CNY???!! today definitely not a good day for me...

disappear for quite sometimes and now i decided coming back here to rant again...

today is really not a good day...
not to add that i have a very bad day during Chinese New Year???!!
like... seriously??

firstly, i spent my whole afternoon, like 3 hours to do the friggin PA essay...
oh great.. waste my time...
why teacher have to give us so much homeworks during CNY???!!
didn't they know that we need to go back to our hometown??
and there, my whole afternoon is gone...

secondly...
sad....
i fought with Sara again...
my baby unnie... T___T
why... why it kept happened?? even though we already promised with each other that this will not be happening again...
i'm sorry... i'm so sorry...
i don't mean to tease you but... that's just my nature... i guess(?)
and i never say that is wrong to tease me back...
but you make me worry...
i'm worrying and feeling so bad here, thinking if my words really hurt you...
and i was so frustrated that i thought you're angry with me in fact you're just doing a prank...
still better though...at least my words didn't really hurt you...
why misunderstanding always happen between us??/
and with the word war 7.... by saying that, i dont mean we dont have a good relationship...
we indeed have a very good relationship but... at that moment, we're really having some kind of world war 7 .... didn't we??
why must you mind about what i said to others so much???
that i think each time we're fighting because you read what i said to others about us...
when i don't really mean it???
waeyo....
why can't you just judge and mind about what i said to you instead of what i said to others??
is my words to you not assuring?? and you think that what i said to others is more real ??
is that so???
i don't know...
but my heart is broken ....
you left me like that...
maybe we need sometimes...
to reflect myself and to let you cool down...
but please... don't leave twitter just like that... come back...either for Ming, Nora or Mika, just come back... T___T don't dump me like that... please...
i cant stand to lose my baby unnie who pamper and spoil me so much...
not to add, appreciate me a lot..
i'm so wrong...
so so wrong...
damn my fingers, why do i always type things without thinking??? i hate myself...
and i freaking felt like slapping myself for being disrespectful and inconsiderate ...
mianhae~~ my baby unnie...

third...
GDI... WTH??!!
why the hell is kyuhyun over flower trending??? SERIOUSLY???!!
is just a stupid picture of him on BOF's character and that he is trending already??
does that even make sense???!!!
seriously, kyuhyun, why worsen my mood when i'm already super down here???
i still remember so well how hard me and some of the sungmin lovers trying to trend ming's president because of his come back drama...
and it trend only for an hour ... i mean on the list...
and this stupid kyuhyun over flower thing is trending like 3 hours++ ???!! you gotta be kidding me...
is that little picture is more important than ming's come back drama???!
great... how great...
that's what pissed me off...
i'll be very fine if the same thing happened during President first episode air...
why is it have to be so unfair???
and us, the vitaMINs, are like spamming the trend for President instead of trending it...
we tried so hard, include that everytime we send out our tweet...
and blame ourselves when we forgot to include it...
omg...why so difficult???!

dream of BoA~~

ahhhh~~~
i dreamed of BoA last night~~~
so sweet~~ hehehehe
but i forgot part of dream already T___T
like how she looks, what kind of hairstyle, what outfit she wore, where's the place...
i have no idea.....
but i know that she looks beautiful in my dream~~~
the only thing i remember is...
hmm...
in that room, there's quite some people, but not much, included staff and fans?
and then... i don't know if she passed by me or approach me, and started to talk with me, in Japanese?? -___-||| do i look like Japanese?
and then i said " sorry, i don't speak Japanese, i'm Chinese" LOL!! how blunt -__-|| joey ah... where's your manner??
and then she was like oh ok and start speaking to me in English...
but i don't remember what she told me... and then i think i asked her if i can shake her hand and if i'm not mistaken, she hold out her hand and let me shake.... and then she kinda smile(?) before she left to the staff and i turn to the side and said " i'm lucky that she speaks/understand English! " XD and the person at my side is... i don't know who is that LOL!! don't remember -__-||

List what Mr. Lee Sungmin do/can do?

