what a phone conversation...which once again making me feeling bad...[ Tuesday, 13th October 2009

had a talk with Jing on the phone...
is so excited ehh??? hahahaha

but suddenly..
i not really remember what makes me start to be blue again...
when responding her,
i slip of the tongue end up saying this : "yea...wondering why...the guys you met are always good one...me?? lol.... not a pervy then an insulter..."
(didnt want to let her know about such disgraceful things about me actually...but since she already knew everything and i ever told her some of it...so...let it be...)
and she ask me to not say so...
and i replied her " why? it isn't like that?"
and she kept quiet...

apparently ...
that is the fact....
non of the them that i met is a good one...
besides bad...they are still bad...
maybe...
when they are with other people, they acting good?
and when it comes to me, they act differently to me...
is because they arent gentleman?or is because of me?
probably...no...obviously...im the cause...
until now...
i still didnt know that what and how a gentleman is...
a good one maybe??but how...i really have no idea with it...
and even see the bad one as a good one...
admittedly, how blind i am??? LOL
hey...
just to tell that im not stupid nor idiot...
is just...blind...
what kind of blind??
love blind LOL!!!
i'm smart enough, kay?
i still know how to distinguish a white and a black...
(of course, im not having colour-blindness LOL ) > <
and also i see everything before they reveal/do it...
is just that...
i choose to .... hide "them"...
which is the fact that i wouldnt want to know but what to do?
i already knew it right before it is being reveal...

smart?is that good??
is tiring...and sad...
sometimes i wish to be a dumb dumb...
be pure and simple...
innocent as well...
but he is my papa...
and i inherited what i didnt want from him...
papa is tiring you know?
need to be alert and aware of everything and anything...
even just a tiny stuff, but you are over-reacting to it...

if i am not...
i might not know that...
they actually never ever have feelings towards me...
never really like me...
non of them...
but just playing with my feelings...
have so much fun huh??
im just a companion when they are lonely??
maybe... when their real girls weren't around them?
and im just a replacement after all....
they are so worse...
really...worse...
worst ever...
or is just me who is the worst one??
accepting me...
not as their love's one...
but as their slave???
lol...
slave... i am a slave...
yea...and that is why i said im so worst...
that im agree being their slave...
so...again...is my fault on being their slave willingly??
or is their fault on taking me as their slave ??
slave... kinda polite on describing me... isn't it?
should just straight away admit that im a slut instead of slave LOL!!!

c'mon...
slave...slut...bitch...
anything...
because 3 of them suit my personality and actions so well...

my Choi...
ever protected me in front of the other friends...
saying that im not like that...
is just because i love the person i love...
and that is why im acting like this...
but it doesnt mean that im a bitch or something like that...
thanks a lot for your words...
it's you...
and only you will protect me by ignoring what others had said about me...
neorago.....
im glad with that...cherish...and treasure...
but then...i somehow felt that i am just like what they said...
and they are right...
and actually...i didnt admit that at the first place...
but after that...i felt like...
everyone is agreeing and is just me who denying...
maybe that's the fact thats why everyone is agreeing ???
must be like that...
and i started to accept the fact that i am like this, so what???
it might be humiliating for me...
not might...
but certainly, it is...
anyhow... accepting the fact...is a good thing...???

fanfics addict. XD

grannyLEE arrrr~~
gifs is coming soon...
you must be patient ok???
im looking for people's help of making a clearer gifs...
with small file size...
and still scratching my head with your recording stuff...
whats your recording arrrrrrr
really curious....
is about SuJu??
hmmmm but you said is not singing?
hmmmmmm....

