Wednesday, 11st February 2009

last nite...
haizzz...
seeing them so close...
while watching dat 天幕下的恋人...
made me felt...
empty....T___T
sad...
den today morning...
wake wit swollen eyes O___O
aahahahahahaha -__-||
ok..
not funny at all...

today Pei Yee din cum skool...
chiiii...
got ceramah den ponteng -__-||
den me at Jing kept argue-ing at dewan during da ceramah....
luckily we argue via papers...
if not we will shouting at each other again...-__-||
when time for us to go for recess...
i told her "stop!dun write anymore...go to eat now"
and she still kept writing there -__-||
aishhhhhh tis gal...
stubborn...must argue wit me or wat...
den once get up from da chair start shouting like hell...LOL!!
well...we are always like dat...
tis is one of our way to know each other more...-__-||
by shouting and argue-ing almost everyday...
den today im on duty,
guard da counter there...
den after recess,
dat stupid canteen auntie suppose to giv us who are on duty foods and drinks...
but she reject...and say dat she didnt c any of us bertugas...
WTF???!!
i was like.... speechless...
im so big there standing in front da counter and she said dat we DIDNT do our job...
reli wanna D*U gao her...-__-
fine~~fine~~
today duno y...
we hav 4 period of Science...
2 hours...
omg...wanna die...-__-||

came bak home...
read her off9 msg...
omg...
pain in my heart...
den bomb her bak wit off9 msg...
no appetite to eat adi....
kept tinking and tinking...
haizzz....
at nite went for meeting after tuition lor...
den when i cum bak...
on pc...
waliao...
my msn kena bomb by her off9 msg again...
den i kept typing...
sambil do sejarah's hw sambil type...
din reply...
until bout 12am+++ only she reply...
at first was still on da topic...
after awhile she was out of topic...
n i din care dat much too...
but at last...
still breaks my heart....
piece by piece....
i tot i could sleep well for tonite...
tot dat i could be happy...
but still...
i couldnt get rid of having swollen eyes in da next morning...
is reli...LOL

Tuesday, 10th February 2009

weeee bak to skool...
today da weather duno like wat...
wan rain dun wan rain like tis...
so hot leh~~~
hot dao die liao...-__-||
today start 发神经 again...
hahahhahaha
kept laughing for nth...
actually got reason de lar -__-||
den Jing keep saying dat me and pei yee 兴奋过度~~~
where got jekkk **shy shy**
is she 状况外 only mar~~~

bcoz i say i canot c da whiteboard...
den i said i plan to bring binocular to skool adi...
but too heavy...so i din bring...
den she said "aiyooo go buy those kids play de lar..those few dollar de"
den i said "aiyooo dat one ar...i tink i c wit my spec already canot c..use those cheap cheap de binocular more canot c leh...will make it become more blur"
and she said "LOL we can go to lab there borrow those big big de scope to c stars de"
den we start laughing like orang gila...
den she said wan to use magnifying glass pulak -__-|||
c sifat long ar...

wakakakaka....
den talk wit Jing bout SF and Choi again...
haizzz..
both of them...
mao dek giu ar~~~
continue to be like tis...
their future...
boh liao...
cum to skool never study...
keep sms there....
beh tahan...
den during B.I -__-||
dat pei yee and jing...
aishhhhhhhh kept molesting me...
dat two 乱摸 -___-|||
keep disturbing...
aishhhhhhhhh
aishhhhhhhhhhhhh -___-|||
molester -__-|||

den i tell them dat i miss my koko when Moral at library...
den they say i 恋兄情结...
even miss oso wont 挂在嘴边 wor~~
T____T where got jekkkk...
u all dun like ur siblings oso non of my business mar...
i got only one koko leh...
dun miss him miss who oo...
den juz now at nite i tell my parents -__-||
den my parents say my fren bullshit LOL!!!
ano ano~~~
they jealous nia...
ppl 感情 gud mar~~
datz y miss lor~~~
canot de meh gar zhan?? hmmmm -___-|||
we small small den very 恩爱 one lehh hahahaha -__-||
boh lar..
my mama say dao more kua zhang, she said 相依为命...
choi~~!!! my parents haven die de leh -__-||

