Friday,30th January 2009

tis ox year reli sui...
tis stupid ox din bless us de...
cny den so many ppl sick jor..
almost all my relatives having diarrhoea and vomit...
food poisoning i think??
den da next is our dear childhood fren, Eric Wong Chun Fei...
masuk hospital last nite...
due to accident...
had his operation at bout 3-4pm....
many of our SGM members chanted for him...
and his operation done successfully within an hour...
tis operation is to remove da gore in his brain...
and den now is bout his spinal cord...
tis one...
still duno wat and how to deal wit it...
> < still din get any new information bout his spinal cord...
well...
hope he could recover very soon...
god bless him...

Thursday, 29th January 2008

cant sleep well da whole nite...
kept wriggling on da bed...
da stomach...super beh song...
den bout 4am like dat woke up and vomit all -__-|||
after vomit still doesnt feel better...
juz a bit better...
still couldnt sleep...
wriggling again...
dat air cond...
awhile hot awhile cold -__-||
make me like orang gila...
awhile cover blanket awhile kick it away...
aikss whole day like a dead corpse...
dun wish to eat too -__-||
later vomit again...

den when midnite..
aiyooo sure sweet wit my darling lar...
hahahaha kept shaking da head there like insane...
listening to beatful songs....XD
and kept laughing like hell there -__-||
sleepy oso turn to be so energetic....
chat until 5am only sleep...XD

Wednesday, 28th January 2009

walau....
papa and mama sick liao -__-||
they vomit tis morning...
hmmmm...
many ppl in my hometown sick too -__-||
well...
according to our common sense...
i tink they had food poisoning...
den at noon...
Pei Pei (my childhood fren) and her papa mama (my papa mama's frens too) bring us to Temerloh, Pahang de Secret Recipe eat lor...
wakakakakaka they belanja lar of coz...
bcoz her papa is dat Secret Recipe de boss...
so rich of them > <
but so cham oso...
eating oso so bzy...
go and serve da customers...
especially my fren...
wearing a dress go and help da customer to wipe table -__-||
ppl got shocked staring at her like tis O____O
like so weird...hahahaha
wahhhh eat dao super full...
Pei Pei lar -__-||
order liao dun wan eat kept giving me da chicken...
aishhhh....
full dao~~~
den they fetch us bak to hotel ....
den wanna digest yi xia.....
so me and koko went to da basketball court (nearby da hotel) to play basketball wit our new Nike ball lu...






he ar...
aishhhhh sit beside there sms got lar...
only me who playing -___-||
but din shoot much oso...
bcoz got a very pro de uncle teaching his son to play basketball -__-||
den canot go kacau ppl de mar hahaha
dat uncle reli very pro lorrr....
den me and koko sitting at da side there to watch uncle play basketball hahahahaha
go bak to hotel after dat...papa call and chase us liao -__-||
went out to hav dinner...
waliaooo super full....
after having da last meal reli...
very torturing...
stomach not feeling well...
felt like wan to vomit...
my koko so geng...
he said wan go out bersiar siar to digest...
too full...
den he come bak tell me he vomit adi -__-||
and ask me go to vomit too...
haizzz cant make it...
sleep at 12++++

Tuesday, 27th January 2008

hehehehe...
once i wake up den kept smiling adi...XD
wakakkaakakakka
dream of my darling...XD
anyway...
content of da dream is not going to reveal at here...XD
sweet~~~
dat scene kept appearing in my mind...
aishhhhhh **shy shy**
ok stop bitching here -__-||
well...
today nth special lar...
but at nite got video call wit my darling lu...
until 4am -__-||
siaoo...
dat lazy ass...
ask her to read books den she kept on eating -__-||
already full but still eating...
so many excuses -__-||
actually...
not much diff wit me...XD
im like tis too...
but i do other thing and not eating hahahhaa

