SF's changes had been unveiled ----> Wednesday, 29th April 2009

hmmmmm...
today...
our choi choi din cum to skool again...
and i got scold by dat SF without a reli gud reason again...
Again~~~and again~~~
again~~~~againnnn~~~~~
aishhhhh
reli...
depressing...
isolated during ERT class...
at there like invisible de...
cum bak class alto is "visible"...
but let her 抓我开枪...

wanna express ur feeling??
sure can~~~
i so sek each of u all...
sure can...
but hor...
y must "shoot" only me leh???
and without any gud reason??
juz scolding me for fun??
bcoz is reli quite fun i tink...
since i NEVER fight bak...
and u might tink dat im ok wit it...
and felt reli fun..
im not much diff than Choi...
i wanna say dat...
im SENSITIVE TOO OK???
is juz dat i dun tell out...
dun tell doesnt mean i dun mind...
reli dun uds wat da hell is wrong wit u...
u never be like tis last time...
but after having new lao gong den forget bout us...
din care much bout our feelings and all...
juz care of urself....
and be like wat they said, 独裁...
when u say dat u r alone, who accompany u???
when Choi din go tuition, who accompany u to go???
when u say dat u wanna go here and there, who accompany u???
when u wanna express ur feeling, tell out everything, who is da one dat call and listen to u???
when u wanted to bite ppl, who is da one dat let u bite all da time???
when u having prob, who is da one dat helping u???
when u r sad, who is da one dat be by ur side???
at last??wat???
get nth...
is ok...
we doing all tis is out of kindness...
no..not kindness...
is bcoz of friendship...
and sure it is unrequited ...
bcoz we never expect to get anything from u...
im not trying to hint or show anything by telling all these here...
juz wan to remind u bout us...
bout wat we had done for u....
do u still see dat we r exist??
opsss i shudnt said like tis...
is obviously dat u reli see Jing exist....
bcoz u nid her so much to tell bout u and ur lao gong de things...
since non of us r interested except Jing...
wat u tell me on dat day are nonsense...
wat??u r still da same gang as me???
u r not anymore...
u already walk out from da "warm/pitiful house"
(house for ppl who nid caring and loving [another way] from others so much...juz like me)
u r having someone for u rite now...
having so many admirers...
even not for current...
but still...
u ever had admirers...
dat house juz left me...
only me...
standing on da same spot...
still doing da same thing...
tinking da same thing...
mindset never change...
heart never change...
but our dear fren, SF...
not only her appearance was changed...
she changed her style...
changed her name...
even her heart...
and oso da way she treated us...
but still never realize bout her changes...
and kept telling dat she still da same...
same??
is reli obvious dat u changed everything...
if u continue to be like tis...
u r not much diff than "dat two person"
but i tink u r happy wit da changed...
i cant tie u...
juz let u go den...
as long as u r happy...
da former SF, my former lao po...
is already gone...
disappear...
and will never be bak anymore...
here to say...
Goodbye~
SF...
wish u goodluck and all the best...
go ahead to be ur Raiy...
we r always here supporting u...
no matter wat u become,
u r still our fren...

Tuesday, 28th April 2009

today...
bcoz i tugas...
but dun wan to go down early...
(lonely mar)
so i stay in da class...
but nid to save time...
so i eat my bread in da class...
a.k.a curi makan...
but Pn Choong caught me...
i tink she wanted to scold me one lar...
den Jing and Pei Yee helping me...
by making funs lor~~
so i tink teacher oso "bu hao yi shi" to scold...
den she oso "pei he" to make fun -___-||
at dat time...
saw SF's face...
a 无奈 de face staring at me...
ok..
i got da warning...
but i didnt care...
-___-||
still eating after Pn Choong go to other side...
at tis time...
gao lat...
got scold by SF liao...
waliao -___-||
eat bread only leh???
scold like i eat liao her lao gong or wat -___-|||
eat bread oso canot -___-||
she reli........
........无言.......


