✖犯贱+可悲+没人爱惜の我✖

why is it always like that????!! (just another post that no one will bother.... )

2011-09-15T00:36:00.003+08:00

got no place to express and i ended up coming back again......

i just wish i would reach home later...
like 1am.... or i just never reach home will be better....

just when i thought you were waiting for me to come home because you're worry...
no... you're not...
you're waiting for me to come home so that you can throw a bunch of words at me and scold me like there's no tomorrow...

just what did i do wrongly this time???!!
i don't understand...
to cut down on my foods / starve myself and leave foods for you all eat.... is that wrong???
yea, whatever you say, i'm bad at estimating, but to leave more is better than less right??!
just what did i do wrong that you scolded me that way??? do i even deserve that???
are you blaming me because you need to eat twice?? Just leave it if you don't want, no one force you to...

what?? i only know to take and not giving?? repeat yourself again... my heart is broke...
so this is the way you see me??? huh???
what you know about me then??? you know NOTHING!

for you, everything i do is useless, is a waste, is wrong, never right....
for you, everything he did is right, never wrong, we have to tolerate him, even taking from you is right...
that explain why am i getting scolds and all those sarcastic words at outside while he's enjoying himself inside...

silence is golden...
is that even true???!!

hilarious much...
do you expect that i will really tell you??
like "hey! i'm jealous of the different treatment!" "hey, i'm just trying to be nice and leave foods for you!" "hey, i don't like it when you scold me with no proper reason!" "why are you taking other people's thing to scold me??" "do you know how much courage i took to ask you if i can buy that and you just disapprove me like that??" "didn't you see i'm busy?? why don't you ask the free one to help you instead of kept shouting my name only???"

i'm not saying anything not because i'm agree with you...
but i'm tired of explaining...
just how many times i need to explain??? even if i explain , will you even accept it???
one thing i'm sure of is that you will retort...

as expected though...
is not only you...
you all are always like that.... never try to understand the whole situation and start judging me as you like... always like that...
family, friends, teachers, net buddies....
have you all ever think in my point of view?? like ... once???!! seriously???

just a post to express the thing that hides deep inside my heart...

2011-07-04T19:54:00.007+08:00

hello blog~~
i found myself back here again when i didn't know where can i express what is really in my mind without disguising or twisting my words to make it sounds nice...
so tiring...

and it never ends...
always about sungmin... about kyuhyun...

so... 2 days ago...
well... i don't know why am i acting that way though...
but i feel hurt when i see my friend sway from ming to kyu...
no, not only my friend, all the fans who did that... i feel hurt...
i think i wont be so disappointed or hurt if she start liking kyu ever since she knows sjm...
but really, i couldn't accept when people sway from ming to kyu...
just why?? is that keep happening?? is like, nearly half of the ming bias i knew sway from ming to kyu and i'm so sick of it...
to be honest, what so great about kyu??
of course i know he can sing, and his voice is attractive...
and yea, just that i see, nothing more, nothing less...
is hilarious to ask them why they sway...
"oh~~ his voice is so nice~~ i've fallen in love with his voice"
when ming is trying so hard there to make himself multi-talented, i felt like telling him just give up because people dont care...even his fans sway for the "only one talent" member...
even how hard you practise the choreography, still, you will only stay at the back or the side to dance... even you're the 4th best dancer in suju...
no one give a damn about how hardworking you are, ming, because you always under-rates yourself... no, you're being overly kind that you give all your parts to the other members, you dont care about yourself, and do you expect your fans to care about you when you yourself dont?? no!!!
that's why i'm not really blaming when people sway... to be honest, i'm not pissed too... i just feel disappointed and hurt... how can they be like that???
again, to be honest, yea... i'm simply jealous... and selfish... i know and i admit it...

and now, what??!!
i dont even have freedom on voicing out my feelings??
like? seriously??
dont think that you're the only on holding back, WE ARE HOLDING BACK AS WELL!
especially me!
everytime when i tweet smth, i'll make sure to twist it and twist it and try my best to make it not obvious.... cant you just ignore what you read???
can i tweet what i feel because of feeling sad that my friend actually swayed???
why are you so over-protective??? towards other members!
when i never see you being protective over ming? did you??
you said we hold onto grudges, and always rant about kyu and you're sick of it...
and so do i ! i'm sick of myself ranting kyu too because i'm so tired on ranting him, and that tweet of mine on yesterday, i swear i'm not ranting about kyu, i just said i was speechless if people like to think that a voice is better than 100 talents... I JUST SAID THAT!
come to think of it , i'm actually complimenting kyu indirectly ! saying that he use only his voice but can attract so many fans...

and i think we're ranting very very carefully, not to hurt you...
have you see tumblr of kpop secret?? have you read the two posts saying that ming's voice is nothing?? did you see they compare hae with ming and say hae is much more better than ming?? i bet you will just keep quiet even you see it... and see! they even rant it like OPENLY with pictures and words and all insulting ming in TUMBLR!
and even wish him to enlist earlier !
the other one is more ridiculous saying that ming got too much lines like they're deaf or blind that you see ming singing a lot???
and what they say are not NEAR THE FACT AT ALL!!
they say hae's voice is better than ming and HELLO have they ever hear hae singing live?? he sings like shit and i can assure you that hae cant sing live for God's sake even though he has good voice... and the fact is there, ming is main vocal yet they said smth like that...
what did we do?? no! we didn't do anything, we speak what we see and what we hear...
we are just TELLING THE FACT!! is not like we're bringing something false and insult kyu!
is true that he can only sing, isn't it??? tell me he can dance?? tell me he can rap?? LMAO
is true that he's rude to his hyung, and evil too, isn't it??? did you see how he smack hyuk's head and kick hyuk??? and teuki too???
and is true that he sing most of the line, didnt he??? almost the whole perfection that he's singing
and it is very true that he can't dance for God's sake yet he's fucking swaying his limbs awkwardly during the dance break part...
and the dance segment in SS2, they cancel ming out and make kyu in LMAO!!!! WTH??!!
SM The Ballad??? Musical??? why isn't yesung and wookie in it??? ok, cut yesung, since he had musical before... but what about wookie?? isn't it hilarious to know that the main vocal of suju JUST STARTED SOME NEW ACTIVITY THIS YEAR??

and one thing i dont know if you know, when kyu just join suju, ming gave his parts and lines to kyu, and see what happen on being too kind....just like what i said above, nearly half the ming bias i knew sway from kyu to ming... LOL
that's the main point... i actually dont hate kyu, i just feel sad that the fans never see ming...
and when ming is being kind to give his part to kyu, at the same time, he's giving his fans to kyu as well...
and the time when i started hating kyu is the time when i see he's rude and all...
don't believe me? go to M-INvasion and dig the old comments that i ever leave...

