dream of BoA~~

ahhhh~~~
i dreamed of BoA last night~~~
so sweet~~ hehehehe
but i forgot part of dream already T___T
like how she looks, what kind of hairstyle, what outfit she wore, where's the place...
i have no idea.....
but i know that she looks beautiful in my dream~~~
the only thing i remember is...
hmm...
in that room, there's quite some people, but not much, included staff and fans?
and then... i don't know if she passed by me or approach me, and started to talk with me, in Japanese?? -___-||| do i look like Japanese?
and then i said " sorry, i don't speak Japanese, i'm Chinese" LOL!! how blunt -__-|| joey ah... where's your manner??
and then she was like oh ok and start speaking to me in English...
but i don't remember what she told me... and then i think i asked her if i can shake her hand and if i'm not mistaken, she hold out her hand and let me shake.... and then she kinda smile(?) before she left to the staff and i turn to the side and said " i'm lucky that she speaks/understand English! " XD and the person at my side is... i don't know who is that LOL!! don't remember -__-||

List what Mr. Lee Sungmin do/can do?

1. Magic!!!
   
2. Play guitar
3. Play piano
4. Play saxophone (the latest~)
5. Chinese martial arts
6. Taekwondo (yea, i know is almost the same but... i want to make this longer XD)
7. Play/do nunchucks (hell yeah! he can kill you with that!)
8. Ride horse! (newly discovered, after watching Boys In The City 3 XD)
9. COOK!! (because i can't cook! XD)
10. Take good care of babies/kids (he can bathe and feed them well ^^ )
    
11. Bartender-ing ~~ (he can effing spin the bottle on his palm!)
12. Dance! (and he dance good!)
13. Sing! (ehh~ of course he can sing~ but he's also good at it, didn't he? XD )
    
14. Act! (woot~~ his drama~~ soon to be air~~~)
15. do aegyo! (LOL i don't know if this counted)
16. tossing pizza dough~~

these are what i can think of > <
i think there's still more ~~~

damn it! i'm back to the "mad-at-kyuhyun-phase" again!!

WARNING : PLEASE, I REPEAT, PLEASE GET OUT OF THIS POST, OR MORE LIKELY, HERE, IF YOU'RE A KYUHYUN BIAS OR KYUHYUN IS YOUR FAVORITE MEMBER, I JUST WANTED TO RANT ABOUT MY LITTLE DISSATISFACTION, NOT TO MAKE THE OTHER ELF HATE ME...
PLEASE UNDERSTAND, THANK YOU...
IF YOU INSIST ON READING, THEN PLEASE BE RESPONSIBLE OVER YOUR OWN FEELING, DON'T LEAVE COMMENT HERE SCOLDING ME, THANK YOU...



still, ranting in my blog is the best choice, i can spill out whatever i felt upset or disappointed with without making other ELF feel that i'm bashing their bias...
my thread have been close by perMINent! T____T
and scolded by another ELF in youtube LOL ... well, i kind of guess that i would get that already...


i know, as a ELF, i'm wrong for this but still... i'm really really not happy with this...

issue regarding SUPER SHOW 2 DVD, Sorry Sorry Answer VCR ...


are you kidding me??
seriously??
these so call ELF scream from head to toe whenever kyuhyun appears in the VCR but shut their mouth so tight when other members appear?
you know, is understandable if they scream at particular scene but WTH?! the really scream EVERY TIME kyuhyun appears, YEA, i repeat, EVERYTIME!
i hope my ears aren't playing tricks and i repeat and repeat watching it and still the same thing...
i'm really disappointed...
what's more disappointed...
yea, they're sooooooooooooooooooooooo quiet when min appears LOL!!
is that funny? yea, i found it funny...
c'mon, when you hear little cheer for that member, you should cheer more, that is what us, fan, do, isn't it??
if they like to only scream over their bias then just shut up and watch the VCR...
and i'm pissed now... very very pissed...
i was actually very happy about the VCR thingy because this version of Sorry Sorry Answer has kangin in it but ........
aishh....

why~~~ T____T
sorry for being too sensitive but really... why??? this isn't the first time already, even when i was in Super Show2 Malaysia, the same thing happen that min has really really less cheer -__-||
**sigh**
no wonder he's sad over his popularity....
because i'm sad too!