finally...
our E.T. de akaun...
got more students liao...
wakakakka...
and oso add math de...
actually is da same person lar...
and dat 2 gal is my ex-tuition mate...
datz y i found they looks familiar > <
no wonder i cant recognize lar...
da one wit short hair now is having a long hair,
and da one wit long hair formerly is now having a short hair...
terbalik pulak > <
today Mrs. Lee seems to be very serious..
mayb bcoz got new students hor > <
canot play like formerly liao...
aikssss~~~

cum bak -___-||
let her ngam lagi...
**yawn~~**
u wan den man man lar har~~
hmm jor lei ~~

对爱渴望

无尽无尽的夜晚~
爱在舌尖上打转~
测试他对我有多瘋狂~
原來只是精神上~~ah~~
对爱渴望~~
那么向往~~
那么困难~~

Monday, 27th April 2009

bcoz Jing complain,
say my blog hor...
toooooooooooooooooooo long story...
ask me to summarize it...
make it more shorter and juz write da main point...
so hor...

today da whole day is...
at nite,
i kena scold...
fine...
bcoz i got nth to explain or fight bak too...
but after dat...
i wanted to scold bak at here...
dat...
u dun tink dat u know my feeling so well...
and dun try to compare ur "wound" wit mine...
bcoz is 2 diff things...
i wont say dat im hurter than u,
bcoz i am not u, i never feel wat u r feeling rite now datz y i wont know how hurt u r...
da same as u...
u r not me, u never feel wat im feeling, datz y u WILL NEVER KNOW HOW HURT AM I...
uds???
even i tell u tis sentence,
but u r still trying to compare urs wit mine...
yea,
urs might be hurter...
but dun say smth like "mine is 10 times hurter than urs"
bcoz u never know how hurt i am...
but here,
i can tell u dat,
tis is only ur first time being so hurt,
and da wounds i get is more than u,
often than u...
juz collect all da hurts...
i tink is already more than ur "once"...
lol well..
and of coz i am not trying to comparing at tis time too...
juz an example im giving...
anyway if u get to read tis post,
i tink dat my example for u is nth...
bcoz u never feel wat i feel...
moreover, is 2 diff situation of "hurt"...
so...
canot be compare...

and lastly i wanna tell..
577 dun perasan ok?? -___-|||
not u har...

My Youtube Acc Got Banned T____T ---> Saturday, 25th April 2009

aishhhhhh...
dat stupid house behind my house one...
renovate wat lar...
7 early 8 early at there drill drill drill...
duno drill wat..
ngiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~~~~
bising betul -___-|||

woke up wanted to watch BoA's My Name geh...
who knows...
**BROOOM BROOOOMM**** (thundering+lightning)
my account gone T____T
went and check my mail...
wat the hell???!! > <
bcoz of Charmaine Sheh de video again??
da second time adi...
and oso bcoz of her...
and my account got banned bcoz of copyright...
stupid HK -___-|||
so strict for wat???
i upload those western de also haven banned me yet ehhh~~
jin hae ar -____-||
aishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh geram betul...
kept shouting there and complaining after i knew...
#$&*#)(*#&@$*(&@#$*(&%^@(#$*&)#$_@#*(!@!!!!#*$&(@#&$(@#%!!
T_______________T so damn sad oso...
aikssss my 心血 all gone T______T
i uploaded so many videos har...
take hourssssssssss to upload each...
and all da videos i favourite de oso gone T_____T
nid to re-favourite...
aiksssss...
moreover...................
haizzzzzzzzz.....
mad+blue~~~
arghhhhhhhhh~~~!!!!!
hmmm mayb wat Jing said is right...
takdir....
fate...
天意...
but oso dun like dat 搞 me mar T____T
whole day bzy manage wit my new account enuff liao lor...
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
gud oso lar...
restart...
new life mayb??
reli so regret dat i didnt check mail on last nite...
da mail send to me at 12am++++
if i remove da video immediately mar nth happen lor T___T
my darling's fault... > <


whoever is in my fren list of my previous youtube account de,
pls re-add me T_____T
my new acc : KaNGaRooBaby910
link to my profile>>>>>
http://www.youtube.com/user/KaNGaRooBaby910
thanks alot T____T


at nite got scold by papa mama again...
haizzzzzzzzzz....
said dat im again using their money...
bcoz going to c Pakar Chin "again" (tis will be da forth time going there)
and kept scolding dat i didnt take gud care of my health,
and if i continue to be like tis,
i will either let Dr. Chin to wear Nike shoes or let Dr. Chin to play electric guitar...
(bcoz each time cost RM100 - RM300++++ and wit dat money i can buy Nike or electric guitar...datz y they said like dat...)
guilty~~~
made me become more blue...

im sorry if u c dat im not so active...
or mayb numb...
is juz bcoz i dun wanna get hurt anymore...
dun wan to be disappointed anymore...
is not dat i dun trust or believe u...
but no one knows wat will happened...
so...
lets see...
and oso time needed...