recently kept reading...
arghhhh exam is around the corner...
but...
im reading...
yea im reading....
reading fanfics LOL!!!!
not text books -___-||
what a good student > <
and also addicted with the fanfics...
people who knows me well should know that im lazy and also hate to read long article...
but of course...
if is Minnie then different case hehehehehe....
even read for the whole midnight until forgetting myself...
-____-|||


the fanfics....
a lot of "yaoi" content and also "yadong" LOL!!!!
uh hum...
Midnight Fantasy huh???
i knew im underage hahahahahhaa...
but the writer really...
really -___-||
i have no idea with them...
they like to pair up KyuHyun and Minnie...
ok ...well kyumin... everywhere...fine then...
(personally, i prefer KangMin hahahahaha....)
but they really likes to put something "weird" on Minnie -___-|||
i've read some of the fanfics telling that Minnie is pregnant > <
what the.....
Minnie is the only one who always pregnant -___-|||
aishhhhhhhhh....
or else then Minnie is the one who always got "bang" by kyuhyun -___-||
aishhhhhhhhhhhhh....
cant blame too...
Minnie is feminine...thats why...
but he is manly right now aeeeee~~~
haizzzz...
no choice too...
since most of the fanfics writer were kyuhyun fans...
even it is not, i can only see kangteuk but not kangmin...
eunmin is not bad too...
ryeomin maybe??hehehehe so that it will be "vise versa" uh hum~~~

bless you + went to yamcha... [ Wednesday, 7th October 2009 ]

over here...
just wanted to say that...
i hope everything is fine at Phillipine...
especially you!! grannyLEE !!! dont die.... > <
dont leave your dongsaeng like this...
i'll miss you...
miss changing comments with you...
haizzz....


went to yamcha together with Jing and Choi...
my program starts...
and is so torturing to see delicious foods...
we first went to Old Town....
and i cant believe that i really ordered the half boiled eggs for myself LOL!!!
it cost me RM2.50 ...
is expensive isn't it?
but is Omega egg LOL!!!
and also the eggs is all right to be serve...
didn't take pic of it -___-|||
but is not as expensive as Jing's lime juice LOL!!
RM3 blekkk and she only has RM3 in her wallet -___-||
wondering what kind of person is this...
didnt order things before knowing how much she has...

and then they wanted to eat "Luk Luk"...
fine then, i will be just standing there watching them...
cute of them, each of them just ate a stick =.=
before we leave, i turned around and saw "Mat Dou Yao",
and i said "wooooo is Mat Dou Yao"...
and suddenly the tauke of the Luk Luk's car said "mat dou mou jor lor" (because is late already)
and we laughed LOL!!!

and then went to Mamak...
again T.T roti roti roti...
i wanted to eat so much...
arghhhhh....
and our 问题 Jing again has lots of questions...
asking the waiter whats the difference with Thosai Ghee and Thosai Paper...
arghhhh...
she is always like this...
and compliment herself after that...and say that we should learn to be 不耻下问...
-___-||
3 words...
受不了.... > <
and then kept looking at the pricelist...
and she got scolded by Choi that she come here not to check the price of each food -___-|||
and then this girl...
i guess she is full but felt like eating Thosai but afraid that she cant finish it...
so what she did??
kept making her Thosai "flying around"...
because the Thosai is crispy and thin, thats why can fly easily > <
when we're going to pay...
only she realize that her Thosai cost RM3...
and i scolded her "you are check the prices just now dont you??and why didnt you look at the price of food that you ordered??dumb dumb..."

Sung Min gif - 090502 Sorry Sorry Performance

Sung Min at 090502 Sorry Sorry Performance...
gif ----> made by ME!!! KaNGaRooBaby910 !!!

Minnie dance differently for this time > <
he looks super hot XD

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kor tod na...but i wont "return" ... + double dare?? my double 1st time as well -___-||| > < [Sunday, 4th October 2009]

last night...
no no...
is last last night...
really appreciate...
thanks a lot for spending your time on listening to my annoying things...
only you would listen to me willingly and also being so interested to my things...
im so bad to you....
but you still treat me good like this...
maybe that is what i get from treating you nicely formerly...
i felt really guilty...
but i will not turn to be like what i am formerly...
mianhae...