haizzzz...
sad sia...
my lao po stand me up T_____T
planned liao tis saturday wan go makan cake...
to celebrate valentine de mar...
na li zhi dao...
she tell me wan go KL find her B zai...
reli za dao.... -___-||
oso know i dun go KL de lar....
still asking...
moreover, is her frens, no my frens...
duno them oso de...
wat if later went there and got neglected??
yeeee dun wan take risk...
hate crowds....
asked jing whether she wan to go pyramid wit me anot...
she seems to....
hmmm...
and finally i tink she rejected my request...
sad T___T
nid to stay at home alone liao...
while everyone is out for their date...
lonely~~~~i am so lonely~~~i had nobody~~~for my own~~~
haizzzz....
nvm lar...
used to it adi de lar...
every year oso alone de lar...
juz last year so lucky...
no...
is so fun...
editing photos and all...
给那两条"油"...
tis year...
没有我的份得啦....
ppl already...
belongs to...
ppl de liao...
LOL!!! -___-|| ok i know is confusing...
ignore it...
haizzz sad...
no one gonna acc me for tis year...
T_____T wu wu wu wu wu~~~


dun u tink dat tis pic looks romantic???

if u try to observe...
is actually not at all...
dat person is all alone...
juz like me ....
haizzz T.T

Monday, 9th February 2009

went to Sun Wong wit papa mama to hav our...
breakfast or lunch??
ermmm 12+++ pm..
lunch bahh hahahahaha...
aikssss
empty....
empty day...
duno wan to do wat...
got hw...
dun feel like doing it...
T___T
my life is wreck...
wreck liao...
wreckkkkkk~~~~~
-__-|||

finally i appear on9...
and finally...
say da first word in her conversation....
but still...
nth change lol...
da one who reply me is jean pulak...
Zzzzzzzzzzzzz
keep making fun wit me...
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
boh mood to chat wit her...
ask me to do her a favor...
which is guard my darling ...
bcoz she is going to interview...
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
多告余~~~
for my darling...
even numb or feeling-les...
i will still acc her lar...
as long as she ask me to...
den tell me they r going to bath..
LOL~~
she apologized b4 going...
and is...
lol...
well..
im speechless...
after bath never bak...
weeeeee~~~
gud...
duno y...
suddenly missing her..
**piak piak**
sampat sia~~
awhile angry awhile numb awhile miss...
=.=
mao dek giu ar~~~

boring Sunday~~

wake up...
wit swollen eyes O__O
wakakakakaka
well..
not funny -___-|||
haizzzz...
duno wake so early for wat...
ming ming sleep reli late last nite...
or i shud say...
din sleep well last nite...
haizzz...
wat to do??
nth to do...
i cant do anything...
having phobia...
afraid...
afraid to on9...
afraid being hurt again...
ermmm is tis a gud news or a bad one??
since i know to be afraid...
means im still not yet numb??
or not yet be completely numb??
-___-|||
is time for me to go??
u dun nid me anymore...
mayb u would tell me dat u nid me so much...
juz bcoz of her dat u nid me??
my role??
being an extra tyre...
a spare one...
when anything happens...
u take it out and put it on...
when everything is alright...
u wont even rmb it...
and might tink dat it is useless...

so empty...for da whole day...
duno wat to do...
is dat i reli cant survive without u??
i tink is like dat..
doing nth for da whole day...
wondering y am i living...
and wat am i living for...

read 周刊 juz now...
horoscope said smth like tis bout me =.=

双鱼座　：
依赖性格的你喜欢有人相伴，
恋爱故事多姿多彩。
恋爱顺利的话倾向于早早步入家庭。
但是人鱼常被自己的渴望及梦想蒙蔽了眼睛，
识人不明，
非常容易受诱惑，
因此他们的真情也可能被利用，
最不幸的剧本就是扮演牺牲者，
有个永远抵达不了的终点。

(sources : 中国报　)

Saturday, 7th February 2009

went to 修 my hair...
T____T mama cut dao so short again...
haizzz -__-||
always "hap" me c i din wear spec den cut short short...
bcoz i cant c anything -__-|| den i wont complain...
once i wear spec...
**brroom broooom** thunderstorm+lightning
so short liaoooo T____T
front lar i mean -__-||

after came bak...
on9 lor...
hmmm...
冷冷雨喔~~~喔~~~
den say wanna show me on cam...
den i update my post while they r sleeping...
took a short nap for tonite...
sure will stay at Pei Pei's house very late -__-||
after finish bathing....
duno y...
start chatting wit jean..
-___-|||
she seems to be so excited to chat wit me...
at there sure very boring bah while darling tuition-ing....