Friday, 24th April 2009

wake up waliao...
pain like hell...
my lower bak is killing me T_____T
sit oso pain...
ate pain killer ...
aiksssss medicine again...
pain until *arghhhhhhhhhhh* in da morning...
bear...i bear...

aiks...
wat to say today???
we are so sorry, Pn Hilwana...
ermmmmm im sorry dat im being so lazy...
didnt hand in my composition...
Pei Yee so guilty leh...
her face so serious all da time after B.I. period... > <
sure lar...
she started everything...
grow so old liao still play wit da benang -___-|||
and never know when is da time she can play or canot to play...
teacher scold scold xia,
scold till wan cry adi...
haizzzzz...
and say dat we dun understand her feeling...
she said,
asking us to hand in her hw is like asking for alms...
but we never look at her...
and she is trying to get attention from us...
haizzzzz da worse thing is,
she is our form teacher...
nid to get all da complains from other teachers and oso headmistress...
from her face, i juz can c dat she is fierce and strong...
didnt know dat our B.I. teacher is so weak and pitiful...
aiksss...
wat i can say is still sorry...
and for more details, pls refer to Jing's blog >>>>
http://noel517.blogspot.com/2009/04/blog-post_25.html

Choi's wallet lost liao > <
aishhhhh tis gal...
always like dat...
so careless...

on call wit my darling...
aikssssss...
laughing all da time...
happy moment...
sleepy ...
after finish chant den go to sleep~~

Thursday, 23rd April 2009

SF is absent for today..
u know de lor...
ppl go meet her lao gong ar~~~
den tis Choi...
has prob wit her Qi Qi...
den bcoz SF din cum,
she asked me to sit wit her...
after dat (ekonomi period)
reli -___-|||
phewww~~
luckily she bring another bag to skool today -___-||
if not i reli duno how to change subject...
> <>
(ermmmm tak berapa nak reveal dat "莫名其妙 punya things" here oh~~~ )
den oso suan liao lor...
after dat she kept singing Rainie Yang's 带我走...
sambil sing den sambil molest me -___-||
still nice dat she molest in a tender way hahahahaha -____-||
not funny.. is scary ok?? -___-|||

den during B.I period...
beh tahan tis Jing...
kept ss wit Choi's mobile > <
well... da point is...
kept hiding behind me and ss -___-||
reli 受不了 ...






went to Pyramid wit Choi ...
watched Coming Soon...
lucky~~~ is rated 18 de
but she get to buy da ticket wor~~~
den i realize dat tis Choi hor not watch movie de -___-||
kept sms-ing > <
after dat den jalan jalan lor...
eat liao den go 投球~~
let her win liao tim > <
so tiring...
a very gud exercise hahahaha
looking for 小老虎 de bday present everywhere walk until so tired...
duno y today so hot...
wondering is im hot or da weather hot...
inside pyramid oso can walk dao da shirt,hair and handkerchief oso gone wet...
spotted a reli very cute de Schnauzer's gong zai
> <>


not feeling well at da time b4 going bak...
chest burn??
duno lar > <
juz not feeling well...
went to rest after get home...

at nite den Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
again...
Lady Gaga's Again Again??
hahahaha > <
again~~~and again~~~~
use me use dao very shuang hor???
u r always like dat...
u know wat u r doing and know to distinguish reli well when u r "awake"...
but everything is opposite when u start to be "lost" bcoz of her...
well...
no comment...
tired+bored+numb wit it...