think positive...
i should... i have to...
because min updated his cyworld today!! posting the photo he took... him with kyuhyun...
damn !! min, are you trying to ask me not to be mad at kyuhyun??
haizz... i didn't want to be like that too but... they really... not doing the right thing...

compare?is it good? or bad? + fiction i wrote... for Syane(?)

comparing???
is a good thing actually...
it motivates us and as well as make us a better person...

sometimes it might upset one by comparing themselves with other...
for example, you think your friend look better than you and you're bother by that...
then... this is a bad one...

and it is even worse when you're not comparing yourself with others,
instead, you compare one person, with another, which is not you, yourself...
you might made mistake in your judgement when you brought prejudice along with your judgement....
or maybe you don't bring prejudice, but it just wash over your judgement like that, without yourself realizing...
human being... that's what we do.... of course we choose the one we favor... but you don't really have to bash the other just because you think the one you favor is better...
keep it in your mind, keep in your heart...
compare, but don't voice out what's in your mind...
people got offended by it....

we're normal human being, sometimes, we can't help but being bias...
the best way to avoid this is either keep it, or voice it out, but in a good way...
for example...if you really felt like telling that your friend's bf sings really bad and you think your bf's singing is way better...
edit your words before letting it out, it make a big difference...
just said "the guys is really bad at singing" will do...
you don't have to tell everything out, like "my bf is better than him!"
that's a fail....

even though that's the truth but still, you don't have to tell out because it will just offend people...
also, sometimes, we wont know if what we thought are really the truth, or it is just plain bias...

be good... be nice... and is all started with what comes out from your mouth...
lies are bad, but white lies are good...


finally over here...
wanted to share a fiction that i wrote...
ermmmm...
i guess the fiction is dedicated to Syane?
no....is not(?) i don't know too...

http://kangaroobb.livejournal.com/2195.html#cutid1

放下。。。

“当一个人很大方的不再计较时，就代表他已放下了。。。”

就如现在的我。。。
之前还在烦到底该不该祝贺他，因为真的很讨厌，生气他对我所做的东西。。。
我做到了。。。
要大方， 毕竟我的生日时，他也有给我他小小的心意， 而且也听我发了很多奴苏。。。
之后发现自己原来已经不在乎了。。。
其实也不知道是不在乎，还是麻木了，只知道是没感觉了，也不怎么想记得那些回忆。。。

and it hits me...
yea, the stupid drama...
刚刚在看家好月圆，突然觉得自己和里面的阿月同病相怜，
明明说的事实，却没人相信。。。
历史。。。又重演了。。。
明明是他做的，是他的错，可是却被诬赖说是我一手设计出来的。。。
其实被诬赖并没什么大不了，最心酸的是当你看着你爱的人选择了不相信你，站在另一头一起诬赖你，仿佛在迫你把“罪”扛了。。。

不过这一切都已经是过去了。。。。

reason of Min being emo?? + SCREW THE ANTI!!! + MY "Min journey" + Min's extra-ordinary personality + My words for Min

he is being emo (AGAIN!!) lately...
i see him smiles all the time during No Other times...
but.... is just to show that he's strong???
after i talked with a China Min bias,
she told me that Min close his twitter account and some CY tabs most probably is because of the antis who left comment insulting/criticize him...
GOD!!

is kinda late to post this today...
is the thing 2 days ago...
Min on Good Morning show...
listening to dongdong's word breaks my heart...
our Min is lonely??
why???
and awkward with yesung and donghae???
a major WHY??!! for donghae...
i thought Min is close with donghae???
they are close and intimate with each other...
and is just for fan service????
seriously, what was that???!!
i ship haemin a lot and that really breaks my heart...
and i don't know what i should do if even his room mate say that he is awkward with Min...
luckily, he didn't...

and dongdong said that Min always ask him about how to become manlier...
hey boy, you are really manly, you don't need to become manlier ...
and being COLD is a VERY WRONG concept for becoming manlier...
do you see the members being cold just to show that they are manly?
NO!!!

what's wrong of you being cute??
that is you! you don't need to change yourself just because of what the antis said about you...
being cute and a little feminine, SO WHAT??!!
whats wrong with a guy being cute??
can't he?? he's good at that! you stupid jealousy ANTIS!!! screw you!
stop insulting or criticize him, making him all emo...
you!THE ANTIS doing that to him just showing that you are shallow and you are not as cute as him, not as sexy as him, not as hot as him, not as beautiful as him and that's why you doing all these huh???!!
screw you and get a life! look at yourselves before criticizing people!


