haiz sad sia...T__T

today again wake wit swollen eyes ...
ahahahaha...
so tired...
din sleep well da whole nite...
felt like continuing sleeping...
today choi choi din cum to skool again luuu -___-|||
today at skool sot wit pei yee again wakakakaka
aiyaaa laughter is gud larrrrr
juz like wat we read from da passage today when BI...
if at skool dun sot go bak home i will be like dead corpse...
so laugh liao first...hahahaha

waited...
guess dat she wouldnt cum...
until 2PM+++ ....
den i appear off9 and go to sleep...
set alarm at 3pm...
juz sleep awhile....
da alarm rang...
hardly open my eyes...
wake and look at da monitor...
still haven cum...
haizzz...suan le bah...
giv up...
straight away go sleep until 5pm+++
mummy cum wake me up XD

at nite go choose spec lor...
waliao choose liao an hour...
hahaha let my papa complain -__-||
i oso dun wan de marrr
oso dun hav suitable de...
da one i like da frame too long -__-||
my face too ...not wide...
looks weird....
tried on full frame...
bcoz jing ask me to...
hahahaha..
but dat uncle say will look very "lou shui" if i wear full frame -__-||
den ask me take bak half frame...
haizzz giv up...so i chose half frame at last oso hahahahaha

haizzz...
here is how our convo looks like for today...
da conversation goes like tis...
she said...
"I'm making a valentine gift"
" just went out to buy a rose -_-" "
" my mum asked me "why do you wanna buy a rose?" "
"I said "I wanna buy 2" "
"I wanna buy for you and jean"
"then she was so happy"
"But I actually just want to not make her feel that I'm specially preparing something only for jean,it's suspicious"
"2 is for my mum and jean"
"I wanna give you,also cant give lar "
n i was quiet...
tis reminds me bout last year....
wat i did for them...
i put lots of effort....
editing day and night...
but they dun seems to appreciate my efforts...
is happy...
but tis year...
haven reach da day yet already frown....
frustrated...
unhappy....
sad??
wat to do??
i cant help it...


我在想....我的付出...会得来回报吗 ?
去年...那份真心的付出...根本没想到要有什么回报...
今年...我已是个再也不重要的人了...却在期待着收到特别的东西...
哈哈哈哈...好笑...别痴心妄想了...你也应该知道那是没有可能的...
我还会像去年一样快乐吗?
还是只有你们是快乐,幸福的??


我的人生一片黑暗...
没有希望...


失落的心情...
没人了解...
没人体会到...


你...再也不是以往的你...
我...却还站在原点傻傻的等着你...
等着你回来...
期望你像以往那样...