i just don't understand why are you being so over-protective with the other members and not ming when your bias is actually ming...
that just make me doubt about you... doubt if ming is really your bias...

do you think we really love ranting???
no, we dont... i really hate it when i waste most of my time pissing off on some people...
but we're doing it because we love ming...
and you should know it that we're not ELF, we couldn't bring ourselves to love all the members...
loving ming doesn't mean we need to love those who are close with him or he loves too...
as you say, personal preferences... and then why are you over-reacting when we dont like other members???
why dont you like SNSD too?? ming is close with SNSD but why dont you like them??
why dont you like 2PM??? ming is close to them too!!
i ship minwook, why dont you ship minwook as well???
that's how we feel when you ask why cant we like all the members or when you ask why dont we ship kyumin...
we're not so great that we can accept the false or acted like we're blind/deaf not to see the truth...
also is not like we're ranting for no reason...
why some people can mix with the whole class but some couldn't???
why cant you understand us ???
why do you want to start some drama when i'm trying so hard to avoid it???
you know we love you, you knew it!
we can always say smth nasty but we didnt, just for you... only for you that we're doing it...
i can always say smth really nasty to you, about them, if i wanted to...

i really hope you can be considerate and understand us...
as we told you earlier, we're not ELF, we cant bring ourselves to like all the members...

Frustration + Miracle = Life couldn't get better~~

2011-05-24T22:45:00.003+08:00

just when i was about to post something emo-ish, there comes something happy~

alright i'll tell ...
it should sounds like this (can't remember well since i should have post this like a month ago =.= )
the time when i don't enjoy my fangirling life...
is when i don't have free times to search for fanfic to read T___T
because i was flooded with all the updates that i need to do on MINvasion as Alex disappear T___T
i can tell that the pics i've uploaded to MINvasion... i barely see them, i just scan through and busy looking for pics to upload ...
well, i'm not complaining about it, i felt honor that i get to help Alex up since she's busy with her work and continue to spread ming's love...
but what disappoint me ... well, is also MINvasion...
i still remember how excited i got when i first became admin there and i enjoy seeing my unnie and dongsaeng spamming MINvasion with their comments..
until Sara, my babe unnie left...
MINvasion becomes dead, no one is spamming MINvasion anymore...
i knew there's silent readers but i actually got motivated when people leave comment,
especially my unnie and dongsaeng T___T
oh and so when my babe unnie left, my dongsaeng seems to disappear as well, disappear as in not active in MINvasion... she's busy with her own things like translating articles, fan account and busy looking pics in weibo...
and there's once i felt like giving up MINvasion, but then i didn't want to be irresponsible... i remember very well that i've promise Alex that i wouldn't dump MINvasion...
also because of someone who being irresponsible, dumping me and MINvasion...
thought that it will be the last source for us to communicate...
how silly i am...

and over here, i have to say thanks to Mika...
really, i just roughly told her about my frustration and she went to leave comment in MINvasion urging the silent readers to leave comment...
how sweet my dongsaeng is ~ *hugs*
and her method works, some of the silent readers start appearing =D
what more surprising is Sara is back again!!!
and really, you all have no idea how happy i am...
also how excited i am to see MINvasion bombed by her comments LOL
ermmm well, perverted comments to be exact XD
*cough* i don't mean that i got excited because of her perverted comments ~~ OMG
*hides*

lastly, really, i appreciate everything that you all have done for me...
Nora, Sara and Mika....
saranghae~~~~~~~~

ok i should go now, is late already...
and forgive me for my ... well, very terrible writing as i didn't write for a long time, i mean write something long like this -__-||

don't know if i'm being thick-skinned or this is really meant for me...
guess that my instinct wont tell me the wrong thing??
"wow .. now I'm happy .. I'm really happy ... wuaaah I thought I was gonna lose her for ever ... I have a phobia from this kind of fights"
it makes me day, if only it is meant for me...
i never know that i can be so important for someone...
the time when i feel i'm lovable... is at this time...

seriously, what is up with my life???

2011-04-30T20:32:00.002+08:00

and yea...
talking about last night...
i was quite frustrated because she just wouldn't get what i'm trying to tell....
no, the price doesn't matter, not at all...
buying expensive thing doesn't mean you can pay back what you owe her,
and the main point is not the price, but the thing you bought...
have you ever thought if she will use it??? i mean like, yea you're right, at our age we should start taking care and sure she will use when you give her but hell no! we all know that she don't use it, is so obvious that you don't need to ask..
just observe and you will see...
if you think you owe her a lot, then you should consider what she need now, something which is more useful and thing that you sure she will be using it...
walau... gek dao~
now i rather to pick your first suggestion, "bicycle" ... that sounds wayyyy better than this...
and then buying gift, since it is a share one, you should be considering about other aspects (people who share with you)...

then today...
the second time that my dream broken...
i found a local supplier of Archos 43 and is only RM300 ...
but the company located at Kuching, Sarawak....
and when i asked my dad... ohh great... cannot again...
he said it might be a scam -__-|||
no, at first he asked me about the service after sales, i said we post back to the company at Kuching and then he said that scam thingy...
my heart was like... broke into pieces immediately...
just when i will have my internet tablet???
i wonder what will be his respond if i tell him that i want Samsung Galaxy Player and THAT HAS THE FREAKING SERVICE AFTER SALES AND NO SCAM, BUT THE PRICE IS RM1300+++
i'm pretty sure he'll ignore me if i ever ask him this because he just wouldn't spend so much on digital... i knew him.... too well...
but Pn Teen said, don't be stingy on technology ......
but actually...
even if he agree to buy me galaxy player still i won't allow him to -__-|||
RM1300+++ i "sam tong" ....
haizzz...
eottokhae???
anyone wanna sell their used Archos43/Cowon D3/Samsung Galaxy Player??

my dream... is broken... goodbye to my Archos 43...