last night went to Pei Pei house...
because of the lantern festival of course...
play like mad with her friends...
double dare?? never play before...
but really fun???
fun because i only got it once LOL!!!!
but seeing them doing something really ... insane???
arghhh i forgot her name, just remember that her name start from Y -___-|||
Yan Yin Yam? forgot which one....
but remember that the other girl is her twin sister...
so funny that they asked her to go up stair, open the door, scream loudly, and come down LOL!!!
and my parents, Pei Pei's parents and all the uncles and aunties were at up stair singing karaoke...
i thought she not going to do it...
who knows she run to upstairs open the door and "AHHHH~~~!!!" then came down...
we laughed our ass off... -___-||
really funny...
laughed till my stomach hurts...
really super funny...
and she said there was one uncle sitting beside the door and when she screamed, that uncle looked at her LOL!!!!
i guess the uncle turned deaf already...

and also...
this double dare...
took away 2 of my first time T.T
my first time kissing people ... on her cheek of course ... luckily, she is a girl and luckily, she is Carmen hahahahaha... > <
and also...my first time being kiss...on my cheek of course lol... but cannot resist...
-____-||| > <
aishhhh somemore that girl...i dont even know her -___-||
again dont know which Y...
Yin Yan Yam??
just knowing her for the first day and also for few hours LOL!!!
and i knew she would choose me when Pei Pei disallowed her to pick her friends ...
she should choose Carmen LOL!!
people who knows me well must be thinking how can i do that LOL!!
is because i drank...but im not drunk yet...
just drank 2 glasses of Gold Label ...
or else i wont be that daring XD

一个。。。没人帮得上忙，又不能说出口的痛苦。。。很累。。。却很想维护真相。。。

黄晓芬！
生日快乐。。。
很抱歉。。。
未能和你一起出去吃一餐。。。
也感到很遗憾。。。
不知道你是否会来读我的blog。。。
不过还是祝贺你了。。。
你刚刚说的话。。。
也许是真的。。。
但。。。因为某种原因。。。
我。。。仍然感觉不到。。。
在乎？？真的。。。感觉不到。。。

吴晶晶！
对你无礼了。。。
对不起。。。
不想对你发脾气。。。
却又控制不了。。。




妈的。。。
今天烦死了。。。
刚刚跟爸吵架。。。
现在？
懒得跟他吵。。。
他讲完。。。
每次都是这样。。。
喝醉酒就这样。。。
为了维护他们，真的找了很多很多的理由。。。
不对。。。
对爸来讲，我是再找借口。。。
很累。。。
真的很累。。。
有什么办法？
他们的确是这样。。。
爸说的没错。。。
一点都没错。。。
只不过是我自己不想接受事实。。。
不想承认他们的确是这样。。。。


菜。。。
并不是你所说的那样。。。
我自己知道。。。也看到。。。
他的确是有用功。。。
也花了比我们多一倍的努力。。。
你。。。
可以不要再拿你的儿子和别人做比较吗？？
如果不是Gohonzon。。。
哥。。。根本不会有今天。。。
根本不会上到大学。。。
而菜。。。
并不像哥那样有福气。。。
可以在Gohonzon家族里长大。。。
不要因为他和你没关系，
就把他说得一文不值。。。


或许你会说，他交到我这个朋友，是三生有幸。。。
可是。。。我也很幸运。。。可以交到像他这样的朋友。。。
平时在你们看不到我的时候。。。
都是他在照顾着我。。。
管着我的健康。。。
虽然他做的不比你们多。。。
可是。。。却补了你们的“漏洞”。。。


吵到说不出话来了。。。
有话。。。只是不想和爸吵。。。
自己其实也很清楚。。。
在为着自己找借口。。。
无可否认。。。
多多少少。。。
我。。。
被影响了。。。
以前的我。。。
很像没有这样糟糕。。。
现在？？
真的很糟糕。。。
东西不做。。。
家务也不做。。。
学校不去。。。
书又不读。。。
有。。。临时抱佛脚就有。。。。
我。。。到底变成怎样了？？？
我。。。还是以前的我吗？
突然觉得自己很浪费资源。。。
真的没有一点是好的。。。
浪费父母的钱养我。。。
浪费地球上的资源。。。
还敢说自己很爱护地球。。。
其实自己就是那个在破坏地球的人。。。