1. Magic!!!
   
2. Play guitar
3. Play piano
4. Play saxophone (the latest~)
5. Chinese martial arts
6. Taekwondo (yea, i know is almost the same but... i want to make this longer XD)
7. Play/do nunchucks (hell yeah! he can kill you with that!)
8. Ride horse! (newly discovered, after watching Boys In The City 3 XD)
9. COOK!! (because i can't cook! XD)
10. Take good care of babies/kids (he can bathe and feed them well ^^ )
    
11. Bartender-ing ~~ (he can effing spin the bottle on his palm!)
12. Dance! (and he dance good!)
13. Sing! (ehh~ of course he can sing~ but he's also good at it, didn't he? XD )
    
14. Act! (woot~~ his drama~~ soon to be air~~~)
15. do aegyo! (LOL i don't know if this counted)
16. tossing pizza dough~~

these are what i can think of > <
i think there's still more ~~~

damn it! i'm back to the "mad-at-kyuhyun-phase" again!!

WARNING : PLEASE, I REPEAT, PLEASE GET OUT OF THIS POST, OR MORE LIKELY, HERE, IF YOU'RE A KYUHYUN BIAS OR KYUHYUN IS YOUR FAVORITE MEMBER, I JUST WANTED TO RANT ABOUT MY LITTLE DISSATISFACTION, NOT TO MAKE THE OTHER ELF HATE ME...
PLEASE UNDERSTAND, THANK YOU...
IF YOU INSIST ON READING, THEN PLEASE BE RESPONSIBLE OVER YOUR OWN FEELING, DON'T LEAVE COMMENT HERE SCOLDING ME, THANK YOU...



still, ranting in my blog is the best choice, i can spill out whatever i felt upset or disappointed with without making other ELF feel that i'm bashing their bias...
my thread have been close by perMINent! T____T
and scolded by another ELF in youtube LOL ... well, i kind of guess that i would get that already...


i know, as a ELF, i'm wrong for this but still... i'm really really not happy with this...

issue regarding SUPER SHOW 2 DVD, Sorry Sorry Answer VCR ...


are you kidding me??
seriously??
these so call ELF scream from head to toe whenever kyuhyun appears in the VCR but shut their mouth so tight when other members appear?
you know, is understandable if they scream at particular scene but WTH?! the really scream EVERY TIME kyuhyun appears, YEA, i repeat, EVERYTIME!
i hope my ears aren't playing tricks and i repeat and repeat watching it and still the same thing...
i'm really disappointed...
what's more disappointed...
yea, they're sooooooooooooooooooooooo quiet when min appears LOL!!
is that funny? yea, i found it funny...
c'mon, when you hear little cheer for that member, you should cheer more, that is what us, fan, do, isn't it??
if they like to only scream over their bias then just shut up and watch the VCR...
and i'm pissed now... very very pissed...
i was actually very happy about the VCR thingy because this version of Sorry Sorry Answer has kangin in it but ........
aishh....

why~~~ T____T
sorry for being too sensitive but really... why??? this isn't the first time already, even when i was in Super Show2 Malaysia, the same thing happen that min has really really less cheer -__-||
**sigh**
no wonder he's sad over his popularity....
because i'm sad too!

think positive...
i should... i have to...
because min updated his cyworld today!! posting the photo he took... him with kyuhyun...
damn !! min, are you trying to ask me not to be mad at kyuhyun??
haizz... i didn't want to be like that too but... they really... not doing the right thing...

compare?is it good? or bad? + fiction i wrote... for Syane(?)

comparing???
is a good thing actually...
it motivates us and as well as make us a better person...

sometimes it might upset one by comparing themselves with other...
for example, you think your friend look better than you and you're bother by that...
then... this is a bad one...

and it is even worse when you're not comparing yourself with others,
instead, you compare one person, with another, which is not you, yourself...
you might made mistake in your judgement when you brought prejudice along with your judgement....
or maybe you don't bring prejudice, but it just wash over your judgement like that, without yourself realizing...
human being... that's what we do.... of course we choose the one we favor... but you don't really have to bash the other just because you think the one you favor is better...
keep it in your mind, keep in your heart...
compare, but don't voice out what's in your mind...
people got offended by it....