2011-04-17T21:25:00.003+08:00

LOL...
the first thing is LOL!!
i found it is so hilarious..
i'm so dumb, so stupid that i thought my dad will allow me to buy Archos 43...
i felt dumb not because he doesn't allow me to buy,
but i spent like... so much times on doing research and watching review regarding Archos 43...
especially this 3 days, i can tell that i just watch the review from day to night and compare Archos 43 with other PMP/internet tablet, see if which one is better...
until i neglected my homeworks and Sungmin...
and at the end what i got??? as expected, i got this : "No."
LOL!!!
oh c'mon, dad, why are you so paranoid????!!
i'm the one who going to pay and still i haven't afraid it will broke or spoil, why you???
can't you try to think in a positive way... even once????!!!
seriously i'm not in a good mood that i felt like cursing out...
now, if i want something more than RM1000, you will just turn your back to me...
then i found this, RM851, very reasonable and acceptable price, and yet you just deny me like that...
when i can't get to try the device, you said later i will regret...
fine then, now i get to try the device, but you are worry about the damn "service-after-sales" thing...
so when i found one that has the stupid "service-after-sales" thingy which is 60% useless, and then you just turn your back to me... because of the price...
why am i so pathetic?? can't i own something that i want and need for so long time???!
there is whole lot things that i want but i never open my mouth and say it, i just kept quiet and pleasure myself by watching all the review videos on youtube, looking into their official site, just imagine that how does it feel if i ever own them...
Lumix GF2/Sony NEX-5/ Lumix TZ-10
Samsung Galaxy 2/ LG Optimus X2 / Archos 43/ Cowon D3/ Samsung Galaxy player
not much though, only one camera and one smartphone/internet tablet that i want from the list above...

i'm tired of my Creative Zen which it's keypad wouldn't listen to my order...
just how many times i need to press and re-press just to fast forward???!!
just how many times i need to press and re-press just to go to the next song???!!
just how many times i need to check if which songs i don't listen much???!! (thanks to the friggin' 4gb storage)

i'm off..
F**K YOU ARCHOS FOR NOT HAVING A OFFICIAL RESELLERS HERE IN MALAYSIA!!
I F**KING HATE YOU!!!
F**K OFF AND GET A LIFE!!

CNY???!! today definitely not a good day for me...

2011-02-05T21:55:00.003+08:00

disappear for quite sometimes and now i decided coming back here to rant again...

today is really not a good day...
not to add that i have a very bad day during Chinese New Year???!!
like... seriously??

firstly, i spent my whole afternoon, like 3 hours to do the friggin PA essay...
oh great.. waste my time...
why teacher have to give us so much homeworks during CNY???!!
didn't they know that we need to go back to our hometown??
and there, my whole afternoon is gone...

secondly...
sad....
i fought with Sara again...
my baby unnie... T___T
why... why it kept happened?? even though we already promised with each other that this will not be happening again...
i'm sorry... i'm so sorry...
i don't mean to tease you but... that's just my nature... i guess(?)
and i never say that is wrong to tease me back...
but you make me worry...
i'm worrying and feeling so bad here, thinking if my words really hurt you...
and i was so frustrated that i thought you're angry with me in fact you're just doing a prank...
still better though...at least my words didn't really hurt you...
why misunderstanding always happen between us??/
and with the word war 7.... by saying that, i dont mean we dont have a good relationship...
we indeed have a very good relationship but... at that moment, we're really having some kind of world war 7 .... didn't we??
why must you mind about what i said to others so much???
that i think each time we're fighting because you read what i said to others about us...
when i don't really mean it???
waeyo....
why can't you just judge and mind about what i said to you instead of what i said to others??
is my words to you not assuring?? and you think that what i said to others is more real ??
is that so???
i don't know...
but my heart is broken ....
you left me like that...
maybe we need sometimes...
to reflect myself and to let you cool down...
but please... don't leave twitter just like that... come back...either for Ming, Nora or Mika, just come back... T___T don't dump me like that... please...
i cant stand to lose my baby unnie who pamper and spoil me so much...
not to add, appreciate me a lot..
i'm so wrong...
so so wrong...
damn my fingers, why do i always type things without thinking??? i hate myself...
and i freaking felt like slapping myself for being disrespectful and inconsiderate ...
mianhae~~ my baby unnie...

third...
GDI... WTH??!!
why the hell is kyuhyun over flower trending??? SERIOUSLY???!!
is just a stupid picture of him on BOF's character and that he is trending already??
does that even make sense???!!!
seriously, kyuhyun, why worsen my mood when i'm already super down here???
i still remember so well how hard me and some of the sungmin lovers trying to trend ming's president because of his come back drama...
and it trend only for an hour ... i mean on the list...
and this stupid kyuhyun over flower thing is trending like 3 hours++ ???!! you gotta be kidding me...
is that little picture is more important than ming's come back drama???!
great... how great...
that's what pissed me off...
i'll be very fine if the same thing happened during President first episode air...
why is it have to be so unfair???
and us, the vitaMINs, are like spamming the trend for President instead of trending it...
we tried so hard, include that everytime we send out our tweet...
and blame ourselves when we forgot to include it...
omg...why so difficult???!

dream of BoA~~

2010-12-03T12:45:00.002+08:00

ahhhh~~~
i dreamed of BoA last night~~~
so sweet~~ hehehehe
but i forgot part of dream already T___T
like how she looks, what kind of hairstyle, what outfit she wore, where's the place...
i have no idea.....
but i know that she looks beautiful in my dream~~~
the only thing i remember is...
hmm...
in that room, there's quite some people, but not much, included staff and fans?
and then... i don't know if she passed by me or approach me, and started to talk with me, in Japanese?? -___-||| do i look like Japanese?
and then i said " sorry, i don't speak Japanese, i'm Chinese" LOL!! how blunt -__-|| joey ah... where's your manner??
and then she was like oh ok and start speaking to me in English...
but i don't remember what she told me... and then i think i asked her if i can shake her hand and if i'm not mistaken, she hold out her hand and let me shake.... and then she kinda smile(?) before she left to the staff and i turn to the side and said " i'm lucky that she speaks/understand English! " XD and the person at my side is... i don't know who is that LOL!! don't remember -__-||

List what Mr. Lee Sungmin do/can do?

2010-11-26T11:54:00.004+08:00

Magic!!!
Play guitar
Play piano
Play saxophone (the latest~)
Chinese martial arts
Taekwondo (yea, i know is almost the same but... i want to make this longer XD)
Play/do nunchucks (hell yeah! he can kill you with that!)
Ride horse! (newly discovered, after watching Boys In The City 3 XD)
COOK!! (because i can't cook! XD)
Take good care of babies/kids (he can bathe and feed them well ^^ )
Bartender-ing ~~ (he can effing spin the bottle on his palm!)
Dance! (and he dance good!)
Sing! (ehh~ of course he can sing~ but he's also good at it, didn't he? XD )
Act! (woot~~ his drama~~ soon to be air~~~)
do aegyo! (LOL i don't know if this counted)
tossing pizza dough~~

these are what i can think of > <
i think there's still more ~~~

damn it! i'm back to the "mad-at-kyuhyun-phase" again!!