To : guy or girl, male or female, men or women - ANTIS

you just couldn't beat him because he looks GOOD IN BOTH!



i don't mind if you change because of your liking...
you want to be cold to look mature or anything...
but please, no, no if you change it because of the antis words...
a big NO!!!!
i rather you to change for the fans, for the one whom you love or love you than changing yourself for those bastards who hates you ...
you should really learn from heechul, look, he don't give a damn about people saying that he is gay and continue going around kissing guy like that, in public, in private or just anywhere -__-||

here comes the truth of me...
well... i admit that i ever call you gay but i really don't mean it...
you can't blame me for saying that because is my very first time seeing you, knowing you...
and the 090515 Sorry Sorry performance was the first sorry sorry performance i watched and...
you...
you sing that way...
and touching your body that way...
and....
that makes me think "that way" too...
i mean yea...you sounds gay there... or perhaps looks gay with that dance moves of yours...
but after watching more shows and performance, i don't call you that way anymore!
i only call you that way because of that performance... i swear...
and i didn't only call you like that, i call heechul and wookie gay too -__-||
but i really don't mean that...
it was just a nick that i gave to allow me remember the 12 members easier...

and what makes thing more ridiculous is...
ermm...i should say surprising...
is...
i started to like you all because of your a-lil-feminine-personality ...
i know i'm weird **cover face with pillow**
but you're really attractive in any way... EVERY WAY!
i love the special personality/quality of yours...
is like, you have everything and you can do everything and what's more?
you are good at almost everything...
the very first thing of yours which attracted me is your cuteness/aegyo-ness...
and the second? of course is the femininity....
chinjayo!! i'm not lying.... i know i'm weird...but....really...
what makes me love you even more is that you can switch your personality anytime, anywhere...YOU LIKE!! omo~~~
and that is really cool!
is like, awhile you're hot, awhile you're manly, later on you became so cute and etc etc...
who else can do that ?? name that person...
and i'm certain that only Lee Sungmin can do so...
you're a "killer"...
a real "killer"...
you killed me so "cruelly" even with the cross-dressing....
is all started with Idol World Suju-T...
and stopped at Gayo Daejun's Gee ...
yea... that little outfit and wig of yours....
made me so...UNF!!!


my words to our beautiful Sungmin :
your beauty...
you specialty ...
are always beyond of words...
please think that you're special and never care about the antis words, ok?
ELFs are always on your side and by your side...
don't worry that people will think negatively on you, even they think like that, just let them be...
as long as we, ELF love you!
God made you special in this way with a reason...
making you being love by a lot of people in all over the world is one of the reason...
and making people jealous is another reason...
yea, jealousy creates antis...
they critcize/insults you is because they jealous of you being so beautiful and almost-perfect....
so....
please love yourself, Min....

favorite UFO replies from Sungmin XD

just decided to quote some UFO replies of ELF with Sungmin from SJ-World.net as i read a lot today...
(he is active in UFO replies recently?)

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9/7

Fan : It...it's such a nice photo....
Sungmin : I...don't quite like it...ㅋㅋㅋ

(referring to this photo of Kyu, and min is being such a mean! LOL!! )



Fan : How much is this doll ?? I want to have it !!
Sungmin : Very expensive...

( this is the "doll" the fan talking about XD)



Fan : That is my boyfriend !! How is he ?? Is he handsome ??
Sungmin : Oah he's the best...Is there a person like that in this world ??? Is he a doll, isnt he ??

(again, the same "doll" but our Minnie is being such a narcissist indirectly LOL!! he's cute XD)



credits to onsaemiro fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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10/7

Fan : Oppa are you not old ? ㅜㅜ
Sungmin : You should drink blood from a virgin everyday...ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

credits : onsaemiro fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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11/7

Fan : Is it true that Sungmin-oppa is a vampire ? Fans are the only one who are getting old..
Sungmin : Uh!...You got me..

10/7

Fan : I like ChoLee couple very much ~ ♥
Sungmin : .... Hahaha but Kyu doesnt like it..