Monday, 26th January 2009

still coughing like hell -__-||
haizzz never recover...
so pity of me...
canot yawn, canot take a deep breathe, canot canot and canot laugh -__-|||
once i do all d above...
i will be coughing non stop...
oiiiiiiii...
but i must laugh arrrr -__-||
den they so funny...
talk bout IP MAN dat movie...
how do u read dat???
oiiiii of coz we read it like tis Yip Man....
but u know wat -__-||
my bro and my cousin...
read it as I.P MAN...
goshhhh made me laughing non stop...
and oso coughing non stop...
den my auntie said "aiyaa she laugh somemore she will get lung cancer" -__-||
kept coughing like dat...T____T
den at nite when we r in da hotel...
mami and dadi sleep so early hahahahhaa
den i watching "House" wit my koko lor...
so funny lar -___-||
their speech and all was hilarious...
-___-|||
den i oso wondering wat da hell goes wrong wit me...
kept talking alone and laughing alone there...
my koko oso dun wan peduli me while i talking wit him -__-|||
im telling him dat my snoopy (softtoys) having diff scent at diff places...
like da leg of its smells like da pillow...
da hand of its...smells like da towel...
den suddenly i laugh and said "yerrr koko da 2 ears of snoopy has diff smell!!!nahhh i lend u to smell" den i laugh like lunatic....XD
-___-|| until woke my mum up...
and scolded me T____T
"oiiiii chao si ren!!! qu shui jiao!!!" -___-|||
(4 of us staying in da same room)
den...wat??
sweet sweet nite...
kikikiki hav video call wit my darling...
oiiii dat gal...
-__-||
keep pulling me dun let me to sleep...
awhile chasing me away....
awhile den kept pulling...
confusing -___-||
den ask me smth....so...lusty -__-||
aishhhh dat gal...
always like dat especially at nite....
released endorphine yea??? hahahahah
went to sleep at bout 3am+++++

Saturday, 24th January 2009

today still sick...
but nid to go bak kampung...
but b4 going bak hometown...
we go Genting Highland first...
haizzz my dadi's driving skill reli -__-||
tak berskillful de....
until i felt dizzy again...
hav motion sickness???
not reli lar...
is juz bcoz of his driving skill...
-___-|||
or mayb is da car's prob.....
dun like to stay inside da car -___-||
da scent of da car made me felt....
uncomfortable...
will be dizzy everytime when i sit inside da car XD
hmmmmmm so funny -___-||
go there super cold but i wear only a short sleeves t shirt and a short pants...
-____-|||
den didnt bring my sweater bcoz i tink i dun nid it...
but u know i forget dat im sick -__-||
and i nid to bring it....
but normally i didnt bring oso lar...
so ...
juz bear lor..
wakakkakakaka...
went to pizza hut to hav our lunch...
cough until died there...
dun hav much appetite....

den my mami so perasan hahahahha
i took out da camera from my bag...
den she tot i wanna take photo wit her...
she faster pose first -___-||
oso didnt say dat i wanna take photo den she so fast posing there adi...XD
oiiiiii thicked skin hahahahhahaha
but actually reli wanna take photo lar...XD






den went to watch Red Cliff 2 wit koko and dadi lorrrr
quite funny...
especially da speech of dat Zhu Ge Liang -__-||
laugh until stomach burst...
fei fei di de~~~

den went to shopping wit koko hahahha
not reli lar...
he shop only....
not me hahahaha
he bought a t shirt, Tropicana Life's...from BumCity...
and we bough a basketball from Nike...XD
expensive sia....

den time to go to hometown~~~
aishhhh tink of wanna sit in da car again den i wanna cry adi....
dizzy like hell....
until 半山 there stop and eat...
lucky~~~
if not i will die in da car....
no appetite...
ate abit taufu lorr...
wit a spoon of rice....
ate da papaya too...
hahahahha but...
-___-||
half way going bak to hometown den vomit all liao T____T
=.= wasted...
somemore kena my shirt and pants -__-||
bcoz i didnt aim properly to da plastic bag hahahaha =.=
den reach hotel...
wash my shirt and pants....
sleep quite early...
bcoz reli not feeling well...
headache like hell....
den sms my darling tell her dat im not coming on9...
oiiii she reply me...
**sweet sweet**
she's always my best med...XD
kept coughing when midnite...
until woke my mum up....-__-||
pity her...
nid to sleep wit me hahahahhaa

Friday, 23th January 2009

nth special bout today....
being sick only...
didnt sleep well for da whole nite...
sleeping ...awaking...sleeping...and awaking...
T__________T
den beh tahan...
climb up from my bed at bout 9am...
my bro is at home adi...
no mood to talk wit him.....
sick like hell...
cant even speak...
den lay on da sofa..
waiting for ppl to save me...
but they juz pass by me and kept talking to me -___-||
u know wat...
i cant speak larrrr how to answer???
-___-||
somemore scolded me...
T______T soooo pitiful...
flu...cough....headache...insomnia....
T______________T
den today reli sleep for da whole day..
from nite to morning...morning to noon...noon to evening...
and stay up quite lately for nite time...
bcoz i talk wit my bro ^^
dead corpse hereeeee