2010-11-05T22:44:00.002+08:00

WARNING : PLEASE, I REPEAT, PLEASE GET OUT OF THIS POST, OR MORE LIKELY, HERE, IF YOU'RE A KYUHYUN BIAS OR KYUHYUN IS YOUR FAVORITE MEMBER, I JUST WANTED TO RANT ABOUT MY LITTLE DISSATISFACTION, NOT TO MAKE THE OTHER ELF HATE ME...
PLEASE UNDERSTAND, THANK YOU...
IF YOU INSIST ON READING, THEN PLEASE BE RESPONSIBLE OVER YOUR OWN FEELING, DON'T LEAVE COMMENT HERE SCOLDING ME, THANK YOU...

still, ranting in my blog is the best choice, i can spill out whatever i felt upset or disappointed with without making other ELF feel that i'm bashing their bias...
my thread have been close by perMINent! T____T
and scolded by another ELF in youtube LOL ... well, i kind of guess that i would get that already...

i know, as a ELF, i'm wrong for this but still... i'm really really not happy with this...

issue regarding SUPER SHOW 2 DVD, Sorry Sorry Answer VCR ...

are you kidding me??
seriously??
these so call ELF scream from head to toe whenever kyuhyun appears in the VCR but shut their mouth so tight when other members appear?
you know, is understandable if they scream at particular scene but WTH?! the really scream EVERY TIME kyuhyun appears, YEA, i repeat, EVERYTIME!
i hope my ears aren't playing tricks and i repeat and repeat watching it and still the same thing...
i'm really disappointed...
what's more disappointed...
yea, they're sooooooooooooooooooooooo quiet when min appears LOL!!
is that funny? yea, i found it funny...
c'mon, when you hear little cheer for that member, you should cheer more, that is what us, fan, do, isn't it??
if they like to only scream over their bias then just shut up and watch the VCR...
and i'm pissed now... very very pissed...
i was actually very happy about the VCR thingy because this version of Sorry Sorry Answer has kangin in it but ........
aishh....

why~~~ T____T
sorry for being too sensitive but really... why??? this isn't the first time already, even when i was in Super Show2 Malaysia, the same thing happen that min has really really less cheer -__-||
**sigh**
no wonder he's sad over his popularity....
because i'm sad too!

think positive...
i should... i have to...
because min updated his cyworld today!! posting the photo he took... him with kyuhyun...
damn !! min, are you trying to ask me not to be mad at kyuhyun??
haizz... i didn't want to be like that too but... they really... not doing the right thing...

compare?is it good? or bad? + fiction i wrote... for Syane(?)

2010-10-05T20:50:00.006+08:00

comparing???
is a good thing actually...
it motivates us and as well as make us a better person...

sometimes it might upset one by comparing themselves with other...
for example, you think your friend look better than you and you're bother by that...
then... this is a bad one...

and it is even worse when you're not comparing yourself with others,
instead, you compare one person, with another, which is not you, yourself...
you might made mistake in your judgement when you brought prejudice along with your judgement....
or maybe you don't bring prejudice, but it just wash over your judgement like that, without yourself realizing...
human being... that's what we do.... of course we choose the one we favor... but you don't really have to bash the other just because you think the one you favor is better...
keep it in your mind, keep in your heart...
compare, but don't voice out what's in your mind...
people got offended by it....

we're normal human being, sometimes, we can't help but being bias...
the best way to avoid this is either keep it, or voice it out, but in a good way...
for example...if you really felt like telling that your friend's bf sings really bad and you think your bf's singing is way better...
edit your words before letting it out, it make a big difference...
just said "the guys is really bad at singing" will do...
you don't have to tell everything out, like "my bf is better than him!"
that's a fail....

even though that's the truth but still, you don't have to tell out because it will just offend people...
also, sometimes, we wont know if what we thought are really the truth, or it is just plain bias...

be good... be nice... and is all started with what comes out from your mouth...
lies are bad, but white lies are good...

finally over here...
wanted to share a fiction that i wrote...
ermmmm...
i guess the fiction is dedicated to Syane?
no....is not(?) i don't know too...

http://kangaroobb.livejournal.com/2195.html#cutid1

放下。。。

2010-09-21T19:29:00.002+08:00

“当一个人很大方的不再计较时，就代表他已放下了。。。”

就如现在的我。。。
之前还在烦到底该不该祝贺他，因为真的很讨厌，生气他对我所做的东西。。。
我做到了。。。
要大方，毕竟我的生日时，他也有给我他小小的心意，而且也听我发了很多奴苏。。。
之后发现自己原来已经不在乎了。。。
其实也不知道是不在乎，还是麻木了，只知道是没感觉了，也不怎么想记得那些回忆。。。

and it hits me...
yea, the stupid drama...
刚刚在看家好月圆，突然觉得自己和里面的阿月同病相怜，
明明说的事实，却没人相信。。。
历史。。。又重演了。。。
明明是他做的，是他的错，可是却被诬赖说是我一手设计出来的。。。
其实被诬赖并没什么大不了，最心酸的是当你看着你爱的人选择了不相信你，站在另一头一起诬赖你，仿佛在迫你把“罪”扛了。。。

不过这一切都已经是过去了。。。。

reason of Min being emo?? + SCREW THE ANTI!!! + MY "Min journey" + Min's extra-ordinary personality + My words for Min

2010-07-30T21:01:00.006+08:00

he is being emo (AGAIN!!) lately...
i see him smiles all the time during No Other times...
but.... is just to show that he's strong???
after i talked with a China Min bias,
she told me that Min close his twitter account and some CY tabs most probably is because of the antis who left comment insulting/criticize him...
GOD!!

is kinda late to post this today...
is the thing 2 days ago...
Min on Good Morning show...
listening to dongdong's word breaks my heart...
our Min is lonely??
why???
and awkward with yesung and donghae???
a major WHY??!! for donghae...
i thought Min is close with donghae???
they are close and intimate with each other...
and is just for fan service????
seriously, what was that???!!
i ship haemin a lot and that really breaks my heart...
and i don't know what i should do if even his room mate say that he is awkward with Min...
luckily, he didn't...

and dongdong said that Min always ask him about how to become manlier...
hey boy, you are really manly, you don't need to become manlier ...
and being COLD is a VERY WRONG concept for becoming manlier...
do you see the members being cold just to show that they are manly?
NO!!!

what's wrong of you being cute??
that is you! you don't need to change yourself just because of what the antis said about you...
being cute and a little feminine, SO WHAT??!!
whats wrong with a guy being cute??
can't he?? he's good at that! you stupid jealousy ANTIS!!! screw you!
stop insulting or criticize him, making him all emo...
you!THE ANTIS doing that to him just showing that you are shallow and you are not as cute as him, not as sexy as him, not as hot as him, not as beautiful as him and that's why you doing all these huh???!!
screw you and get a life! look at yourselves before criticizing people!