(think the fan mean kyumin couple?? and min ah, is you don't like or kyu don't like? XD )

credits : onsaemiro & chunhweeryong fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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awwwwwwww
he's sweet, isn't he??
but if i'm that fan, i would ask where is the gold ring that he wore on his pinky for years went instead of asking him about his new ring...

GRRR!! CHO KYUHYUN!!! .... but kyumin save it all?? maybe...

sorry for the kyu-lovers,
better click on "close" now if you love him a lot...
this post doesn't suit you all...

again, i warn you...
KYU-LOVER, PLEASE LEAVE THIS POST NOW IF YOU THINK YOU LOVE HIM REALLY MUCH !
don't leave comment scolding me after reading this...
i won't stop you from reading but if you insist on reading, scold me MENTALLY, don't leave comment here telling me all the shits...

(i made out my mind that i still love kyumin....after all...)
rage~~~
seriously...
don't talk to me about CHO KYUHYUN right now...
i'm not really sure the reason why i got mad at him but im just mad with him...
you know, is so hard for me to like him and so easy for me to hate him...

the first member whom i dislikes a lot in suju was him, yea, Cho Kyuhyun!
i'm not sure why too...
he just make me dislike me for.... no reason?
or maybe with reason...
first of all, he's too skinny, really, and with that over-sized blazer he's wearing make him looks unattractive...
also his curled hairs...even worse...
everything on him just make him look horrible...
well, that was my opinion at first...

and i'm gonna kill myself for jumping eunhyuk to min...
because...
kyuhyun is his effing room mate and what's more?
he is his effing 'lover' ...
and i got offended...
curse myself for liking to read fanfictions...
because most of the fanfics that has min in it for sure it has kyuhyun too -__-||
which also means , more than often, the pairing is kyumin...
at that time, i ship kangmin a lot...
and what to do when i'm out of fic to read??
i forced myself to read the kyumin fics...
and oh god, i don't really know how and why i started to cast away the hatred of mine on him...
if is not because of min, i wouldn't give an eye to him!

and then...
i started to ship kyumin after that...
more and more...
until i neglected my favorite OTP, kangmin...
also haemin and minwook ...
and i found him attractive (at least in some way)
because of the naughty look of him?? maybe...

and all because of the 4jib that i started to hate him...
well, i wont blame if min didn't get enough line in the songs because...
understandable, there are lots of members and some of them get even smaller part than him...
so he is lucky enough to have "quite a lot" of lines already...
but then...
what's with that???!!
why is kyuhyun taking over the dance break part???
instead of min??
do you need me to remind you who is the top 5 dancer of suju??
sorry, top 4 for now after hankyung left...
seriously, you can't dance as well as min...
your long limbs swinging around make you look awkward...
come on~~~
you already have a lot of singing lines,
why still wanna snatch that little thing from your hyung??
and this reminds me of super show 2 where the same thing, the dance segment changed, and you are in it, not min!!
and screw you that it happens before super show 2 in Malaysia and i didn't get to see min dance hotly live!

after some days, i get over of this...
and started to accept the facts...
and another thing hits me...
when i was watching the Hello Chat (a very old variety show)
i was wonder why the MC said the this 3 (is min, wookie and yesung) is the represent of singing group...
so i left a comment asking why and the uploader told me that before kyuhyun join suju, min was one of the lead vocals (the third vocalist to be exact) and i went all "WHAT THE F**K??!!!"
it really pissed me off...
and i swear i will chop him into pieces and feed to dogs if kyumin isn't existed...
i don't even know why kyumin is existed when kyuhyun snatch so much things from min and preventing him to love by everyone...
so what i read from the fanfics were right, possessive kyuhyun...
he indeed is possessive...

and i started to dislike kyuhyun already...
but not as offended as now...
because of the stupid kyuhyun fansite...
who went to take kyumin photos but end up blurring min before posting it...
what the f**k was that, seriously??
if you wanted only kyuhyun, take just kyuhyun then! no point of blurring min...
or you can crop your BELOVED CHO KYUHYUN out, so we would thought that it was a kyu-only pic...
even 2sungmin, snowdrop or sungminwings still didn't do that, and why are you, the kyu-lovers doing that???
is not like min is a stranger or something...
he is part of suju too!!!
further more, he is the little lover of kyuhyun!! forgotten about the kyumin huh???
what's wrong with you guys???!! gosh...
i felt like strangling the chokyuhyun.kr fans...
or most likely, the editor of the photos...
you're jealous with kyumin or you don't like min or you love kyuhyun until went blind ???!!!
if you jealous of kyumin, i would ask you to go to hell, when he's with girl, you complain...
and now even when he is with suju member, you are complaining...