we're normal human being, sometimes, we can't help but being bias...
the best way to avoid this is either keep it, or voice it out, but in a good way...
for example...if you really felt like telling that your friend's bf sings really bad and you think your bf's singing is way better...
edit your words before letting it out, it make a big difference...
just said "the guys is really bad at singing" will do...
you don't have to tell everything out, like "my bf is better than him!"
that's a fail....

even though that's the truth but still, you don't have to tell out because it will just offend people...
also, sometimes, we wont know if what we thought are really the truth, or it is just plain bias...

be good... be nice... and is all started with what comes out from your mouth...
lies are bad, but white lies are good...


finally over here...
wanted to share a fiction that i wrote...
ermmmm...
i guess the fiction is dedicated to Syane?
no....is not(?) i don't know too...

http://kangaroobb.livejournal.com/2195.html#cutid1

放下。。。

“当一个人很大方的不再计较时，就代表他已放下了。。。”

就如现在的我。。。
之前还在烦到底该不该祝贺他，因为真的很讨厌，生气他对我所做的东西。。。
我做到了。。。
要大方， 毕竟我的生日时，他也有给我他小小的心意， 而且也听我发了很多奴苏。。。
之后发现自己原来已经不在乎了。。。
其实也不知道是不在乎，还是麻木了，只知道是没感觉了，也不怎么想记得那些回忆。。。

and it hits me...
yea, the stupid drama...
刚刚在看家好月圆，突然觉得自己和里面的阿月同病相怜，
明明说的事实，却没人相信。。。
历史。。。又重演了。。。
明明是他做的，是他的错，可是却被诬赖说是我一手设计出来的。。。
其实被诬赖并没什么大不了，最心酸的是当你看着你爱的人选择了不相信你，站在另一头一起诬赖你，仿佛在迫你把“罪”扛了。。。

不过这一切都已经是过去了。。。。

reason of Min being emo?? + SCREW THE ANTI!!! + MY "Min journey" + Min's extra-ordinary personality + My words for Min

he is being emo (AGAIN!!) lately...
i see him smiles all the time during No Other times...
but.... is just to show that he's strong???
after i talked with a China Min bias,
she told me that Min close his twitter account and some CY tabs most probably is because of the antis who left comment insulting/criticize him...
GOD!!

is kinda late to post this today...
is the thing 2 days ago...
Min on Good Morning show...
listening to dongdong's word breaks my heart...
our Min is lonely??
why???
and awkward with yesung and donghae???
a major WHY??!! for donghae...
i thought Min is close with donghae???
they are close and intimate with each other...
and is just for fan service????
seriously, what was that???!!
i ship haemin a lot and that really breaks my heart...
and i don't know what i should do if even his room mate say that he is awkward with Min...
luckily, he didn't...

and dongdong said that Min always ask him about how to become manlier...
hey boy, you are really manly, you don't need to become manlier ...
and being COLD is a VERY WRONG concept for becoming manlier...
do you see the members being cold just to show that they are manly?
NO!!!

what's wrong of you being cute??
that is you! you don't need to change yourself just because of what the antis said about you...
being cute and a little feminine, SO WHAT??!!
whats wrong with a guy being cute??
can't he?? he's good at that! you stupid jealousy ANTIS!!! screw you!
stop insulting or criticize him, making him all emo...
you!THE ANTIS doing that to him just showing that you are shallow and you are not as cute as him, not as sexy as him, not as hot as him, not as beautiful as him and that's why you doing all these huh???!!
screw you and get a life! look at yourselves before criticizing people!


To : guy or girl, male or female, men or women - ANTIS

you just couldn't beat him because he looks GOOD IN BOTH!