went to Pantai Seafood eat "ho liao"...
aiyaaa so expensive sure not we pay lor...
is Pei Pei's daddy, Uncle Yong belanja nia...
got abalone again lor of coz -___-||
i kept eating da big big white crab...named: Snow Crab???
so tasty nia hahahahaha..

pitiful face oo??? >>>>>



one snow crab RM400++++ -___-||| siao~~
only those rich ppl could afford...

tis year we eat at da first floor...
last year is at ground floor...
a special room...
rmb dat time reli well...
den when finish, walking towards da car....
passed by da place...
place where my heart was broken a year ago...
and until today...heart is still broken...
after get into da car,
my mum said "tis time da weather so nice...unlike last year when we cum here eat is raining"
den i was tinking....
at dat time is it raining for me??
it seems to be like dat...
da scene...re-calling...
da scene...appearing in my mind...
da scene which i got off from da special room...
holding my mobile besides my ear....
is raining...not so heavy...
walk and stand under a little coconut tree...
knowing all da truth at dat time...
which made my heart bleed...
while i cant say even a word...bout tis...
juz acting...and said dat i will help her...
ok stop...

after eat go to their house of coz...
watched Astro there...
wat a bzy nite??
kept climbing up and down da staircase...
so hot~~
aishhhhh...all bcoz of papa...
wan me to burn tis and dat...
drank 2 glasses of whiskey...
stayed until quite late...

reached home at bout 1.30AM+++
im tired adi...
already wanna sleep...
my mum oso scolded me...
ask me go to sleep...
told her dat i'll juz on awhile...
bcoz im afraid my darling waiting for me...
so i on my pc...
wanna inform her dat im going to sleep...
but she kept pulling me...
pull pull pull...
and finally...
watched smth dat i shudnt watch...
a live show again....
well...
i cum bak...lately...cum on9...is to inform u...and not to c live show...
anyway..nvm...
since my heart is broke on dat nite...
im numb....
din feel much thing...
but still...
of coz ...
i'll still feel it...
juz not dat much...
how nice of u...
juz break my heart...
din even mend alil of it...
and start breaking it again...
amazing~~~
u r doing a reli "great job"
and thx for ur help..
it was completely breaks...

Friday, 6th February 2009

reli very beh tahan 3 of them -__-|||
dat choi, sf and jing...
bring phone to skool...
den sitting so near to each other...
dun wan to speak but keep texting each other...
omg... -____-|||
too rich or wat...
den today..
still laughing bout da sleeping stle of giraffe ....
dat sf say giraffe sleep wit da head dig into a hole on da ground..
and dat jing...more "LOGIC" LOL!!!
she said giraffe sleep wit da 4 legs of it's open widely...
a.k.a 开一字马....
den we kept laughing there...

account subject...
is time for us to burst our stomach and vomit blood -__-||
bcoz of dat jing...
aishhh explain and explain...
explain and explain and explain...
oiii wanna die...
me and pei yee already vomit blood there...
until teacher oso dun dare to teach her...
afraid later she will vomit blood together wit us...LOL!!!
den juz realize dat our jing is so blur and easily get confuse one hahahaha
BT and PB
(Buku Tunai & Penyata Bank)
she can...
omg...she asked me how to do dat BT and PB...
but she said into "PT and PP"
den i kept laughing there...
and tell her dat is "BT and PB"
den she said "oooo ok"
den da second time she said it...seems to be correct...
"BT" and den....."BB"
only i know dat it seems to be correct...for da first two letters...
OMGGG LOL!!!
once she start wit B den she canot change it to P adi -__-||
reli cute of her...
den i kept laughing there...

den chinese class..
not reli having it lar...
after skool ...
my frens all run for their life...
aishhh say until so loud wanna go for chinese class...
but at last didnt go oso...
haizzz pity me...hav to stay bcoz of da "mission" dat Pn Yong asked me to do...
running up and down at da staircase to check if teacher cum yet...
almost suffocated...
when i reach home da whole shirt wet -__-||
keep sweating...
nice exercise LOL!!!