don't blame me for hating you, cho kyuhyun...
because your fans "helps" me make my last decision...
and i think i need time (and read more kyumin fics) to get over all this stupid stuff...

my ideal guy ??

well....
i have no idea why it turns up to become like this...
don't misunderstand with my post that i'm having a lover right now -__-||
i'm just... imagining LOL!!!

call this as requirement??
not really...
i don't really mind if that person didn't fit any of them ^^
as long as he fitted my heart :D
and the requirementsss i set is kinda...not to say ridiculous, but impossible??
and i thought i wouldn't get someone like that... (even my friend say so)
let's take a look at the list... (not rank from most to least)

1. caring and loving ( from people to animal)
2. can cook well(?)
3. will/can do house chores XD
4. learned/do martial arts
5. play musical instruments (preferable : guitar)
6. sings well
7. soft and tender
8. do "aegyo" (撒娇)
9. a shy guy
   
10. cute(?)
11. height of : above 169cm, below 177cm
12. not skinny! muscular or not doesn't matter, as long as meaty with broad shoulder
13. laughs and smile a lot
14. humor! (hate cool guys)
    
15. observant
    
16. a little feminine ( but i don't want sissy )
17. smart

that's all i guess???
LOL is almost impossible right??
especially for the cute, do "aegyo" and a little feminine one XD

but then it hits me...
i found a person who fitted my list perfectly!
unluckily... he is a person whom i couldn't reach for...
Lee Sungmin... yea, my idol LMAO!!!
people might thought that i only make a list according to him,
but then i made the list before i even know him...
and i'm surprised to found that my idol actually fitted all the above...
even surprising, i didn't love him that way, but still, i adore/love him as my idol...



if you wanted to know how he fitted....

1. caring and loving ( from people to animal) - he cares the other members of SuJu a lot...
   
2. can cook well(?) - he can cook!!! prove in... i forgot the show name -__-|||
   
3. will/can do house chores XD - i watched in WGM that he cleans Kangin's house !
   
4. learned/do martial arts - he has 8 level black belt for Taekwando and he do chinese martial arts, either with the long stick or nunchucks
   
5. play musical instruments (preferable : guitar) - he plays both guitar and piano and he owns about 5 guitars O___O from acoustic to electric O___O
   
6. sings well - of course he can ! and i love his voice too XD
   
7. soft and tender - yea he is, don't believe? go and watch him on shows and you will know...
   
8. do "aegyo" (撒娇) - i guess i don't need to explain for this? his title, "aegyo" prince...
   
9. a shy guy - he is XD knew that from shows...
   
10. cute(?) - do i need to explain this? he's also the cutie pie of SuJu
    
11. height of : above 169cm, below 177cm - his height, 175cm
    
12. not skinny! muscular or not doesn't matter, as long as meaty with broad shoulder - he's normal and a little chubby, right now he has muscle too...but not that visible...
    
13. laughs and smile a lot - almost in all the pics that he smiles
    
14. humor! (hate cool guys) - he can be very funny sometimes XD
    
15. observant - he watch at his members and ready to give a hand
    
16. a little feminine ( but i don't want sissy ) - yea, he is feminine XD and can be manly too!
    
17. smart - ermmm i guess he is ?? because of the shows i watched him in it...
    

the problem now...
if i look for hubby with this list, for sure i wont get one LOL!!!
out for 5 person, 5 person told me that this world wouldn't have the second person like him...
and i'm so dead now -__-|||
stick with min then...