Thursday, 22th January 2009

today...
once wake up...
oiiiiii felt like dun wan to go skool adi...
so sick...
sore throat...
hardly speak...
once i reach skool den flu liao -___-||
waliao...
cham...
sick dao like sei yu...
den during recess...
not reli druing recess lar...
da bell rang adi -__-||
so is after recess...
dat Choi duno wat happen -__-||
she seldom go and chase ppl bak to class de...
today sot jor...
go and chase the malay and indian guys...
shouted at them loudly....
(we are pengawas kafeteria....a.k.a warden canteen and she is naib pengerusi...a.k.a vice president...)
and u know de lor...
indian and malay guys oso sui sui yong de...
sure wont go lar...
den stay there and macam wan cari gaduh like dat....
den i stand there -__-||
prepared to "open my throat" adi...XD
dat ah Choi oso de...
mood tak baik go mess wit them pulak....
-___-||| shout dao so fierce zomok??

she shouted "YANG HABIS MAKAN BALIK KELAS!!YANG BELUM HABIS MAKAN CEPAT DAN BALIK KELAS!!" (THOSE WHO FINISH EATING RETURN TO CLASS!! FOR THOSE WHO HAVEN FINISH EATING EAT FASTER AND DEN RETURN TO CLASS TOO!!!)

den a malay guy who sitting there eating said : "oiiiiii bising betul larr orang nak makan pun tak boleh" (OIIIIII NOISY LAR...WAN TO EAT NICELY OSO CANOT)

she : "KAMU MAKAN ITU MASALAH KAMU!! SAYA BISING ITU MASALAH SAYA!! KAMU DIAM!!"
(U EAT IS UR BUSINESS!! AND IM BEING NOISY IS MY BUSINESS!! SHUT UR MOUTH UP!!)

oooo at tis time...drama beginsss wooooooo -__-|||
dat guy stands up, made da chair fall, grab da plate and acted like wanna throw da plate at Choi -___-||
and is time for me to take action...
weeeeeeee!!!
i walk to him, kick da chair to him, stare at him and said "KENAPA???!! NAK GADUH KER???!!!" (WAT??!!!! WAN TO FIGHT???!!!)

oooo and he stare bak at me too...wit big eyes....
gosh scary hahahaha...
im not afraid though...
wan den bash my face...
den i go claim insurance -___-||
and u know wat...
he taller than me -___-||
bout 20cm... i tink???
-___-||| i know im short enuff...
but...
i won...
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
he gave up, and walk away....XD
and we walked away fiercely too...
after awhile i start joking wit Choi ...

bcoz she said " chiiii who scare who?? if he dare den juz throw dat plate at me lar!!im not afraid of him!!"

den i said "yea larrrr wan den bash larrr on my face...HEREEE (pointing at my face) if he reli bash i mar go hospital lar...can claim bak insurance...since i bought for so many years but never use it ahahahahhaa -___-|||"

and den she said "joey luckily u support me...unlike dat SF...juz stand there and do nth"

ahahahahha den after dat lots of ppl compliment...
aiyooo pai seh pai seh...
thank you thank you XD wakakkakakaka
i know im so cool XD thank you thank you~~~

**vomit**

and da most important to worry bout is...
i tink dat guy staying nearby my house -___-||
goshhh who knows if he will come to burn my house or not...
scary sia...
somemore my auto-gate is spoiled...
ppl can come in easily...
wahhhhh pa pa~~~~~~

already sore throat...
after shouted da throat more pain > <

den when reach home like a dead corpse...
flu until gonna die there...
slept for da whole day...
at nite chat wit my darling ^^
hehehehhe finally we r alright adi...

but not alright bcoz -___-||
got scold by my dad...
haizzz everytime oso like dat....
da day b4 my bro reach home from Uni sure he will scold me -___-||
duno wat da hell is wrong wit him...
oiii pity me tis patient lar...
sick until gonna die but still kept scolding non stop...
somemore say i asking stupid question...
-___-||
juz asking to confirm wat....
juz dat oso wanna scold me T____T
den my darling kept comforting me...
haizz luckily she is there....
but not lucky bcoz she is there...
i nid to stay in da living room...
if she isnt there i might off9 and get onto my bed adi...
hahahah so i wont hear him nagging or scolding me....XD

den Jing called me...
waliao heard our conversation...
scold lagi...
ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
oiiiiiiiii no manners....
ppl on da phone lar...
wan scold later scold canot ar??
-____-|||
den wat to do???
cancel planning...
not going out for da next day adi...

