Monday, 20th April 2009

argue again...
yea...
i do know dat u uds...
i know dat u care...
and oso know dat u tink for me...
but...
u never be in my place...
u cant feel wat im feeling...
u wont know wat da hell is in my mind...
u didnt face wat im facing...
u never meet who i met...
u doesnt looks like me...
ur destiny doesnt like mine neither...
u oso know dat i mind ppl's words so much...
how many times i nid to repeat da same thing??
repeat and repeat??
im so so so tired...
and oso...
u r not me...
u said all is bcoz of myself...
i felt inferior...
inferior...
i am not like tis...
never be like tis u know???
im so happy formerly...
never tink bout dat at all...
until one day i got despise+criticize+discriminate by a guy...
and everything starts at tis time...
for u it might be reli easy...
but for me is so hard in finding someone to like me bak...
moreover nid to find a person dat i hav feelings for too...
even found...so wat???
do u tink dat person likes me bak??
obviously no...
even i go and confess...
juz disgrace i will get...
bcoz da result is reli obvious dat u dun nid to ask...
and dun ever say dat i never try to find and all...
bcoz u NEVER know if i tried anot...
and u oso wont know dat if i confess anot...
and oso...
is not like i go everywhere and make frens wit guys...
make frens...
do u know how realistic they r??
they make frens by looking at ur face...
u know y???
bcoz they r looking for partner too...
datz y they r finding gud looking gals...
is not like wat u said,
make frens first...
u know...
for so long hor...
making fren first de hor...
only "him" lor...
datz y...
he gave me lots of memories...
haizzzzz....
ok end tis...

long story to tell...
lazy to tell...
conclusion??
why...
i juz can ask...y??y being so unfair to me??
i am always the introducer of everything....
but at last, i always get nothing...
why??
y am i so suffer??
or...
im da one who make myself to be suffer like tis??

if u r not facing wat u r facing rite now...
u r not being sad like tis rite now...
and living happily wit her...
i might already leave...
get rid off da "suffer" and oso "sadness"...
since i see ...
and know dat how much she is mean to u...
how important she is for u...
and oso u luv her so much...
which i couldnt replace her in ur heart...
couldnt make u forget bout her...
4eva...