SGM audition for Dancing Group + LoL no matter how much i chant or do, u r still da same, never change...

today 7 early 8 early wake up...
-____-|||
den at kaikan...
wahhhh~~~~~~
ppl mountain ppl sea....
so many ppl join dancing group -___-|||
haizzzzz....
den after dat divided into 4 station lor...
me and Jing dipisahkan T_____T
haizzzz...
in 2 hours learned 4 kind of dances???!!!
siao~~~!!!
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alto is quite simple steps...
but...
who rmbs lar -___-|||
keep spinning and turning around wit my toe...
until it swells T____T
pain pain~~~~
tired like hell...
important thing is,
WALAOEH!!!
super hot~~
hot dao i headache liao~~~
aiksss~~~
wish to go home so much T_________T

"i wanna go home~~~~~let me go homeeeeee~~~~~~~~~"
(Micheal Buble - Home)

after reach home,
fast fast panaskan da soup,
fast fast pour onto da kuey tiao,
fast fast eat,
fast fast take 2 panadol soluble
and fast fast sleep -____-|||
haizzz panadol again...
-____-|||
panadol panadol panadol...
my life~~~my liver~~~my body~~~
juz panadol lar -___-||
cant live without panadol -___-|||
boh bian~~
aikssssss -___-||
bcoz tomoro having exam...
ACCOUNT SOMEMORE!!!!
MOST IMPORTANT SUBJECT EVER !!!
dun wanna take risk...
so terpaksa to ruin my liver yi xia -___-|||



u r cold to me...
while im not cold to u...
read ur pm...
guess dat u were sad...
dun wanna bother u den...
went to take out da notes...
memorizing da formats...
but fail T_____T
no mood at all...
where my mood had gone???
since i duno wat to do...
went and chant...
chanted for 20 minutes...
ermmmm alto it doesnt sounds much to others,
but it sounds much to me bcoz is reli tiring -___-||
my throat~~~~~
chant until no more voice left...
at da same time chanted for u...
wan u to be happy no matter how will other thing be...
and forget bout da sadness and da past...
but wat u told me after dat??
u went to take knife and stabbed ur tummy???!!!
listening to dat is more like taking knife stabbing my heart...
da true feeling of mine dat u never know...
tears oozing out...
it stopped...
continue to listen to u...
but in d end...
is so LOL dat u said dat u feel bad dat u dun care mae...
but went and care dat BITCH???!!!
so care???!!!
until stalking wats ppl's daily movements???huh???!!
is reli ...
so...
LOL!!!
it seems dat im juz doing everything for nth...
bcoz no matter how...
u r still da same...
never change...
and never tink of changing too....
times??u nid times??
well...
i gave u a lot...
how bout me??
u never ever giv me times to "recover" or consider...
and said dat i acted like didnt wan to...
lol....
u r juz so.....
duno how to tell...
pushing me away and pulling me bak...
pushing and pulling...
away and bak...
again and again...
continuously~~

i juz can tell myself ...
no...i juz can "REMIND" myself 3 words...
which is...

“算了吧！”

anything will do...
im fed up~~~
fed up of everything!!!