i don't mind if you change because of your liking...
you want to be cold to look mature or anything...
but please, no, no if you change it because of the antis words...
a big NO!!!!
i rather you to change for the fans, for the one whom you love or love you than changing yourself for those bastards who hates you ...
you should really learn from heechul, look, he don't give a damn about people saying that he is gay and continue going around kissing guy like that, in public, in private or just anywhere -__-||

here comes the truth of me...
well... i admit that i ever call you gay but i really don't mean it...
you can't blame me for saying that because is my very first time seeing you, knowing you...
and the 090515 Sorry Sorry performance was the first sorry sorry performance i watched and...
you...
you sing that way...
and touching your body that way...
and....
that makes me think "that way" too...
i mean yea...you sounds gay there... or perhaps looks gay with that dance moves of yours...
but after watching more shows and performance, i don't call you that way anymore!
i only call you that way because of that performance... i swear...
and i didn't only call you like that, i call heechul and wookie gay too -__-||
but i really don't mean that...
it was just a nick that i gave to allow me remember the 12 members easier...

and what makes thing more ridiculous is...
ermm...i should say surprising...
is...
i started to like you all because of your a-lil-feminine-personality ...
i know i'm weird **cover face with pillow**
but you're really attractive in any way... EVERY WAY!
i love the special personality/quality of yours...
is like, you have everything and you can do everything and what's more?
you are good at almost everything...
the very first thing of yours which attracted me is your cuteness/aegyo-ness...
and the second? of course is the femininity....
chinjayo!! i'm not lying.... i know i'm weird...but....really...
what makes me love you even more is that you can switch your personality anytime, anywhere...YOU LIKE!! omo~~~
and that is really cool!
is like, awhile you're hot, awhile you're manly, later on you became so cute and etc etc...
who else can do that ?? name that person...
and i'm certain that only Lee Sungmin can do so...
you're a "killer"...
a real "killer"...
you killed me so "cruelly" even with the cross-dressing....
is all started with Idol World Suju-T...
and stopped at Gayo Daejun's Gee ...
yea... that little outfit and wig of yours....
made me so...UNF!!!


my words to our beautiful Sungmin :
your beauty...
you specialty ...
are always beyond of words...
please think that you're special and never care about the antis words, ok?
ELFs are always on your side and by your side...
don't worry that people will think negatively on you, even they think like that, just let them be...
as long as we, ELF love you!
God made you special in this way with a reason...
making you being love by a lot of people in all over the world is one of the reason...
and making people jealous is another reason...
yea, jealousy creates antis...
they critcize/insults you is because they jealous of you being so beautiful and almost-perfect....
so....
please love yourself, Min....

favorite UFO replies from Sungmin XD

just decided to quote some UFO replies of ELF with Sungmin from SJ-World.net as i read a lot today...
(he is active in UFO replies recently?)

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9/7

Fan : It...it's such a nice photo....
Sungmin : I...don't quite like it...ㅋㅋㅋ

(referring to this photo of Kyu, and min is being such a mean! LOL!! )



Fan : How much is this doll ?? I want to have it !!
Sungmin : Very expensive...

( this is the "doll" the fan talking about XD)



Fan : That is my boyfriend !! How is he ?? Is he handsome ??
Sungmin : Oah he's the best...Is there a person like that in this world ??? Is he a doll, isnt he ??

(again, the same "doll" but our Minnie is being such a narcissist indirectly LOL!! he's cute XD)



credits to onsaemiro fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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10/7

Fan : Oppa are you not old ? ㅜㅜ
Sungmin : You should drink blood from a virgin everyday...ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

credits : onsaemiro fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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11/7

Fan : Is it true that Sungmin-oppa is a vampire ? Fans are the only one who are getting old..
Sungmin : Uh!...You got me..

10/7

Fan : I like ChoLee couple very much ~ ♥
Sungmin : .... Hahaha but Kyu doesnt like it..

(think the fan mean kyumin couple?? and min ah, is you don't like or kyu don't like? XD )

credits : onsaemiro & chunhweeryong fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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awwwwwwww
he's sweet, isn't he??
but if i'm that fan, i would ask where is the gold ring that he wore on his pinky for years went instead of asking him about his new ring...

GRRR!! CHO KYUHYUN!!! .... but kyumin save it all?? maybe...

sorry for the kyu-lovers,
better click on "close" now if you love him a lot...
this post doesn't suit you all...

again, i warn you...
KYU-LOVER, PLEASE LEAVE THIS POST NOW IF YOU THINK YOU LOVE HIM REALLY MUCH !
don't leave comment scolding me after reading this...
i won't stop you from reading but if you insist on reading, scold me MENTALLY, don't leave comment here telling me all the shits...