URGH!!MY LIFE!! WRECKED!!! | am i being too naive to even believe them?? (Tuesday, 15th June 2010)

call me sensitive...
call me unreasonable...
call me anything you think that i am...
and yea, i am like what you said...
but really...
i guess there are better words to say instead of "disturb" ??? i was just trying to care....
i knew i'm not lovable...
yea...maybe i'm so childish that i can argue with you because of that little thing...
i'm so sensitive and negative that i think it in a bad way...
spare me...
PMS-ing...
and i spare you too...and i always will... no matter what you did to me...
because i love you, my dear friend ^^

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i'm so disappointed with you...
no, i'm disappointed with myself that i'm being fool again...
why am i so urgh!!! DUMB!!
i always think that you are "different" from others ...
and always think that you're special, at least, to me...
that i went to throw whatever reasons/excuses just to 'protect' you, your personality, your everything...
who knows...
you are actually too good to not tell me the truth...
you afraid that i will got hurt from your words...
but you didn't know that i'm even hurts right now because of your "GOOD"...
iit is even hurts that you fakes to me... you lied to me...
freaking liar...
you made me believed you for years that you're different from "THEM" and now only i know that you're actually the same....
i'm losing whatever right now...
trust...
confidence...
anything...
what register in my mind of you... is wrong... SO GOD DAMN IT FUCKING WRONG!

why you chose to tell at this time??
when i'm telling you my previous "case" ???
wanted to rips my heart into two so badly?? huh???
once is already enough...
and now you are adding the second one to me???
if you chose to hide the "truth" from me, then just hide it forever so that i'm happy with you...
hiding halfway and spit it out, what was that???!!

what right do you think you have that you can scold her that way??
huh??? you're just the same kind as her, aren't you???
that's why you twist your words all of sudden, didn't you??
scolding that she is a badass...but when you realize "it", you twist and tell me that she isn't badass...lol... you are so 可笑, you know?
but she's better that she wanted to keep "the truth" from me forever...and ever...
but why?? why you went to unveil it?? why do you blow her covers away??also your own???
i wont know the reason forever why the hell she revolts at me if only you didn't tell...
and i think i'm happier to know that she revolts at me all because of that 3 effing reasons but not my physical figure......
i hate you for making me hates her even more...
and i hate your for making me to hate u...

you know what...
you don't have the effing right to even stand on my side to scold others when they dislikes me...
because you are just the same...
when even you wont like me...
who else would???
you're such a bad role model...

am i really that nice to fool??
are you-all having fun playing with my feelings ???
is not the matter of you really like me or not,
but is the matter that you PLAY with my effing feelings!
you-all to be exact...
i'm not a toy, i have feelings too, i'm a human too!!
i'm used to it that people playing with my feelings doesn't mean i wont feel hurts anymore also doesn't mean that you are allow to play with it!!
screw you!

终于了解为什么你知道他是“这样”的人， 却不离开。。。
因为你和他都是同一种人。。。
不同？就只不过是他勇于说出他的“心声”，
而你不敢说出口。。。

and finally i know...
girls or guys, they're just the same...
same that they freaking care/mind about the so call fucking "GOOD FIGURE"...
but one thing i'm curious of...
why does oversize guys can be so lucky, have lovers...
while oversize girls wouldn't be as lucky as them???
is that even fair??
no...
the world never be fair...
and i know... i need to seek the "fair" out by myself...

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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Chu~ (60% Donghae focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Don't Don (60% Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Ending
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Introduction (Siwon, Kyuhyun, Sungmin, Donghae, Shindong, Leeteuk)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - It's You (90% Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Marry U (80% Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Our Love (Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Pajama Party (Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Puff The Magic Dragon (Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Rokkugo (90% Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - She Wants it
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Shining Star (Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Sorry Sorry (Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - Sunny (Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - What If (KRYS - Sungmin focus)
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100320 SS2 Malaysia - U (80% Sungmin focus)
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100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part4 (Fancams!!!)

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he's so cute XD
kept looking at the album and ran to give it to Kyu




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Min is so cute with the big glasses XD
and when everyone leave the stage, donghae doesn't feel like leaving and still sitting there XD


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http://www.megaupload.com/?d=VYQAOVEJ


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100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part3 (Fancams!!!)

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for this, i focus whoever too because...
sungmin's back is facing me T.T
GOSH! sit the wrong place -.-



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well... i guess i'm focusing whoever that spins facing here? XD
but still, Min bias XD



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donghae is so cute when he did the head movement, while sticking his tongue out XD




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Omo...
he is so cute when he's playing with the little torch light given by fans XD
and he is like, addicted with it...
kept playing for the entire concert after this -.-



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**squeal** KYUMIN moment!! XD
awww Min is tying the rose on Kyu's wrist XD

LOL at the Min-hips-sway XD
he's really... aishhh




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LMAO!! eunhyuk is really funny, my friend kept laughing when he imitate the toy giggling XD

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part2 (Fancams!!!)