Sunday, 18th January 2009

wakakaka
today so bzy...
tons of hw to do...
duno is dat homeworks or mountains -__-|||
den somemore nid to help papa 抱红包...
> <
quite fun too...
sambil sms sambil bao...
somemore can bao till so fast...
wakakkakaka actually is bcoz my mama help me oso larrr XD





wakakkaka money arrrrrr
u wann???
blekkkkkkkkkk :P
man man deng~~~~
smells so gud lar those money XD
but i duno y i so geng...
pack ang pau pack dao bleed hahahaha...
kena cut by da angpau -__-|||
gud ar??
all red red red...
ang gong gong~~~



ok forgiv my english...
it sounds so broken...
-__-||
it had been a long time since my last post marrr
so must forgiv yi xia XD

haizzz...how long i will continue to be like tis??

when will u forgiv me??
when will u come on9???
my prayer isnt enuff??
im sending u a msg everynite b4 i sleep...
i hope u uds dat y am i behaving like tis..
is reli not wat i wan..
im sorry..
reli sorry my babe...
everything is my fault....
i deserve it...
i shudnt...
and mustnt talk to u like dat....
everytime...
everytime im like tis....
i duno when am i going to change my stupid behavior...
i know...
i know sorry cant help anything...
and cant mend ur heart...
i duno u r angry wit me...
or disappointed wit me..
or sad wit me...
im juz..
im so useless...
im sorry...

y everything must come at da same time???
im already enuff frustrated for my darling's case...
n there r still so many "visiting" me...
felt like dying...
everyone...
"everyone" is like tis...

1....
2....
3....

3 of them...
am i reli so suck??
or im not qualified to own ppl's luv...
and i juz can giving without gaining or taking any???
and my role for everytime...
is helping..
helping...
and oso...
helping...
passing...
passing...
and passing...
how many times i nid to pass mine to others??
am i stupid??
brainless??
or wat???
y am i doing tis everytime...
bcoz dat is my only choice??
and i cant do anything else besides dat??
wat is my role???
my role is to help ppl like dat and make myself to be suffer like tis??
dat is da reason y i born in tis world??
not enjoying my life but using my own happiness to fulfill/satisfy other's needs??
and at d end is all sadness for me??
there r only me...
who r stupid like tis in tis world...
i reli couldnt concentrate for my studies...
wat shud i do to help myself??
chanting??
even when i chanting my mind still can go for other thing...
den wat for to chant??
since im not sincere at all...
God wont help me too wit dat insincere prayers...
im so frustrated.....
help me??
someone pls??

haizzz...wan die T___T

din sleep well da whole nite for last nite...
-___-|||
let mosquito bite for 2 hours...
den wake up "climb" to my bro's room to sleep...
den had flu...
cant sleep oso...
after reading her messages...
so...guilty??
duno lar...
felt like wan to die...
haizzz wat i did again???
y i always like tis one...
always so "chong dong" ...
my words...
aishhhhh...
ppl reli din ask me to stay mar...-__-|||
i insist to stay but still wan to blame her....
kept complaining...
aishhhh...
i duno wat da hell is wrong wit myself T____T
den da whole nite...
only slept for 2 hours..
plan to not go to skool...
wanted to sleep more...
but...
haizz suan liao go only...
den reach there like dead corpse -__-||
talk like dead corpse..
one is bcoz didnt sleep dao...
second is bcoz of my darling...
haizzzz...
haizzzzz....
still wanna continue to be moody??
stop lar...
later everyone fed up wit u...
den force myself to be normal....
duno how to "sao fo"

den noon...
jing and mun cum my house...
aish dat jing..
reli scary de lor...
everytime she come my house i oso canot take nap de...
so bian tai de lar her -__-||
dun let ppl sleep de...
scary sia....
still dun let me sleep den i wan scold ppl liao -__-||
den sleep dao...
cha bu duo wan 6pm...
dat mun and my mami -__-||
both talk dao so loud..
aishhhhh who oso wake up lar -__-|||
haizzz so yam gong da whole day...

den done smth wrong again -__-||
haizzz told dat Ying dat sf borrow money to buy dat bear...
shudnt tell -__-||
let sf scold...-__-||
not reli scolding lar...
juz...
aiya...
scare she angry so i sms and apologize lu...

aikssss....
muscle pain everywhere...
not energetic...
moody...
sad...
aishhhhhhhh.....
whole day duno at there "fa meng" or wat -__-||
haven "wake up"...
later play da song "wake up call" XD

at last still...
being use as a tool again...
-___-||
is dat i tink too much??
or i tink i shud juz accept it...
bcoz datz da fact...

and i do wanna apologize to my darling at here...
alto she wont get to c/read it...
im sorry babe....
i deserve to get bite by da mosquitoes...
sorry for my words which sounds harsh or sarcastic...
i reli not trying to show or wat...
but it is reli wat i felt at dat time...
hope u will believe me...

