miss you...
miss changing comments with you...
haizzz....


went to yamcha together with Jing and Choi...
my program starts...
and is so torturing to see delicious foods...
we first went to Old Town....
and i cant believe that i really ordered the half boiled eggs for myself LOL!!!
it cost me RM2.50 ...
is expensive isn't it?
but is Omega egg LOL!!!
and also the eggs is all right to be serve...
didn't take pic of it -___-|||
but is not as expensive as Jing's lime juice LOL!!
RM3 blekkk and she only has RM3 in her wallet -___-||
wondering what kind of person is this...
didnt order things before knowing how much she has...

and then they wanted to eat "Luk Luk"...
fine then, i will be just standing there watching them...
cute of them, each of them just ate a stick =.=
before we leave, i turned around and saw "Mat Dou Yao",
and i said "wooooo is Mat Dou Yao"...
and suddenly the tauke of the Luk Luk's car said "mat dou mou jor lor" (because is late already)
and we laughed LOL!!!

and then went to Mamak...
again T.T roti roti roti...
i wanted to eat so much...
arghhhhh....
and our 问题 Jing again has lots of questions...
asking the waiter whats the difference with Thosai Ghee and Thosai Paper...
arghhhh...
she is always like this...
and compliment herself after that...and say that we should learn to be 不耻下问...
-___-||
3 words...
受不了.... > <
and then kept looking at the pricelist...
and she got scolded by Choi that she come here not to check the price of each food -___-|||
and then this girl...
i guess she is full but felt like eating Thosai but afraid that she cant finish it...
so what she did??
kept making her Thosai "flying around"...
because the Thosai is crispy and thin, thats why can fly easily > <
when we're going to pay...
only she realize that her Thosai cost RM3...
and i scolded her "you are check the prices just now dont you??and why didnt you look at the price of food that you ordered??dumb dumb..."

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Sung Min at 090502 Sorry Sorry Performance...
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Minnie dance differently for this time > <
he looks super hot XD

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kor tod na...but i wont "return" ... + double dare?? my double 1st time as well -___-||| > < [Sunday, 4th October 2009]

last night...
no no...
is last last night...
really appreciate...
thanks a lot for spending your time on listening to my annoying things...
only you would listen to me willingly and also being so interested to my things...
im so bad to you....
but you still treat me good like this...
maybe that is what i get from treating you nicely formerly...
i felt really guilty...
but i will not turn to be like what i am formerly...
mianhae...


last night went to Pei Pei house...
because of the lantern festival of course...
play like mad with her friends...
double dare?? never play before...
but really fun???
fun because i only got it once LOL!!!!
but seeing them doing something really ... insane???
arghhh i forgot her name, just remember that her name start from Y -___-|||
Yan Yin Yam? forgot which one....
but remember that the other girl is her twin sister...
so funny that they asked her to go up stair, open the door, scream loudly, and come down LOL!!!
and my parents, Pei Pei's parents and all the uncles and aunties were at up stair singing karaoke...
i thought she not going to do it...
who knows she run to upstairs open the door and "AHHHH~~~!!!" then came down...
we laughed our ass off... -___-||
really funny...
laughed till my stomach hurts...
really super funny...
and she said there was one uncle sitting beside the door and when she screamed, that uncle looked at her LOL!!!!
i guess the uncle turned deaf already...

and also...
this double dare...
took away 2 of my first time T.T
my first time kissing people ... on her cheek of course ... luckily, she is a girl and luckily, she is Carmen hahahahaha... > <
and also...my first time being kiss...on my cheek of course lol... but cannot resist...
-____-||| > <
aishhhh somemore that girl...i dont even know her -___-||
again dont know which Y...
Yin Yan Yam??
just knowing her for the first day and also for few hours LOL!!!
and i knew she would choose me when Pei Pei disallowed her to pick her friends ...
she should choose Carmen LOL!!
people who knows me well must be thinking how can i do that LOL!!
is because i drank...but im not drunk yet...
just drank 2 glasses of Gold Label ...
or else i wont be that daring XD

一个。。。没人帮得上忙，又不能说出口的痛苦。。。很累。。。却很想维护真相。。。

黄晓芬！
生日快乐。。。
很抱歉。。。
未能和你一起出去吃一餐。。。
也感到很遗憾。。。
不知道你是否会来读我的blog。。。
不过还是祝贺你了。。。
你刚刚说的话。。。
也许是真的。。。
但。。。因为某种原因。。。
我。。。仍然感觉不到。。。
在乎？？真的。。。感觉不到。。。

吴晶晶！
对你无礼了。。。
对不起。。。
不想对你发脾气。。。
却又控制不了。。。




妈的。。。
今天烦死了。。。
刚刚跟爸吵架。。。
现在？
懒得跟他吵。。。
他讲完。。。
每次都是这样。。。
喝醉酒就这样。。。
为了维护他们，真的找了很多很多的理由。。。
不对。。。
对爸来讲，我是再找借口。。。
很累。。。
真的很累。。。
有什么办法？
他们的确是这样。。。
爸说的没错。。。
一点都没错。。。
只不过是我自己不想接受事实。。。
不想承认他们的确是这样。。。。


菜。。。
并不是你所说的那样。。。
我自己知道。。。也看到。。。
他的确是有用功。。。
也花了比我们多一倍的努力。。。
你。。。
可以不要再拿你的儿子和别人做比较吗？？
如果不是Gohonzon。。。
哥。。。根本不会有今天。。。
根本不会上到大学。。。
而菜。。。
并不像哥那样有福气。。。
可以在Gohonzon家族里长大。。。
不要因为他和你没关系，
就把他说得一文不值。。。


或许你会说，他交到我这个朋友，是三生有幸。。。
可是。。。我也很幸运。。。可以交到像他这样的朋友。。。
平时在你们看不到我的时候。。。
都是他在照顾着我。。。
管着我的健康。。。
虽然他做的不比你们多。。。
可是。。。却补了你们的“漏洞”。。。


吵到说不出话来了。。。
有话。。。只是不想和爸吵。。。
自己其实也很清楚。。。
在为着自己找借口。。。
无可否认。。。
多多少少。。。
我。。。
被影响了。。。
以前的我。。。
很像没有这样糟糕。。。
现在？？
真的很糟糕。。。
东西不做。。。
家务也不做。。。
学校不去。。。
书又不读。。。
有。。。临时抱佛脚就有。。。。
我。。。到底变成怎样了？？？
我。。。还是以前的我吗？
突然觉得自己很浪费资源。。。
真的没有一点是好的。。。
浪费父母的钱养我。。。
浪费地球上的资源。。。
还敢说自己很爱护地球。。。
其实自己就是那个在破坏地球的人。。。


该死的我。。。
有家庭却不珍惜。。。
有记忆力。。。却不读书。。。
可以考到很好的成绩。。。自己却放弃，在混。。。
我。。。
到底。。。
是怎么了？？？