(i made out my mind that i still love kyumin....after all...)
rage~~~
seriously...
don't talk to me about CHO KYUHYUN right now...
i'm not really sure the reason why i got mad at him but im just mad with him...
you know, is so hard for me to like him and so easy for me to hate him...

the first member whom i dislikes a lot in suju was him, yea, Cho Kyuhyun!
i'm not sure why too...
he just make me dislike me for.... no reason?
or maybe with reason...
first of all, he's too skinny, really, and with that over-sized blazer he's wearing make him looks unattractive...
also his curled hairs...even worse...
everything on him just make him look horrible...
well, that was my opinion at first...

and i'm gonna kill myself for jumping eunhyuk to min...
because...
kyuhyun is his effing room mate and what's more?
he is his effing 'lover' ...
and i got offended...
curse myself for liking to read fanfictions...
because most of the fanfics that has min in it for sure it has kyuhyun too -__-||
which also means , more than often, the pairing is kyumin...
at that time, i ship kangmin a lot...
and what to do when i'm out of fic to read??
i forced myself to read the kyumin fics...
and oh god, i don't really know how and why i started to cast away the hatred of mine on him...
if is not because of min, i wouldn't give an eye to him!

and then...
i started to ship kyumin after that...
more and more...
until i neglected my favorite OTP, kangmin...
also haemin and minwook ...
and i found him attractive (at least in some way)
because of the naughty look of him?? maybe...

and all because of the 4jib that i started to hate him...
well, i wont blame if min didn't get enough line in the songs because...
understandable, there are lots of members and some of them get even smaller part than him...
so he is lucky enough to have "quite a lot" of lines already...
but then...
what's with that???!!
why is kyuhyun taking over the dance break part???
instead of min??
do you need me to remind you who is the top 5 dancer of suju??
sorry, top 4 for now after hankyung left...
seriously, you can't dance as well as min...
your long limbs swinging around make you look awkward...
come on~~~
you already have a lot of singing lines,
why still wanna snatch that little thing from your hyung??
and this reminds me of super show 2 where the same thing, the dance segment changed, and you are in it, not min!!
and screw you that it happens before super show 2 in Malaysia and i didn't get to see min dance hotly live!

after some days, i get over of this...
and started to accept the facts...
and another thing hits me...
when i was watching the Hello Chat (a very old variety show)
i was wonder why the MC said the this 3 (is min, wookie and yesung) is the represent of singing group...
so i left a comment asking why and the uploader told me that before kyuhyun join suju, min was one of the lead vocals (the third vocalist to be exact) and i went all "WHAT THE F**K??!!!"
it really pissed me off...
and i swear i will chop him into pieces and feed to dogs if kyumin isn't existed...
i don't even know why kyumin is existed when kyuhyun snatch so much things from min and preventing him to love by everyone...
so what i read from the fanfics were right, possessive kyuhyun...
he indeed is possessive...

and i started to dislike kyuhyun already...
but not as offended as now...
because of the stupid kyuhyun fansite...
who went to take kyumin photos but end up blurring min before posting it...
what the f**k was that, seriously??
if you wanted only kyuhyun, take just kyuhyun then! no point of blurring min...
or you can crop your BELOVED CHO KYUHYUN out, so we would thought that it was a kyu-only pic...
even 2sungmin, snowdrop or sungminwings still didn't do that, and why are you, the kyu-lovers doing that???
is not like min is a stranger or something...
he is part of suju too!!!
further more, he is the little lover of kyuhyun!! forgotten about the kyumin huh???
what's wrong with you guys???!! gosh...
i felt like strangling the chokyuhyun.kr fans...
or most likely, the editor of the photos...
you're jealous with kyumin or you don't like min or you love kyuhyun until went blind ???!!!
if you jealous of kyumin, i would ask you to go to hell, when he's with girl, you complain...
and now even when he is with suju member, you are complaining...

don't blame me for hating you, cho kyuhyun...
because your fans "helps" me make my last decision...
and i think i need time (and read more kyumin fics) to get over all this stupid stuff...