T___T

waliaooo
muscles pain dao T___T
i reli using dat yoko-yoko almost everyday adi larrrr
da arm haven finish being pain,
den start for da leg and da feet...
so torturing T_____T
pain everywhere..
shoulder, arm and legs...
wan die....

today dat Choi din come skool again...
so fast den start ponteng liao..
no eye c...
so easy fall sick de...
duno real or wat...-__-||

today first time wear my warden cafeteria de uniform...
wakakkakaka..
so damn hot -___-||
swt dao duno like wat...
but wakakakakkaa...
-___-||
duno y...
ppl kept complimenting...
like never c b4 like dat...
but actually...
they reli never c b4 i wear dat uniform hahahahahaha
aiyooo compliment until...
i shy liao lar -____-|||
except for my besties -__-||

went to mamak eat wit Jing and SF lor...
den kept talking bout ghost hahahahahha -__-||
scary lar...
wit dat kind of environment...
dark sky...da wind is blowing hardly...> <
scary sia~~
den so cham...
took nap for awhile only T___T
not even enuff half an hour...
den hav to wake up go to prepare for tuition...
tuition??
more geng...
dat SF called me...
tell me dat Choi last minute only tell her she is not going....
so she is not going too...
tell me she is tired...-___-||
got choi den not tired lar...
no choi den tell me she is tired...-__-||
oiiiiii~~~
so geng....
made me so lonely there...
kave, dash, sf, yk all din go...
den their paper allllll i keep for them...
Zzzzzzzzz -___-||
fine fine fine~~~~~~
said like im not human...
tomoro den wait let me sut....HUH!!!
-___-|| i know i dun bear to sut them lar...
somemore tomoro wake up sure forget adi...
sigh...
sad....
luckily still got ppl acc me thru sms-ing me...
if not i reli wan jump off from da building -___-||

den came bak on9...
oiiii~~~~
darling's dp so sweet ar???
-___-|| but sweet got ass use ar...
at there...
so bzy...-___-|||
kept asking her wat she is bzying wit...
den she keep changing subject by answering my question...
suak dun wan tell i dun wan ask lor....
msg reli so delay...
somemore kept slander say dat i wont overnite in my living room...
told her dat i will den i will lar...
im not jean lar...
keep breaking promsie dat kind...
tink me as jean adi -__-||
dun wanna believe me adi...
reli is like dat wat...
if u say yes, i wont dare to say no lar...
juz dat my dad dun allow me wat...
if he din stop me i wont stop myself oso lar...
haizzzz....

oiiiii~~~
noi jai arrr~~~~
T_______T

hehehe ^^ sweet+pain

is 3.47AM right now...
guess wat im doing so lately??
hahahahaha...
im acc-ing my darling lu....
she fall asleep adi....
since 3.07 AM...
acc her for 40 minutes adi...
and im sitting here watching her while she is sleeping...
and oso listening to da FM channel dat she is listening to...
kept singing alone and shaking here hahahaha...
she looks reli adorable...
can watch for minutes without moving my sight to other thing and smile there :)
is sweet...
screen shotted...
wanna c???
wait next life XD
is mineeee~~~
funny sleeping style...
she is sleeping on her mum -__-|||
pity of her mum...
juz watching her while she is sleeping is already enuff...
already satisfy and happy ^^
felt like im doing smth for her...
is my pleasure dat i can do so....
lol haven finish type my blog...
den they changed sleeping style adi..
shocked me...
reli cute lar both her mum and her XD

hmmmmm...
if not her...
i might crying alone on my bed again...
but my tears ran out...
bcoz of her too....
wat do u do when d only person who can make u stop crying is da person who made u cry???
she acc me...watching me while im crying....comforting me...
duno y...automatically...i'll smile when i saw her on cam...
no matter wat condition im in...
den shud hav show me earlier lar -__-||
made me cry till headache...aishhh...
happy happy ... ^^
she made my day...
luv her so much ^^
muackssssss ^3^ luv my darling....

"if u luv smth...let it go...
if it cum bak to u... its urs...
if it doesnt...den it never was"

i dun wan to be greedy....
4 others, i might be stupid silly...
but for me..i tink im doing da right thing...
im regret??so wat??is useless bcoz we canot return to da past anymore...
u felt guilty??dun feel dat...bcoz is not ur fault at all...
im juz asking u wat i already knew...a.k.a..craps...
telling u all those...is already too late...
but still...juz wan u to know....
and treasure it....
mayb God wan us to be in tis way...
mayb being like tis is da best for us...
bcoz...
frens are foreva...
and is tally wit wat i wan...
which is everlasting...
dun worry...
no matter wat...
i'll never forget bout u...
i'll never change da way how i treat u...
no one could replace u...
u r my one and only...
i might change da way how i tink of u in da future...
but i would still luv u as i promise...
and i would never decrease my luv for u...
thx anyway...
i've learned smth from u...