went to Sunway Pyramid to buy present for Pei Pei nia...
let her za dao...she said wan buy da fake hair pulak...
well...so expensive somemore...RM120...
omg??
somemore da credit card machine spoiled ...
den...no choice lor...canot buy...
since mummy didnt bring dat much of cash...
den went to Livin Cabin c...
T_____T alot of my favoritessssss
my cow cow...
moo moo T___T
i wannnn cowwwww T___T
so cuteeeeeee
i saw a big big biggg cow on top there...
omg...felt like bringing it bak home -__-||
den my mum said if i like den buy lar...
but sure very expensive...
da small one already so expensive...
big one sure expensive like hell...

tis 3 small small little cow oso very cute leh..XD


tis de eyes looks like me..."mong mong ngan" XD -___-||| XD


dat big one didnt take...
bcoz...they placed da cow too high liao -__-|||
and i too short...
canot take -__-||| T____T

haizzz...
my bro's fault...
gave me RM100 pulak...
ask me buy my own..
i dun wannnn -__-||
if da money reach my hand for sure i dun bear to use one...-__-||
den passed by da engraving little stall near Livin Cabin there...
gosh...
saw den 心痛 ....
my money ~~~ T____T
den go to Mini Toons...
saw Stitch at outside...
wow finally ...
-__-|| saw thing to buy adi...
quite expensive oso dat stitch...
very cute de oo..
wear t-shirt one..XD


den saw tis two little cow...
my moo moo T___T
cute dao~~



den balik rumah lor..
prepare for tuition...
den when tuition...
economy ...i start to sot again..
teacher said dat "barang modal" is machine which u buy for da company to help da company to makes money...
den i said "teacher...den we nid to buy photocopy machine lor???can photocopy a lot of money lehhh make money mar..."
den no one peduli me -__-||
dat Choi sit beside me...
at there laugh hahahaha
den i start to laugh oso -__-|||

den dat darling...
cum on9 quite late...
didnt talk much wit her...
well..u know...
feelingles and numb...
duno how to talk adi...
show me on cam...
she tell me dat she wanna study...
but at there argue wit jean...
-___-||| argue more than study...
-______-|||
so tiring leh...
can argue for half an hour oso din stop one...-__-|||
no eye c them..
i go watch my the l word...XD
watch dao half aishh my dad came out again...
tis time he so geng...
i c him standing at da cupboard there...
duno wan do wat...
den at there pee pulak...
aishhh i wearing headphone oso heard da water droplet sounds...
den awhile...he stop...
i tink he know he pee at the wrong place...
den go to toilet -__-|||
aishhh tis dadi sure is 梦游 ... -__-|||
but he so geng...
know he did smth wrongly...
somemore know to wipe hahahahhaa
-___-||
den the l word...dat shane and jenny so funny one lor...
keep laughing there LOL!!

Thursday, 5th February 2009

last nite still very moody...
of coz for today morning too...
walk like dead corpse again...
oiiii...
yeeeee...=.=
saw her walking to skool again -__-|||

den SF de sis sprained her knee yesterday...
say she canot naik kelas...
3 floors leh -__-||
at there walk already keep crying there...
said very pain...
pitiful of her...
den me and SF go find her form teacher..
after dat 扶 her to da bilik kokurikulum to sit for her pra PMR...

den we faster rush bak to our class bcoz we having pra SPM too -__-||
hot dao~~~
keep sweating.....
and dat Choi -__-||
got exam oso dun wan cum...
haizzz no eye c...
wahhh my BM paper...
gou li -__-|||
sure die liao tis time...
da first page langsung duno how to do LOL!!!!
my brain so blank...
and da test paper oso sama sama blank -___-||
but when BI paper turn...
wahhh my 强项....
sure i know how to do lorrr XD

den during recess time i so bzy nia...
again 扶 our Siew Foong go down -__-||
is time for her to balik rumah liaooo
den she hor...
say i carry her she dun wan...
at there bai xia bai xia...
gat xia gat xia...
gat dao da whole 30 mins only reach there -__-|||
walk even slower than my ama lehhh =.=
so hot nia...
walk so slow under da sun -__-||
who oso die...
after settle den bell ngam ngam rang...
i rush to eat my bread...