该死的我。。。
有家庭却不珍惜。。。
有记忆力。。。却不读书。。。
可以考到很好的成绩。。。自己却放弃，在混。。。
我。。。
到底。。。
是怎么了？？？

School reopen+lonely+emo [ Monday, 28th September 2009 ]

finally...
we are at school today...
have so much fun on creating nicknames for friends LOL!!!
what ...
Lace, Cells, Moon, Lungs everything came out -___-||
is related and "linked" actually...
but im so lazy to type the long long story out...


due to the long "vacation"...
im kinda not use to it on schooling...
especially during ERT...
because i'm all alone again...
haizzz...
such a hard time for me...
an hour +++ ...
felt like dying even just sitting there for few minutes...


提起了他。。。
SF 说有尝试着帮我,
可是他告诉SF我的脾气太暴躁了。。。
对着不同的人就说出了不同的理由。。。
是借口吧？？
不喜欢。。。所以借口都多过理由。。。
不喜欢。。。就是不喜欢。。。
坦白就好。。。
兜兜转转，以为这样就不会伤到我？
反而伤得更深。。。

仔细想想了。。。
我怎么觉得我没有向他发过脾气之类的。。。
暴躁？是他吧？还很小气。。。
一点点就生气。。。
而且一生就很长时间。。。
我只不过很jealousy,很emo。。。
哪来的暴躁？
我都没生过他的气， 有都是玩玩而已。。。
对他。。。
emo 多过伤心，伤心多过心疼，心疼多过开心，开心多过生气。。。
那。。。你应该知道。。。
生气。。。有多少吧？
哪来的暴躁呢？
他是要说我 emo 吧？ -___-||||

ruining actual song's lyric again -___-|| [ Saturday, 26th September 2009 ]

arghhh forget to post about today's breakfast...
i mean...
(Saturday morning)...
like what i did recently,
went to Choi's house then go mamak have our breakfast...
talked a lot...
or i should call that as "gossip"???
hehehehe...
about what??
nahhhh...
not going to tell you of course...
after that walk to tuition centre lor...
she having tuition mar...
i then accompany her...
and then she said "arghhh is been a long time that we didnt sing our song...(爱死你)"
me " yea..."
den i again started to sing with broken chinese...
and accidentally sing it into "yai" 死你... (cantonese)
which means step on you (until dead)...
the next line : "'yai' 死(是)婴儿纯洁也是爆裂~~"
LOL!!!

then she scolded me say that i didnt go on that day (singing competition)...
or else we can sing this...
after that Choi played the song (the version that sang by 超级偶像 林宗兴 & 张芸京)
and she said "dont know why...i love this one more than the original"
me "me too..."
like usual, im the rapper and she is the vocal...
then before the rap part, 张芸京 said "超级偶像 林宗兴~~" and then 林宗兴 starts to rap...
then i asked her "if we follow this version, what should you say at that part instead of 超级偶像 林宗兴??"
(and after Choi finish singing is my turn to rap)
and suddenly...
i came up an idea "i know i know!!! SMK Alam Megah 的林祖儿!!"
Choi looked at me like that -____-|| and said "is too long lar...must be 4 words"
ok fine... > <
and another idea came "i know i know!!! 蔡玉娟的林祖儿!!"
and she "fall" hahahahahaha...
laugh like mad > <

SuJu's mistakes on It's You & Sorry Sorry Performances... MUST WATCH, SUPER FUNNY!!! LOL!!!!

guess what...
i laughed for the whole night just now...
just because of this video -___-|||
really funny especially HeeChul...
and from what i observe,
Minnie also had few similar situation like them too...
but im so lazy to edit and cut the video -___-||
you can ask me whats the meaning of the captions if you dont understand ^^
where are you looking at ??
yea!!it's you!! im talking about you!! hahahahaha

and also the misheard lyrics...
is funny too if you manage to "catch" the words...