"hav a nice slumber...dun wake up if da time haven reach 12pm....sleep without worrying anything...i will keep u safe while u r sleeping there...i wont leave u if i could stay more...."

here comes the end???

lol...
haven even reach a month -___-||
worse....
reli worse...
alto u kept denying...
but i knew it comes to the end adi ...
anyway...
i already prepared my mind for tis earlier ago...
i knew there wont be anyone who will like me lar...
even like oso high fever...
after dat will still wake up from da dream...
im da one who wake from dream..
and they r da one who recover from being sick...
how u behave wit me...
is not like formerly anymore...
i knew...
i knew...
i asked u last nite...
u didnt tell me da truth...
u chose to hide...
mayb bcoz u dun wanna hurt me?
but do u tink im dat stupid???
i still hav self-knowledge...
everything is diff...
da way u reply me and all...
formerly...u find me by urself...
now....
a week i din find u...
and u dun nid to find me too...
when i asked u y...
u tell me ur mobile got rampas by ur mum...
and everything...
start from dat day dat u din sms me once u woke up..
i already knew...
luckily...
reli lucky dat i din tell out...
if not i reli will be so disgrace...
so shame...
reli insecure....
im smart enuff though...
luckily i didnt put all my feelings on u...
if not i will be so ...in pain...
hot time juz lasted for a few days...
and after dat...
im being dump...
wat am i??
a tool to "solve ur problem" ????
izzit??
am i???
agree anot??
still going to deny if i ask u 4 da second time???
dun torture urself to reply me...
juz cut me off if u reli hav no feeling towards me anymore...
from da starting until ending...
u does not hav feelings towards me though...
and im so clear dat...
like me bcoz u nid me...
and is not nid me bcoz u like me...
feeling blue??
not hurt...
juz sad...
y???
ppl who knew me well...
they will know...
y am i so sad...

Saturday, 10th January 2009

today wake super early...
went for da ekonomi's replacement...
having lots of fun there...
teacher elaine is da best ^^ XD
dat choi duno wat happen..
suddenly wanna take photo wit me -__-||
"close" one -__-||
sure is wanna use those photo to made da one she likes jealous ....
=.=
how nice of her -__-||

came bak home...
saw my darling still on???
O____O so early???
impossible...
den she told me dat she din sleep for da whole nite...
helping jean to tink da solution...
sam tong oo...
c my darling din sleep for da whole nite...
so i told her dat...i will settle for jean...
ask her to go to sleep...
and i reli did it > <
ok...
i know im so stupid to do so...
but duno y -__-||
is a nature feeling??
is not like...
aishhh duno how to tell lar...
juz felt like...
dun care lar...
juz help...since is smth urgent...and important...
which may affect her future...
tis time still being so "xiao qi" at there angry ppl meh??-___-||
dun wan help oso help liao so many times lor...
help mai tis time oso not a big deal lor...
as long as they happy ahahahaha -___-||
den after dat i chase her go to sleep...
me pulak at there watch+observe lor...
cute de lar ^^

den argue wit Jing bcoz of sf's thing again...
Zzzzz sien de lar -__-||
after dat i talk to her on phone..
hahahahah helping her to "wash brain" XD
ask her watch videos pulak XD

after dat talk wit ah jie on mic lor...
hahahaha still miss her voice so much...
sweet lor her voice...XD
den i keep pulling da time XD
dun wanna start play guitar -__-||
den i play wrongly she laugh at me pulak...
so meannn > <

den my cousin sis duno y suddenly wanna stay at my house...
somemore sleep on my bed...
somemore snatch my com -__-||
made me so boring nth to do...
den mar call yi xia my lao po lor
she so happy lor...
wit her lao po hahahahaha
-___-|| me so emo here -___-||

gosh -__-|||

so tired today...
laugh until very tired -__-||
dat teacher...
damnnnnnnnnnn funny...
even juz looking her when she talking oso felt funny -__-||
like dat teacher so much hahahhahahaa
made me spit water pulak....
laugh until stomach burst....
dun even let us rest for sometimes...
-___-|||
behind da two malay guys more 38....
kept talking crap...
datz y we cant rest...
here teacher stop talking there they made us laugh again...
aishhhhhhhhhhh

haizzz......wat....tis feeling again...

last nite chat wit my darling...
but...
chat = din chat...
suan le bah...
ppl bzy wit jean -__-||
not free choi me...
dat person...
bet wit RM1000000 dat .... wont reply me....
and reli when i came home...
so quiet of my mobile....

candy rain...
hmmmmm bad quality wakakakkaa
duno is tudou's prob or da director's prob...-__-||
obviously...is da director's prob hahahahaha
so tak berkualiti...