after our 游魂 gang...
i create name again for our gang -__-||
we got so many nicks liao~~~
is yesterday....
all bout “水”...
pei yee inspired me gave me tis idea nia...
bcoz she always 滴水 while drinking -__-||
den leak until da whole floor oso...
den i said "u enuff lar 滴水"
suddenly call her wit dat name XD
den start to play wit Choi...
say dat SF is 漏水 bcoz when she drink very geng one -__-||
all flow out like waterfall and made da whole uniform wet de -__-|||
den our Jing, 灌水 lar of coz...
tis gal arr everyday bring 5 bottles of water cum to skool one...
din bring books de -__-||
duno she cum skool to study or to drink de...
once she reach class da first thing to do is mempamerkan her 5 Zen's or any bottle which related wit "tea" de on her table...
take out 2 from da plastic bag and unzip da bag, take out 3 bottles...
after dat u can c dat her bag is kosong one -__-||
bcoz she reli bring bottles only..
but not for now lar of coz..
is last year....tis year she very guai liao....got bring books...
den next is our Choi...always sick de -__-||
den always go clinic c doctor...
den she named herself as 吊水... XD
bcoz dat day she go clinic 吊水...
dat doctor so tak berskillful...
inject da first hand...eh??canot find ur blood vessels...another hand another hand...-__-||
made her 2 hands so cantik...
wit plaster...XD
den me leh??
well...at first call me 乱水 one...
but like not suit me oo...
den da next day i change into 抽水 ....
tis one more ngam...XD
bcoz i always go molest ppl de XD wakakakkaa
so is 灌水王，滴水王， 漏水王， 吊水王 and 抽水王~~~ XD

den next part...
bout “乱”
bcoz our Jing hor...
乱搞男女关系咯....
den i call her "oiii 乱搞"
den our SF always use da word 乱水...so call her 乱水 lor...
den i "wat" choi is "乱伦" wakakka so innocent...
din cum skool den let me "wat"...
and call pei yee "乱讲" and i am "乱摸" XD
but tis one always change de...
bcoz when jing simply say thing i will call her as 乱讲 ...
and when pei yee beat me i will call her 乱打...
den most za dao...jing say "我还乱舞千秋嘞~~"
dat one luv jay chou luv dao bcome like tis liao -__-|||

after dat stupid ass hole's case...
we keep tinking dat Pn Azah is better...
and keep complimenting her...XD
high fever ar...
den today got sivik again...
aishhhhhh...
another gang of dat asshole broom hair teacher...
but better...
she cum in scold dat 3 chinese guy nia -__-|||
pitiful~~
dat one den cum in scold 5 of us -__-||||
they berpakat de ar???
TMD -___-|||

Mun cum my house luu....
while waiting for my darling to cum on9...
i do my things first...
waliao wait wait wait waited until die still haven cum on9 -__-||
2.30pm only cum...
saw jean's head there...
shit~~
straight away close...
since she is there i oso dun hav any function to stay adi...
go to sleep better....
Zzzzzzzzzzzzz
my nap...
isnt dat comfortable either...
wake up b4 da alarm rings....
da whole person...
duno how to describe...
falling apart~~~~

den at nite...
actually plan to not cum on9 de...
but dat jing ask me to on9 bcoz wan send me da videos...
ok lor den...
so funny~~
dat shan...
at there er~~~er~~~er~~~ LOL!!!
but i tink jing's version more funny lor...

chammm...
dat darling cum scold me liao -__-||
i oso din say anything den she said all liao -__-||
wan "liu gao ngai" -__-||
anyway i know she bu shuang me...
bcoz i said i will acc her but i didnt...
but c dat jean there...
how to continue stay there???
Zzzzzzzzzz
run for ur life~~~~~
juz now told me dat actually she reach there last nite adi...
well...
i already can guess dat though...
bcoz she seems to be alil strange for last nite...
but im not sure...so i didnt say anything...
anyway last nite...we r so cold too...

haizzz feeling-les again??T___T

went to skool...
walk like dead corpse...
saw dat person walking to skool too -__-||
yeeeee...
haizzzz...
haizzzzz...
almost forget how to smile or laugh...
didnt speak for da whole morning...
and my choi and jing finally cum to skool liao -__-||
choi bought lots of thing for us hahaha
not reli "alot" lar...
each person get one key chain only -_-|||

da keychain dat choi gave me>>>>>


hell twins XD choi said like me and her worrr -__-|||
so sui....say i looks evil T___T


cute neh???reli looks like me nia XD


nyek nyek nyek nyek...but tak sampai hati to use it...