To : guy or girl, male or female, men or women - ANTIS

you just couldn't beat him because he looks GOOD IN BOTH!

i don't mind if you change because of your liking...
you want to be cold to look mature or anything...
but please, no, no if you change it because of the antis words...
a big NO!!!!
i rather you to change for the fans, for the one whom you love or love you than changing yourself for those bastards who hates you ...
you should really learn from heechul, look, he don't give a damn about people saying that he is gay and continue going around kissing guy like that, in public, in private or just anywhere -__-||

here comes the truth of me...
well... i admit that i ever call you gay but i really don't mean it...
you can't blame me for saying that because is my very first time seeing you, knowing you...
and the 090515 Sorry Sorry performance was the first sorry sorry performance i watched and...
you...
you sing that way...
and touching your body that way...
and....
that makes me think "that way" too...
i mean yea...you sounds gay there... or perhaps looks gay with that dance moves of yours...
but after watching more shows and performance, i don't call you that way anymore!
i only call you that way because of that performance... i swear...
and i didn't only call you like that, i call heechul and wookie gay too -__-||
but i really don't mean that...
it was just a nick that i gave to allow me remember the 12 members easier...

and what makes thing more ridiculous is...
ermm...i should say surprising...
is...
i started to like you all because of your a-lil-feminine-personality ...
i know i'm weird **cover face with pillow**
but you're really attractive in any way... EVERY WAY!
i love the special personality/quality of yours...
is like, you have everything and you can do everything and what's more?
you are good at almost everything...
the very first thing of yours which attracted me is your cuteness/aegyo-ness...
and the second? of course is the femininity....
chinjayo!! i'm not lying.... i know i'm weird...but....really...
what makes me love you even more is that you can switch your personality anytime, anywhere...YOU LIKE!! omo~~~
and that is really cool!
is like, awhile you're hot, awhile you're manly, later on you became so cute and etc etc...
who else can do that ?? name that person...
and i'm certain that only Lee Sungmin can do so...
you're a "killer"...
a real "killer"...
you killed me so "cruelly" even with the cross-dressing....
is all started with Idol World Suju-T...
and stopped at Gayo Daejun's Gee ...
yea... that little outfit and wig of yours....
made me so...UNF!!!

my words to our beautiful Sungmin :
your beauty...
you specialty ...
are always beyond of words...
please think that you're special and never care about the antis words, ok?
ELFs are always on your side and by your side...
don't worry that people will think negatively on you, even they think like that, just let them be...
as long as we, ELF love you!
God made you special in this way with a reason...
making you being love by a lot of people in all over the world is one of the reason...
and making people jealous is another reason...
yea, jealousy creates antis...
they critcize/insults you is because they jealous of you being so beautiful and almost-perfect....
so....
please love yourself, Min....

favorite UFO replies from Sungmin XD

2010-07-23T20:30:00.004+08:00

just decided to quote some UFO replies of ELF with Sungmin from SJ-World.net as i read a lot today...
(he is active in UFO replies recently?)

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9/7

Fan : It...it's such a nice photo....
Sungmin : I...don't quite like it...ㅋㅋㅋ

(referring to this photo of Kyu, and min is being such a mean! LOL!! )

Fan : How much is this doll ?? I want to have it !!
Sungmin : Very expensive...

( this is the "doll" the fan talking about XD)

Fan : That is my boyfriend !! How is he ?? Is he handsome ??
Sungmin : Oah he's the best...Is there a person like that in this world ??? Is he a doll, isnt he ??

(again, the same "doll" but our Minnie is being such a narcissist indirectly LOL!! he's cute XD)

credits to onsaemiro fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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10/7

Fan : Oppa are you not old ? ㅜㅜ
Sungmin : You should drink blood from a virgin everyday...ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

credits : onsaemiro fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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11/7

Fan : Is it true that Sungmin-oppa is a vampire ? Fans are the only one who are getting old..
Sungmin : Uh!...You got me..

10/7

Fan : I like ChoLee couple very much ~ ♥
Sungmin : .... Hahaha but Kyu doesnt like it..

(think the fan mean kyumin couple?? and min ah, is you don't like or kyu don't like? XD )

credits : onsaemiro & chunhweeryong fancafe
translated by evanesco@sj-world.net

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awwwwwwww
he's sweet, isn't he??
but if i'm that fan, i would ask where is the gold ring that he wore on his pinky for years went instead of asking him about his new ring...

GRRR!! CHO KYUHYUN!!! .... but kyumin save it all?? maybe...

2010-07-10T23:47:00.008+08:00

sorry for the kyu-lovers,
better click on "close" now if you love him a lot...
this post doesn't suit you all...

again, i warn you...
KYU-LOVER, PLEASE LEAVE THIS POST NOW IF YOU THINK YOU LOVE HIM REALLY MUCH !
don't leave comment scolding me after reading this...
i won't stop you from reading but if you insist on reading, scold me MENTALLY, don't leave comment here telling me all the shits...

(i made out my mind that i still love kyumin....after all...)
rage~~~
seriously...
don't talk to me about CHO KYUHYUN right now...
i'm not really sure the reason why i got mad at him but im just mad with him...
you know, is so hard for me to like him and so easy for me to hate him...

the first member whom i dislikes a lot in suju was him, yea, Cho Kyuhyun!
i'm not sure why too...
he just make me dislike me for.... no reason?
or maybe with reason...
first of all, he's too skinny, really, and with that over-sized blazer he's wearing make him looks unattractive...
also his curled hairs...even worse...
everything on him just make him look horrible...
well, that was my opinion at first...

and i'm gonna kill myself for jumping eunhyuk to min...
because...
kyuhyun is his effing room mate and what's more?
he is his effing 'lover' ...
and i got offended...
curse myself for liking to read fanfictions...
because most of the fanfics that has min in it for sure it has kyuhyun too -__-||
which also means , more than often, the pairing is kyumin...
at that time, i ship kangmin a lot...
and what to do when i'm out of fic to read??
i forced myself to read the kyumin fics...
and oh god, i don't really know how and why i started to cast away the hatred of mine on him...
if is not because of min, i wouldn't give an eye to him!

and then...
i started to ship kyumin after that...
more and more...
until i neglected my favorite OTP, kangmin...
also haemin and minwook ...
and i found him attractive (at least in some way)
because of the naughty look of him?? maybe...