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siwon's seductive dance XD
kyu's moonwalk is kinda stuck XD
and...**cough** **palm face**
remember to low down your volume when you heard "Danhobak, Sungmin"...
yea, is me who screaming LOL!!!
and shindong is really funny!!!!
"MALAYSIA~~!!"" **waving** so cute of him...
our leader-shi is really cute XD
doing that dance...i
is kinda from H.O.T's Candy?



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for this,
i focus whoever i felt like focusing or near us XD

LOL at the ShiEunHae XD




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watch the one in youtube first as a preview XD
i put lots of comments and warnings in the annotation...
so.... that's why...

this is beautiful...
and again, so sorry, my camcorder doesn't seems to be working with the VCR there -.-
light effect i guess...

Big Five Test Results

my Big Five Test Results XD
almost very accurate -___-||

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (56%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. Accommodation (78%) high which suggests you are overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense too often of your own individual development (martyr complex). Orderliness (48%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, structured, and self controlled while still remaining flexible, varied, and fun. Emotional Stability (42%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Inquisitiveness (42%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly small minded, traditional, and conventional at the expense of intellectual curiousity, possibility, and progress.

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100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part1 (Fancams!!!)

Super Show 2 in Malaysia, outside the stadium , fans lining up at the entrance...


Super Show 2 in Malaysia stage XD


Super Show2 t-shirt that i bought...
is so damn expensive T____T
RM120 = 1 set, included t-shirt and a flag


my room, beside my bed XD
full with Min and cowie XD


well..
i didn't bring my sucks camera a long...
but i successfully sneak in my camcorder... (REAL DANGEROUS!!)
unnie ar, you must borrow good cam from your friends too and bring Min back ok???
i will pray for you not to get caught by the security XD


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i miss to record the front part where both sungmin and siwon start to dance "SEXILY"!! GRRRrrrr~~

siwon is like...skinship-ing everywhere XD


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ryeowook came out from our side,
and he is kinda got pull by the fans there LOL...
so cute of him XD

and so sorry for the extreme shakiness ...
my first time been in concert, first time meet sj, first time fancam-ing XD
that's why...and i'm screaming my lungs out, couldn't focus to record XD
especially when Min jumps over XD



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the quality is quite blurry after uploaded into youtube,
so, is better to watch the actual one XD

really sorry for the extreme shakiness -.-
i'm standing and need to tip toe so....



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oh shit, this is blurry as well after uploaded to youtube,

sorry for my scream LOL
i'm just...out of control **palm face**
especially when Min singing XD
**palm face again**

My birthday gifts (?) + SuJu's 3jib Asia Special Edition

well...
i shouldn't be posting this first because i haven't meet Choi yet...
wondering what will she give me...

for Jing...
she paid RM10 for what i ate at Sushi King...
but then the foods that i ate cost me RM26++ XD
so i still need to pay RM16 myself -___-|||
such a sad news that i even pay extra RM10 because ....
someone didn't pay enough for what they ate...

first of all, my birthday cake XD
low fat birthday cake to be exact -___-|||


3jib that i bought...
as a birthday gift for myself?? XD
is expensive O__O
RM74.50
luckily, with my Popular card, i get 10% discount XD


is imported from Hong Kong if i'm not mistaken...
Sorry Sorry album, Asia Special Edition XD
and yea, it is silver in colour XD


but then my Nikon just wouldn't get the colour right -___-|||


Min's legs XD


the CD + DVD ...


Hyuk's head+body...


Min's legs again XD
really proud of him...


as you all know...
i'm Min bias...
so lazy to snap all the 13 members ,
so i only took photo of him... ^^


closer look?



and then this...
916 Gold, J alphabet (real one ok? )
given to me by my childhood's friend mum...
her mum is also my parents's friends...
and yea, they are rich XD


didn't mean to help Poh Kong advertise XD




wouldn't state the price although the receipt is with me XD
(because i didn't want people to rob me or kidnap me...no! i do not have money T__T )
which means i know the price O_O
and i can tell you that...
is real expensive for such a small alphabet...
it is just the size of my finger tip O__O
but then my fingers are bigger than normal teen girls XD

why am i so pathetic??!! + what a month/year??