Tuesday, 21st April 2009

tired like hell da whole day...
din take dao nap...
last nite sleep so late oso...
somemore after skool den go tuition...
den when cum bak home...
sei lor...
again...
eye ball pain...
yam gong...
every tuesday not headache den is eye ball pain...
now even worse,
eye ball pain + lower back bone pain...
**arghhhhhhhhh**

u always say dat she is selfish he is selfish,
tis person selfish dat person selfish,
and oso say dat im selfish,
ok i admit dat im selfish,
but im a lot better if compare wit u...
not only selfish,
greedy u r...
lol...
my very first time...
so sorry but still nid to tell u...
u always complain tis person never care for u,
dat person never tink for u,
but did u ever care for da person who truly cares and tink for u??
yea u care...
but u never tink for me...
when i trying to let u care me,
let u tink for me...
u juz ignore it...
after ignoring...
fine...
even scolded me...
wat the heck???!!!
y...
y u turned to be like tis???
or mayb...
u r like tis since da beginning...
is juz dat i didnt realize...
unrequited??
yea it is...
but at least...
not sadness dat i wan to get from u...
started to be numb...
and my heart is so empty...
everyday facing u like dat...
listening to all ur hurtful words...
for u it is not hurtful...
but for me...
it is...
da one who tells will never get hurt...
da one who hears always get hurt..
datz da fact...
but i know u couldnt control urself...
i will try to be understanding...
but is already "too" understanding i am..
and lol..
if u could control urself,
den i wouldnt be sad or moody like tis...
anyway..
numb...
wat u wan to say to me...
wat u wan to do to me...
juz go ahead...
since im already like tis...
not much diff...
and i oso cant avoid u from telling me all da hurtful things...
u wont uds me...
wont uds my feeling...
bcoz u never try to uds...
but kept saying dat i didnt uds...
i uds ur feeling even im not experiencing it...
but u never uds my feeling bcoz u will never get to experience it...
你是你, 我是我...

see...
worth anot???
everyone hate me so much rite now...
not hate..
juz...
wouldnt care me...
care my things...
since wat i say oso untrustworthy...

Monday, 20th April 2009

argue again...
yea...
i do know dat u uds...
i know dat u care...
and oso know dat u tink for me...
but...
u never be in my place...
u cant feel wat im feeling...
u wont know wat da hell is in my mind...
u didnt face wat im facing...
u never meet who i met...
u doesnt looks like me...
ur destiny doesnt like mine neither...
u oso know dat i mind ppl's words so much...
how many times i nid to repeat da same thing??
repeat and repeat??
im so so so tired...
and oso...
u r not me...
u said all is bcoz of myself...
i felt inferior...
inferior...
i am not like tis...
never be like tis u know???
im so happy formerly...
never tink bout dat at all...
until one day i got despise+criticize+discriminate by a guy...
and everything starts at tis time...
for u it might be reli easy...
but for me is so hard in finding someone to like me bak...
moreover nid to find a person dat i hav feelings for too...
even found...so wat???
do u tink dat person likes me bak??
obviously no...
even i go and confess...
juz disgrace i will get...
bcoz da result is reli obvious dat u dun nid to ask...
and dun ever say dat i never try to find and all...
bcoz u NEVER know if i tried anot...
and u oso wont know dat if i confess anot...
and oso...
is not like i go everywhere and make frens wit guys...
make frens...
do u know how realistic they r??
they make frens by looking at ur face...
u know y???
bcoz they r looking for partner too...
datz y they r finding gud looking gals...
is not like wat u said,
make frens first...
u know...
for so long hor...
making fren first de hor...
only "him" lor...
datz y...
he gave me lots of memories...
haizzzzz....
ok end tis...

long story to tell...
lazy to tell...
conclusion??
why...
i juz can ask...y??y being so unfair to me??
i am always the introducer of everything....
but at last, i always get nothing...
why??
y am i so suffer??
or...
im da one who make myself to be suffer like tis??

if u r not facing wat u r facing rite now...
u r not being sad like tis rite now...
and living happily wit her...
i might already leave...
get rid off da "suffer" and oso "sadness"...
since i see ...
and know dat how much she is mean to u...
how important she is for u...
and oso u luv her so much...
which i couldnt replace her in ur heart...
couldnt make u forget bout her...
4eva...