and all because of the 4jib that i started to hate him...
well, i wont blame if min didn't get enough line in the songs because...
understandable, there are lots of members and some of them get even smaller part than him...
so he is lucky enough to have "quite a lot" of lines already...
but then...
what's with that???!!
why is kyuhyun taking over the dance break part???
instead of min??
do you need me to remind you who is the top 5 dancer of suju??
sorry, top 4 for now after hankyung left...
seriously, you can't dance as well as min...
your long limbs swinging around make you look awkward...
come on~~~
you already have a lot of singing lines,
why still wanna snatch that little thing from your hyung??
and this reminds me of super show 2 where the same thing, the dance segment changed, and you are in it, not min!!
and screw you that it happens before super show 2 in Malaysia and i didn't get to see min dance hotly live!

after some days, i get over of this...
and started to accept the facts...
and another thing hits me...
when i was watching the Hello Chat (a very old variety show)
i was wonder why the MC said the this 3 (is min, wookie and yesung) is the represent of singing group...
so i left a comment asking why and the uploader told me that before kyuhyun join suju, min was one of the lead vocals (the third vocalist to be exact) and i went all "WHAT THE F**K??!!!"
it really pissed me off...
and i swear i will chop him into pieces and feed to dogs if kyumin isn't existed...
i don't even know why kyumin is existed when kyuhyun snatch so much things from min and preventing him to love by everyone...
so what i read from the fanfics were right, possessive kyuhyun...
he indeed is possessive...

and i started to dislike kyuhyun already...
but not as offended as now...
because of the stupid kyuhyun fansite...
who went to take kyumin photos but end up blurring min before posting it...
what the f**k was that, seriously??
if you wanted only kyuhyun, take just kyuhyun then! no point of blurring min...
or you can crop your BELOVED CHO KYUHYUN out, so we would thought that it was a kyu-only pic...
even 2sungmin, snowdrop or sungminwings still didn't do that, and why are you, the kyu-lovers doing that???
is not like min is a stranger or something...
he is part of suju too!!!
further more, he is the little lover of kyuhyun!! forgotten about the kyumin huh???
what's wrong with you guys???!! gosh...
i felt like strangling the chokyuhyun.kr fans...
or most likely, the editor of the photos...
you're jealous with kyumin or you don't like min or you love kyuhyun until went blind ???!!!
if you jealous of kyumin, i would ask you to go to hell, when he's with girl, you complain...
and now even when he is with suju member, you are complaining...

don't blame me for hating you, cho kyuhyun...
because your fans "helps" me make my last decision...
and i think i need time (and read more kyumin fics) to get over all this stupid stuff...

my ideal guy ??

2010-07-04T13:28:00.002+08:00

well....
i have no idea why it turns up to become like this...
don't misunderstand with my post that i'm having a lover right now -__-||
i'm just... imagining LOL!!!

call this as requirement??
not really...
i don't really mind if that person didn't fit any of them ^^
as long as he fitted my heart :D
and the requirementsss i set is kinda...not to say ridiculous, but impossible??
and i thought i wouldn't get someone like that... (even my friend say so)
let's take a look at the list... (not rank from most to least)

caring and loving ( from people to animal)
can cook well(?)
will/can do house chores XD
learned/do martial arts
play musical instruments (preferable : guitar)
sings well
soft and tender
do "aegyo" (撒娇)
a shy guy
cute(?)
height of : above 169cm, below 177cm
not skinny! muscular or not doesn't matter, as long as meaty with broad shoulder
laughs and smile a lot
humor! (hate cool guys)
observant
a little feminine ( but i don't want sissy )
smart

that's all i guess???
LOL is almost impossible right??
especially for the cute, do "aegyo" and a little feminine one XD

but then it hits me...
i found a person who fitted my list perfectly!
unluckily... he is a person whom i couldn't reach for...
Lee Sungmin... yea, my idol LMAO!!!
people might thought that i only make a list according to him,
but then i made the list before i even know him...
and i'm surprised to found that my idol actually fitted all the above...
even surprising, i didn't love him that way, but still, i adore/love him as my idol...

if you wanted to know how he fitted....

caring and loving ( from people to animal) - he cares the other members of SuJu a lot...
can cook well(?) - he can cook!!! prove in... i forgot the show name -__-|||
will/can do house chores XD - i watched in WGM that he cleans Kangin's house !
learned/do martial arts - he has 8 level black belt for Taekwando and he do chinese martial arts, either with the long stick or nunchucks
play musical instruments (preferable : guitar) - he plays both guitar and piano and he owns about 5 guitars O___O from acoustic to electric O___O
sings well - of course he can ! and i love his voice too XD
soft and tender - yea he is, don't believe? go and watch him on shows and you will know...
do "aegyo" (撒娇) - i guess i don't need to explain for this? his title, "aegyo" prince...
a shy guy - he is XD knew that from shows...
cute(?) - do i need to explain this? he's also the cutie pie of SuJu
height of : above 169cm, below 177cm - his height, 175cm
not skinny! muscular or not doesn't matter, as long as meaty with broad shoulder - he's normal and a little chubby, right now he has muscle too...but not that visible...
laughs and smile a lot - almost in all the pics that he smiles
humor! (hate cool guys) - he can be very funny sometimes XD
observant - he watch at his members and ready to give a hand
a little feminine ( but i don't want sissy ) - yea, he is feminine XD and can be manly too!
smart - ermmm i guess he is ?? because of the shows i watched him in it...

the problem now...
if i look for hubby with this list, for sure i wont get one LOL!!!
out for 5 person, 5 person told me that this world wouldn't have the second person like him...
and i'm so dead now -__-|||
stick with min then...

URGH!!MY LIFE!! WRECKED!!! | am i being too naive to even believe them?? (Tuesday, 15th June 2010)

2010-06-16T13:18:00.008+08:00

call me sensitive...
call me unreasonable...
call me anything you think that i am...
and yea, i am like what you said...
but really...
i guess there are better words to say instead of "disturb" ??? i was just trying to care....
i knew i'm not lovable...
yea...maybe i'm so childish that i can argue with you because of that little thing...
i'm so sensitive and negative that i think it in a bad way...
spare me...
PMS-ing...
and i spare you too...and i always will... no matter what you did to me...
because i love you, my dear friend ^^

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i'm so disappointed with you...
no, i'm disappointed with myself that i'm being fool again...
why am i so urgh!!! DUMB!!
i always think that you are "different" from others ...
and always think that you're special, at least, to me...
that i went to throw whatever reasons/excuses just to 'protect' you, your personality, your everything...
who knows...
you are actually too good to not tell me the truth...
you afraid that i will got hurt from your words...
but you didn't know that i'm even hurts right now because of your "GOOD"...
iit is even hurts that you fakes to me... you lied to me...
freaking liar...
you made me believed you for years that you're different from "THEM" and now only i know that you're actually the same....
i'm losing whatever right now...
trust...
confidence...
anything...
what register in my mind of you... is wrong... SO GOD DAMN IT FUCKING WRONG!