my year...
my 18th....
my month...
everything just sucks...
except for the super show2, everything just sucks...

i'm so blue...
so so blue....
and even blue when i got my result...
it is not what i expected it to be...
really...terrible...
what can i do?

how do you feel when your friends doesn't act like they are your friends?
should i be crying over myself that i'm so pathetic or crying over my friends that they dump me and didn't care for me?
not even a tiny bit?
this is exactly what i encountered...

i beg my Sifu to come back back on 13th March from Singapore 2 months earlier....
maybe even earlier that i do not remember...
because i know..
no, i KNEW that this would happen...
as i said before, my instinct never tell me the wrong thing....

i'm so so wrong when i think that Choi is the most reliable one...
that i counted on her a lot...
yea, she, indeed reliable when she isn't in any relationship...
but things just changed when she is in a relationship..
and how unlucky i am that she just started with one few days ago?
when my birthday is just after a day?
she gave us an acceptable answer at the first place that she need to accompany her mum...
but then...
lol....
how funny that she is that kind of spill-everything-out-before-think person...
and yea, she spilled everything out about why she is not coming to celebrate with me...
a really worse reason...
the worst ever....
if you are curious about it, i can hint you that it is absolutely about her relationship...
and she only found herself doing the wrong thing when SF scolded her...
she never be like this...
never ever...
at least, to me that she never...
she care her friends a lot...
really a lot...
at least, to me that she cares a lot...
but then she is just showing me directly that i'm wrong...
hilarious...
perhaps...
i spoilt her...
pamper her too much...
i should have return the ring to her lover.... lol...
because i found it useless on me...now...just....

for Jing???
i counted on her a lot too...
because she came to apologize to me earlier that she can't afford any gift for me anymore...
she's broke...
well, that actually doesn't matter to me...
i am happy as long as they are by my side...
so, i told her the same...
and she insisted that it is different for this year as i turn to 18th,
is my 18th birthday, so it is important...
yea...
who knows....
when i ask her anything about the celebration...
a "sweet" and simple sentence that she would answer me, for every question...
"i don't know"
"maybe?"
"i don't know"
she's the one who tell me how important the birthday is....
18th....
and she is the one who doesn't give a f**k about it...
didn't even bother even today is the last day of planning...
even brilliant answer when i ask her is she going for tomorrow...
"got influence u ?"
the best answer ever...

they just didn't know how much i love them....
they didn't know that the money, time and care that i spent on them is even more than my family....
and now they are doing these to me...
do i deserve this????
no, is "THESE" instead of "this"....
how silly i am...

at last...
the one whom i didn't care a lot (compare to the other 2 )in this recent months,
is the one who cares about the celebration the most...
i'm sorry for misunderstood you...
you might be harsh on me before...
might be scolded me for nothing...
and i'm sorry for being so unreasonable that i didn't care for you at all
and thanks a lot ...
at least you have the intention and heart for me....
and i will payback my "careless" to you by listening to you...

also, my pet sister, Mun Mun...
her words make my day...
although she couldn't come with us,
but the same, she has the heart and intention...
thanks a lot...

who else do i have ???
i don't know as well....
people celebrate with their family, their lover, their friends...
and what should i do when i do not have any of the above??
eottokhae???

maybe... super show2 is the best birthday gift for me....
let's see if it is...
i curse the organizer...
it would be good if they make it on 13th...
so that i wont be sad because of all this shit...
wont even give a damn if any of them care about me or not...

it has been quite a time since my last tear...
and yea...
i'm tearing again...
all because of this shit...
i thought i'm happy when i am not...
just because i'm not tearing doesn't mean i'm happy...
just because i'm laughing my ass off doesn't mean i'm happy...

why am i so pathetic that i have no one???
none.... really none...
not the one who likes me, nor the one whom i like...
i still remember about last year...
even though i clearly know that i'm just a tool of his...
even though it is not a true love...
even though his wish is just so fake that he can't even remember my birthday...
but then... i'm still happy that i have a person...
unlike now that i don't know where i belong to....
i've lost my soul... included my heart...
feeling-les... empty... emo...

i don't wish that they told me this was all a surprise...
because this surprise...
hurts so much...
so so much....
and used a lot of my tears....

sings my lungs out? laugh my lungs out? or cry my lungs out?
i had given no choice beside this 3....