da most za dao de thing is...
pei yee ask choi "y u suddenly buy keychain for us??"
den choi said "ooo i c dat lil mushroom so cute...looks like u..so buy for u lor...
den saw dat rabbit den tink of SF den buy for SF den saw dat monkey looks like Jing
den buy for Jing lor...."
den i said "den is it u tink tis evil evil de looks like me so u buy for me har??-___-||| "
den she at there laugh pulakkk


after dat...
go to ERT class....
sighhhh more moody....
alone~~~
lonely~~~~~
when bak from ERT class....
only know how to speak =.=
and they were like "OHHHH finally u speak!!!"
and thanks to my dear jing...
made me laugh...
hahahaha oso forget to be moody adi....
den choi scolded me -__-||
"today morning talk to u...din answer oso nvm...smile oso didnt smile...da face duno like wat"
-___-|| haizzz u tink i wan meh??
i oso dun wish to lar...
but today at skool laugh a lot...
reli 多谢 my dear jing, choi, pei yee and lao po...
aiyooo but lao po oso din talk much wit me today...
-___-||| more is jing, pei yee and choi lar...
but still thanks a lot...
if not them i will be like a dead corpse for da whole day...


wanna diu gao dat stupid relief teacher...
TMD her ar...
act high class pulak...
wan speak english den english..
malay den malay...
dun act high class by adding "I" "YOU" infront all da sentences...
if u r so pro den speak english wit me larr!!
if not den malay!!
pure english!!pure malay!!
come den??!!
or u wan thai??!!huh???!!
wanna send our name to discipline???
send larrrrr
scare u ar???
TMD...
if we reli got call by da discipline teacher so wat??
we dun nid to be afraid...
u r so unreasonable u know???
if u said we r noisy..
ok fine...i admit dat i am...
den y r u only da name of chinese???
and not da malays???
da malays were FUKING NOISY TOO!!!
U R BLIND???
OR DEAF??
ok i tink u r deaf u know...
deaf wit ur own language, MALAY???!!
IS IT LIKE TIS???
and dat time SF WAS SLEEPING!!!
WHICH EYES OF URS SAW DAT SHE IS MAKING NOISE???
U DUN HAV DA RIGHT TO WRITE HER NAME U KNOW???
SHE DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG!!
SHE JUZ SLEEPING!!
AND U R NOT TEACHING DATZ Y SHE HAV TO DA RIGHT TO SLEEP!!
WHO U TINK U R??HUH???
NOT EVEN OUR SUBJECT'S TEACHER!!
ASS HOLE....
ohhh pity of u...
if u tink u saw her making noise...
is time for u to hav ur eye check up...
or body check up too???
so young den had menopause??
goshhhhh...
pitiful larrr....
u r so damn fuking bias u know???
now i can tell u dat Pn Azah is better than u A LOT!!!
u tis fuking ass hole ass hole!!!
at least she never did smth like tis to us!!
she juz scolded us!!!
ur face is so damn ugly u know???
especially ur "BROOM" HAIR!!
NAHHH!!!!
U LOOKS DA WORST!!
AZAH STILL LOOKS NICER THAN U A LOT!!!
GO BAK HOME AND FUK UR OWN ASSHOLE!!BITCH!!


came bak from skool den drop on bed again...
everynite so late only sleep...
who oso will be exhausted...
no appetite...
din hav my lunch...
wen to tuition...
well still ok when tuition....
once im alone again without my frens i will tink again...
wanna stop tinking of it...
how can i??
nite...
got no appetite again...
da whole day din even eat sebiji nasi... -__-||
tomoro hav test for BM and BI lehhhh
continue to be like tis...
den wait to fail nia...
haizzzzz....
wat i read is like...
not going in oso...
wasting time....
hw all do half half...
no mood....
duno wat is tis feeling...
feeling-les?
duno....
numb....
so numb....
lets say sayonara to my test~~~
yayyyyyy sure fail!! ^^V