why you chose to tell at this time??
when i'm telling you my previous "case" ???
wanted to rips my heart into two so badly?? huh???
once is already enough...
and now you are adding the second one to me???
if you chose to hide the "truth" from me, then just hide it forever so that i'm happy with you...
hiding halfway and spit it out, what was that???!!

what right do you think you have that you can scold her that way??
huh??? you're just the same kind as her, aren't you???
that's why you twist your words all of sudden, didn't you??
scolding that she is a badass...but when you realize "it", you twist and tell me that she isn't badass...lol... you are so 可笑, you know?
but she's better that she wanted to keep "the truth" from me forever...and ever...
but why?? why you went to unveil it?? why do you blow her covers away??also your own???
i wont know the reason forever why the hell she revolts at me if only you didn't tell...
and i think i'm happier to know that she revolts at me all because of that 3 effing reasons but not my physical figure......
i hate you for making me hates her even more...
and i hate your for making me to hate u...

you know what...
you don't have the effing right to even stand on my side to scold others when they dislikes me...
because you are just the same...
when even you wont like me...
who else would???
you're such a bad role model...

am i really that nice to fool??
are you-all having fun playing with my feelings ???
is not the matter of you really like me or not,
but is the matter that you PLAY with my effing feelings!
you-all to be exact...
i'm not a toy, i have feelings too, i'm a human too!!
i'm used to it that people playing with my feelings doesn't mean i wont feel hurts anymore also doesn't mean that you are allow to play with it!!
screw you!

终于了解为什么你知道他是“这样”的人，却不离开。。。
因为你和他都是同一种人。。。
不同？就只不过是他勇于说出他的“心声”，
而你不敢说出口。。。

and finally i know...
girls or guys, they're just the same...
same that they freaking care/mind about the so call fucking "GOOD FIGURE"...
but one thing i'm curious of...
why does oversize guys can be so lucky, have lovers...
while oversize girls wouldn't be as lucky as them???
is that even fair??
no...
the world never be fair...
and i know... i need to seek the "fair" out by myself...

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia - Fancams Download Links

2010-03-28T23:29:00.006+08:00

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Angela & Miracle
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=MYFULHDN

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Baby Baby (Sungmin's solo)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=DUS2AANI

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Beginning+A Man In Love
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=EN70MKT0

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Chu~ (60% Donghae focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=WS370JKB

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Don't Don (60% Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=7XYDF2Y7

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Ending
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=K8XKO9F8

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Introduction (Siwon, Kyuhyun, Sungmin, Donghae, Shindong, Leeteuk)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=X9S68ZFV

100320 SS2 Malaysia - It's You (90% Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=K9CEHBT3

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Marry U (80% Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=BU6UJI14

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Our Love (Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=3YNB3XQA

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Pajama Party (Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=IWA1LBNW

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Puff The Magic Dragon (Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=SP2EDM12

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Rokkugo (90% Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=7SYTBBY9

100320 SS2 Malaysia - She Wants it
Download link: http://www.mediafire.com/?nzcyywnnnzm

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Shining Star (Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=NRV1GG1H

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Sorry Sorry (Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=4A3WR2GV

100320 SS2 Malaysia - Sunny (Sungmin focus)
Download link: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=VYQAOVEJ

100320 SS2 Malaysia - What If (KRYS - Sungmin focus)
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=LCKMLYFO

100320 SS2 Malaysia - U (80% Sungmin focus)
http://www.mediafire.com/?uegwyzxjwmy

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part4 (Fancams!!!)

2010-03-28T22:55:00.006+08:00

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part3 (Fancams!!!)

2010-03-28T18:43:00.002+08:00

Download the clearer video here : http://www.megaupload.com/?d=7XYDF2Y7

for this, i focus whoever too because...
sungmin's back is facing me T.T
GOSH! sit the wrong place -.-

Download the clearer video here :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=LCKMLYFO

well... i guess i'm focusing whoever that spins facing here? XD
but still, Min bias XD

Download the clearer video here :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=WS370JKB

donghae is so cute when he did the head movement, while sticking his tongue out XD

Download clearer video here :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=NRV1GG1H

Omo...
he is so cute when he's playing with the little torch light given by fans XD
and he is like, addicted with it...
kept playing for the entire concert after this -.-

Download clearer video here :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=3YNB3XQA

**squeal** KYUMIN moment!! XD
awww Min is tying the rose on Kyu's wrist XD

LOL at the Min-hips-sway XD
he's really... aishhh

Download link will be provide soon...

LMAO!! eunhyuk is really funny, my friend kept laughing when he imitate the toy giggling XD

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part2 (Fancams!!!)

2010-03-25T11:58:00.005+08:00

Download the clearer version :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=X9S68ZFV

siwon's seductive dance XD
kyu's moonwalk is kinda stuck XD
and...**cough** **palm face**
remember to low down your volume when you heard "Danhobak, Sungmin"...
yea, is me who screaming LOL!!!
and shindong is really funny!!!!
"MALAYSIA~~!!"" **waving** so cute of him...
our leader-shi is really cute XD
doing that dance...i
is kinda from H.O.T's Candy?

Download the clearer video here :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=MYFULHDN

for this,
i focus whoever i felt like focusing or near us XD

LOL at the ShiEunHae XD

Download the clearer video here : http://www.megaupload.com/?d=DUS2AANI

watch the one in youtube first as a preview XD
i put lots of comments and warnings in the annotation...
so.... that's why...

this is beautiful...
and again, so sorry, my camcorder doesn't seems to be working with the VCR there -.-
light effect i guess...

Big Five Test Results

2010-03-24T02:18:00.001+08:00

my Big Five Test Results XD
almost very accurate -___-||

Big Five Test Results

Extroversion (56%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
Accommodation (78%) high which suggests you are overly kind natured, trusting, and helpful at the expense too often of your own individual development (martyr complex).
Orderliness (48%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, structured, and self controlled while still remaining flexible, varied, and fun.
Emotional Stability (42%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.
Inquisitiveness (42%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly small minded, traditional, and conventional at the expense of intellectual curiousity, possibility, and progress.

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100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part1 (Fancams!!!)

2010-03-22T21:49:00.011+08:00

Super Show 2 in Malaysia, outside the stadium , fans lining up at the entrance...