finally today Jing came to skool...
again laugh till da stomach burst...
such a funny day...
not reli day..is skooling day -__-||
when reach home i will be like dead corpse again...

at nite...
like normal lor...
talk to my lao po on phone....
since boh lang on9 at msn....
haizzzzz sad lorrrr
ppl so bzy sms lehhh
my mobile so quiet there...
never rang -___-||
got rang lor...koko call...ask me how to restore system...
-________-|||
haizzzz...
somemore so syok lor got "somebody" harrr...
at there an shuang...
got ppl gao bai wit her..
shuang lor -__-||
me??
ke lian lor....
16 years oso never "an shuang" b4 -__-||
tink dao oso chan kui...
haizz now de feeling...
one word describe..."down"
still tinking there r someone stil in my gang de...
who knows now left only me lor...
haizzz...
lonely~~i am so lonely~~~i had no body~~for my own~~~~lonely~~~
do u tink is my prob??
i do tink wat Tsu told me is right...
datz mean is my prob...
yea is my prob...
bcoz i still haven unlock my heart 4 "myself"...
but is dat da main prob??
i dun tink so...
bcoz "OTHER" oso haven unlock wat....
den y is my prob??
i will automatically unlock when i found da one who is worth for...
now??
juz left me...
who standing on da same spot...
never move even one step from da actual spot...
waiting for someone who will never cum bak to my arms...
is tis loyalty???
or stupidity????
is dat my fault???
is tis wat God wish to??
i tink there r a reason behind ....
there must be a reason on y God made me suffer like tis...
i believe YOU....
there must be a return~~
im looking forward to it...

> <

1AM++++++

aiyooo
wanna die -___-||
slept for few hours only T______T
kept talking wit my lao po on phone until 1am+++++ XD
aiyooooo pity her -__-||
bear until tears oso keep flowing out...
but still wanna acc me ....
haizzz how nice of my lao po...
sek sek muackssssss...
thx for comforting me oo lao po....
if not i duno looks like wat again...
she is reli a gud counselor -__-||
gud until...
made me miss my darling so much...
aishhhh so duno is gud or bad....
missing her happily is a nite....
tinking how bad it is and being moody is oso a nite...
y dun i tink in a positive way???
hmmmmm....XD
is juz like wat she said to me too...
hmmmmmmm but tis is settled...
when im laying on my bed...
i start tinking bout another...
aishhh juz sleep lar...
tink so much...

SKOOLING
so sad...
today our Jing absent again.....
sick until rainbow color adi -__-|||
miss my Jing oso XD
so many ppl for me to miss -__-||
aiyooo list is full adi lar...
dun add more XD
den keep being sleepy in da class T___T
goshhh i wan sleeppppppppp
having fun while moral class -__-||
is all bout da pantang larang...
and we shudnt do smth sinful...
lol such as do not exaggerate da actual thing, do not curse, do not say smth which will hurt ppl's feeling, do not lie and many more...
and i kept being hit by both Pei Yee and Choi -__-||
bcoz in da class i keep playing wit my words...
said smth exaggerated and all XD
laughing non stop....
help my stomach...
so painnnn LOL!!!
is not funny to read thru here...
but is funny when u c how we acted in da skool today XD
hav lots of fun...
unluckily our Jing is not here T_____T
if not would be more happy XD

da first thing i do after i reach home...
call to Jing's house and kacau her wakakkakaka
even im having my lunch...
yi bian eat yi bian talk to her...
until so rou ma -__-||
she beh tahan me den wan hang da call T___T wu wu wu
ppl reli so miss u marrrrr...
y u like dat jekkkk...
den straight away fall on da bed like dead corpse after having my lunch...
and hav a longggggggggggggggggg nap XD
wow...
shuang~~~ XD
after dat den do my hw and notes lor...
i very guai liao de larrr hahahahahha
-___-||
dun wan to be 吊儿郎当 anymore....
must be hardworking for tis year...
i dun wan to be regret for second time wit da same thing...my result....
no more no more...
no more being regret but start studying hard and pay attention while teacher is teaching...
but...
did i??
-__-|| i was like juz playing around when im in da class...XD
try to change try to change!!!
wakakakka i will...
gambatehhhhhhhh

bak to skool!!

gosh...
juz wake up den sleepy like hell...
didnt sleep well on last nite...
well....
HOW TO SLEEP WELL???!!
couldnt....
is hard....
keep rolling and wriggling on my bed for hours only asleep....
but not totally asleep...
hmmmm Jing is absent for today...
her sis say she is sick...
haizz...
da whole day at skool so "bzy"
walking around...
carrying tis and dat...
like "gu lei" -___-|||
hmmmm still fine lar...
den took a nap.... not reli long...but not too short...
went tuition-ing...
worse...
duno wat am i tinking...
so blank....
wat da hell is wrong wit me???
is it reli 心病还需心药医????
haiz....
haizzz anything lar...
im so...
crazy adi...
lost myself...
duno where can i find bak...
when only i can.....


