i so bzy hor??
yesterday went to pyramid wit sifu,
today go pyramid wit Choi pulak XD
go redbox cheong K lor...
after dat play bowling...
duno wat happened to us -__-||
get so low marks... > <
not in gud condition hahahahaha
den play basketball...
those guys so kacau -__-||
we wan play they oso wan to play...
and we nid to wait for them..
and dat "chuan yao" ...
yen wong..
kept playing ,
never plan to stop -___-||
wait until reli long..
i tink bout 20 minutes +++ ???
after dat only our turns -__-||
den tis Choi,
while waiting go inside da 大头贴 de machine SS wit her mobile pulak -__-||
> <>
after dat go Gasoline to eat..
is sit actually hahahaha
den shun bian order smth to chew and drink hehe...
talked a lot over there...
not reli talked lar...
is more like expressing feelings...
n finally she told me da truth lol...
juz realize dat my instinct works very well...
always telling me da right things...
n im reli lucky dat Choi told me...
thanks for telling me da truth...
if not den i "died" for ages lol...
funny....
i could guess it since da beginning...
bcoz her behaviour is reli too obvious...
but oso thanks to my instinct...
if i didnt said dat i feel like tis and dat,
i guess she will hide it foreva...
i know u dun mean to hurt me,
datz y u r keeping it...
but next time,
if u reli wanna help me to get myself out from sadness,
pls tell me lar -___-||
n i reli couldnt believe dat u r such person...
a person like how she described...
casanovy??
lol...
u r...
n da most important thing,
u r fooling me...
and da last thing,
u mind bout da outlook so much...
how great of u...
things dat u had done...
almost blinded me...
lol 名符其实的 "berbaju animal" ...
a reli nice mask dat u hav on ur face...
wat a reli professional pretender...
or mayb is a player??? lol...
i reli dun uds...
things dat u done...
and wats in ur mind...
is reli...
not match at all...
wats ur intention huh???
use me??fool me??or hurt me???
lol....
u r not much diff from "others" ...
n mayb even worse ...
and for d end,
im wake again rite now....
(and if u get to read tis...and i again misunderstood u, pls... explain to me...but i guess foreva u wont get to read tis post lol... i will never let it be visible to u...)
tis reminds me bout zong...
d only person who never minds bout my outlook...
n oso d only person who always being true wit me...
even sometimes is hurtful to know da truth directly...
but is better than being fool or lie...
hurts???
pains??
is juz me who gave myself those hurts and pains...
im da one who tortured myself...
bcoz im da one who choose dat way...
i did everything willingly...
n never be force...
im reli sorry for behaving like dat to u....
i shudnt be easily got influence by others....
is my fault.... is my bad...
i know...
no matter wat i do or say right now,
is already useless...
bcoz things already happened...
but still wish to apologize...
突然觉得爱着一个因为是事实而痛的，
纵比爱着一个因为是假象，谎言而痛。。。
两个比起来，
还是事实好很多。。。
想摆脱活在幻想里的我。。。
多么痛的领悟？？
wondering y things r always like tis??
when u having da first,
u tink dat it is not gud, n u look for second one...
when u get da second,
u will tink dat da second is better,
n dumped da first one...
and after sometimes,
u realized dat da first is actually not as worse as u tink...
it might be even da best among all of da choices...
n regret after all....
but is already too late...
human nature??
or is human being??
they will only be regret when it is gone...
n will only treasure when they lost it....
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