gou li~~-__-|||

~MIDNIGHT 12AM+~

waliaoooo
dat jean wan bomb my mobile nia...
after send her wat my darling wanna tell her...
den keep calling me...
i reli pity her lar...
at hospital still wanna call wit public phone...
using coin...
goshh...
how can i be so mean and evil to not pick up??
but im reli afraid...
i duno wat to say to console her...
since my darling ask me to not giv her any hope...
but if i say so to her...
later she will be like...
aiyoooo...
i reli 不忍心....
no matter how much i hate her...
but when she has prob...
i will always help...
bcoz formerly...
we r reli close fren....
talk almost everyday on mic...
somemore reli long time...
dun bear to treat her dat cruel...
hope she will uds me...
is reli hard for being a middle person....
nid to care for two side....
bias??
sure i am....
but still...
i dun wish to hurt her by passing my darling's msg....
i cant open my mouth to tell...
wat to do??
sms den....
type still stuck...
ppl might tink dat "oooo u must be super glad and happy dat both of them become like tis"
actually is not...
i might say it out cruelly in front of my frens....
and kept tinking dat i will do tis do dat to threaten her...
but when it comes to dat situation...
all tis things gone from my mind...
ok...
well...
i know im stupid enuff....
being use like tis....
but i juz...
haiz...
duno how to tell???
so torturing T____T
da whole nite when she kept calling me non stop...
i was reli nervous and panic...
haizzz ask my darling wat to do...
den she keep changing subject -__-||
let her gek sei -__-|||
at here....
wanted to say im sorry to jean...
reli sorry for wat i did to u last nite...
sorry for didnt pick up ur calls...
im so evil...
alto u wouldnt get to read tis foreva...
but still...
i wanted to tell it...
felt reli guilty....

after dat she dun hav coin to call anymore...
and she stopped...
finally my mobile can rest...
let her call till lag -__-||
reli scare if my mobile will burst anot...
den dat gal aishhhhhhh
play keyboard pulak -__-||
let her za dao... -__-||||
chat until 1.30AM++


~MORNING~SKOOL~

aiyooo choi and jing din cum to skool again..
waliao...
never ends -__-|||
both of them reli...
gek sei me...
i sunday send them monday de timetable...
den they monday "gan gan" din cum to skool -_-||
ok fine...
den i send them tuesday de timetable...
they gan gan din cum skool again...
wat the???!!
-___-|||
today i tink i nid to send again...
waliao....
send until da day i die they stil haven cum to skool lar i tink...
-___-|||
aiyoooooooo....
sooooo tired...
like a dead corpse at skool...
T___T didnt hav enuff slumber...
haizzzz...
kept tinking bout my darling **shy shy**
once i reach home den straight away drop on da bed and sleep...
sleep dao 5PM alarm rings...
hav to wake up le -__-||
but still haven sleep enuff lehhhh T______T
only get bak 2 hours....
and da total is 5 hours...
add bak 2 hours...
is only 7 -__-|||
8 still haven reach...
haizzzzzz...



~NIGHT~
things finally reveal...
told me da truth adi...
congratz dat u get to express it out to me...
but im not glad dat i get to know da truth...
even u didnt tell me...
i still know dat how much u care 4 her...
how much u luv her...
u will never know how i feel when i read those sentences...
dat keep popping up in da conversation...
ur words...
hurted me...
deep inside my heart....is bleeding...
is not ur fault for expressing all those to me....
if hurting me and u will feel better...
im willing to get hurt by u....
bcoz of her words...
made me tink of da past...
all da thing...
which related....
or mayb is bcoz i relate everything together....
tink dat i couldnt get wat i wan...
couldnt own wat i luv in my entire life...
couldnt even choose....
juz can accept wat it comes...
and appreciate it...treasure it...luv it....
tears dropping...and flowing down non stop...
am i reli dat bad??dat sucks?
until no one would tink of me??
no one will pick me??
lol....
non of them will choose me though...
i uds myself so well...
Lord...
am i ur child too??
y r u being so unfair to me??
did i done smth wrongly??
and u sentenced me like tis??
no matter wat...
i still hav my faith on u....
hope u can giv me wat i wan very soon....
bcoz i cant wait anymore...
it has been many years....
and wat i can do...
is to wait...
and wait....
waiting for da whole life....
broken heart....