" " ???...
even worse...
i felt like on these days is reli only im da one who start sms...
juz told....dat i felt insecure...and again....is like dat.....
after dat bidding day.........turn to become like tis...
i wondering y too....
fall asleep and woke on d other day...
saw last nite msg...
but din reply me.....
until i sms and ask.....
only talk bout it....
so today...tried to not start....
c if i will receive any msg anot....
hahahahahha who knows...
is already 10.10 PM now and i got nth...
am i so....
没有存在感??
until forgotten me???
wow...
how nice...
.........still can forget me.......
gud.....
dat day still tink ....... da only reliable one....
when im down still will acc me.......
who knows....
last nite fall asleep...
is ok den...
y am i so unlucky huh??
-___-|||
here fall asleep there got live show watch...
am i still important 4 u??
do i hav a place in ur heart??
or even mind...
or u juz tink of me when u nid me???
is it like dat???
is it like wat i tink???
or i tink too much???
will u explain???
i would like to hear ur explanation....
i dun wish to misuds u without knowing anything bout u....
if i dun ask u will not tell rite???
but...
i dun tink my instinct will tell me da wrong thing...
i dun tink my sixth sense will be wrong...
i wait u to find me first den...
if i keep being active...
lol afraid dat u will tink im annoying....
so do i still nid ur answer???
to cut myself off???
well...
i do hav self-knowledge....

empty??feeling-less??y??

broken heart...
again???
well...
i felt bored wit tis too...
everyday is like dat...
everytime is like dat...
or is bcoz of my own problem???
i tink is bcoz of my stupidity...
bcoz i tink it wont happen again hahahahahhaha
SO FUNNY!!
and they did smth more passionate from last nite for me to watch...
wow nicest live show ever...
even my dad still stand beside me and watch together huh???
well i do tink dat is my prob....
obviously...
yea...
is bcoz of wat???
is bcoz of my stupidity again...
i do trust her...
datz y it leads me lots of prob....
i rejected her video calls for many times...
bcoz tomoro is my skooling day..
i dun wan dat to affect my mood....
but after dat....
lol...
u know is like lying me and get me to da highest floor...
and den i was so happy to be in dat floor...so high....
and after awhile juz kick me down from da highest floor to the hell...
torture my heart....
is bcoz of my greediness ???
bcoz i wanted to c....
yea...
but is not my fault???
i dun tink so???
wanted to c bcoz i miss it....
is dat reli my fault??
my prob??huh??!!
juz missing u....
datz y i wanna c...
datz all...
and after dat u break my heart like dat???
fun???
do u felt reli happy to c my heart breaks bcoz of u??
r u??
u shud know how i feel???
or mayb u duno???
bcoz non of us did smth like dat to u b4???
how fortunate r u????
how lucky r u???
huh????
u like it so much???
izzit???
y u gave me "trustfulness" and hopes????
is like....
my heart is already stabbed by ur knife....
on d other day...
u acted like u wanna save me...
went and pull out da knife...
half way pulling...
suddenly u stab in bak HARDLY into da same wound!!!
it is 10 times hurter than if u straight away stab and leave my wound there to recover by myself!!!!
im so regret dat i easily "went up"
so regret....
which turns me becomes like tis???!!!
bleeding...
my heart bleeds non stop...
bcoz da wound never recover...
u never mend it...
is ok....
but u added more pain on it....


haiz...
again...
and i guess da right thing...
she reli went there hahahahaha
luckily i din waste credit on sms her -___-||
haiz...
live show again???
wat i tell others for dat??
"LOL!! got live show watch again "
but actually is "LOL gonna stab my heart wit a knife again..."
enuff empty...
still add another ...
empty+hurt=feeling-less....
foreva u wont uds tis feeling...
y???
lol bcoz u r not me...
and u can simply tell me "ignore it"
"juz tink is advertisement"
L O L!!!!!!!
funny...
too funny...
y all of u must leave me at tis time???!!!
my bao bei went for her dear in hs5...
wa eh dear duno die to where -____-|||
my honey bzy watching anime...dun wanna bother her....
my lao po...aiyaaa dun wan bother her oso..she enuff sad jor....
mun mun bzy wit her darling nia -___-||
haizzzzzz
juz now all still chatting wit me..
and i still felt very well...
now???
wat????
reli....
feeling-less...
my heart....
is bleeding non stop...
da wound...
never recover....
is an endless pain??
pain until...
i duno wat to say...........
haiz.....