Super Show 2 in Malaysia stage XD

Super Show2 t-shirt that i bought...
is so damn expensive T____T
RM120 = 1 set, included t-shirt and a flag

my room, beside my bed XD
full with Min and cowie XD

well..
i didn't bring my sucks camera a long...
but i successfully sneak in my camcorder... (REAL DANGEROUS!!)
unnie ar, you must borrow good cam from your friends too and bring Min back ok???
i will pray for you not to get caught by the security XD

Download clearer video here :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=6NW8AT4A
i miss to record the front part where both sungmin and siwon start to dance "SEXILY"!! GRRRrrrr~~

siwon is like...skinship-ing everywhere XD

Download clearer video here :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=EN70MKT0
ryeowook came out from our side,
and he is kinda got pull by the fans there LOL...
so cute of him XD

and so sorry for the extreme shakiness ...
my first time been in concert, first time meet sj, first time fancam-ing XD
that's why...and i'm screaming my lungs out, couldn't focus to record XD
especially when Min jumps over XD

Download link of the actual video :
http://www.mediafire.com/?uegwyzxjwmy

the quality is quite blurry after uploaded into youtube,
so, is better to watch the actual one XD

really sorry for the extreme shakiness -.-
i'm standing and need to tip toe so....

for clearer version, download the actual one here :
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=K9CEHBT3
oh shit, this is blurry as well after uploaded to youtube,

sorry for my scream LOL
i'm just...out of control **palm face**
especially when Min singing XD
**palm face again**

My birthday gifts (?) + SuJu's 3jib Asia Special Edition

2010-03-14T23:08:00.008+08:00

well...
i shouldn't be posting this first because i haven't meet Choi yet...
wondering what will she give me...

for Jing...
she paid RM10 for what i ate at Sushi King...
but then the foods that i ate cost me RM26++ XD
so i still need to pay RM16 myself -___-|||
such a sad news that i even pay extra RM10 because ....
someone didn't pay enough for what they ate...

first of all, my birthday cake XD
low fat birthday cake to be exact -___-|||

3jib that i bought...
as a birthday gift for myself?? XD
is expensive O__O
RM74.50
luckily, with my Popular card, i get 10% discount XD

is imported from Hong Kong if i'm not mistaken...
Sorry Sorry album, Asia Special Edition XD
and yea, it is silver in colour XD

but then my Nikon just wouldn't get the colour right -___-|||

Min's legs XD

the CD + DVD ...

Hyuk's head+body...

Min's legs again XD
really proud of him...

as you all know...
i'm Min bias...
so lazy to snap all the 13 members ,
so i only took photo of him... ^^

closer look?

and then this...
916 Gold, J alphabet (real one ok? )
given to me by my childhood's friend mum...
her mum is also my parents's friends...
and yea, they are rich XD

didn't mean to help Poh Kong advertise XD

wouldn't state the price although the receipt is with me XD
(because i didn't want people to rob me or kidnap me...no! i do not have money T__T )
which means i know the price O_O
and i can tell you that...
is real expensive for such a small alphabet...
it is just the size of my finger tip O__O
but then my fingers are bigger than normal teen girls XD

why am i so pathetic??!! + what a month/year??

2010-03-12T00:05:00.002+08:00

my year...
my 18th....
my month...
everything just sucks...
except for the super show2, everything just sucks...

i'm so blue...
so so blue....
and even blue when i got my result...
it is not what i expected it to be...
really...terrible...
what can i do?

how do you feel when your friends doesn't act like they are your friends?
should i be crying over myself that i'm so pathetic or crying over my friends that they dump me and didn't care for me?
not even a tiny bit?
this is exactly what i encountered...

i beg my Sifu to come back back on 13th March from Singapore 2 months earlier....
maybe even earlier that i do not remember...
because i know..
no, i KNEW that this would happen...
as i said before, my instinct never tell me the wrong thing....

i'm so so wrong when i think that Choi is the most reliable one...
that i counted on her a lot...
yea, she, indeed reliable when she isn't in any relationship...
but things just changed when she is in a relationship..
and how unlucky i am that she just started with one few days ago?
when my birthday is just after a day?
she gave us an acceptable answer at the first place that she need to accompany her mum...
but then...
lol....
how funny that she is that kind of spill-everything-out-before-think person...
and yea, she spilled everything out about why she is not coming to celebrate with me...
a really worse reason...
the worst ever....
if you are curious about it, i can hint you that it is absolutely about her relationship...
and she only found herself doing the wrong thing when SF scolded her...
she never be like this...
never ever...
at least, to me that she never...
she care her friends a lot...
really a lot...
at least, to me that she cares a lot...
but then she is just showing me directly that i'm wrong...
hilarious...
perhaps...
i spoilt her...
pamper her too much...
i should have return the ring to her lover.... lol...
because i found it useless on me...now...just....

for Jing???
i counted on her a lot too...
because she came to apologize to me earlier that she can't afford any gift for me anymore...
she's broke...
well, that actually doesn't matter to me...
i am happy as long as they are by my side...
so, i told her the same...
and she insisted that it is different for this year as i turn to 18th,
is my 18th birthday, so it is important...
yea...
who knows....
when i ask her anything about the celebration...
a "sweet" and simple sentence that she would answer me, for every question...
"i don't know"
"maybe?"
"i don't know"
she's the one who tell me how important the birthday is....
18th....
and she is the one who doesn't give a f**k about it...
didn't even bother even today is the last day of planning...
even brilliant answer when i ask her is she going for tomorrow...
"got influence u ?"
the best answer ever...

they just didn't know how much i love them....
they didn't know that the money, time and care that i spent on them is even more than my family....
and now they are doing these to me...
do i deserve this????
no, is "THESE" instead of "this"....
how silly i am...

at last...
the one whom i didn't care a lot (compare to the other 2 )in this recent months,
is the one who cares about the celebration the most...
i'm sorry for misunderstood you...
you might be harsh on me before...
might be scolded me for nothing...
and i'm sorry for being so unreasonable that i didn't care for you at all
and thanks a lot ...
at least you have the intention and heart for me....
and i will payback my "careless" to you by listening to you...

also, my pet sister, Mun Mun...
her words make my day...
although she couldn't come with us,
but the same, she has the heart and intention...
thanks a lot...

who else do i have ???
i don't know as well....
people celebrate with their family, their lover, their friends...
and what should i do when i do not have any of the above??
eottokhae???

maybe... super show2 is the best birthday gift for me....
let's see if it is...
i curse the organizer...
it would be good if they make it on 13th...
so that i wont be sad because of all this shit...
wont even give a damn if any of them care about me or not...

it has been quite a time since my last tear...
and yea...
i'm tearing again...
all because of this shit...
i thought i'm happy when i am not...
just because i'm not tearing doesn't mean i'm happy...
just because i'm laughing my ass off doesn't mean i'm happy...

why am i so pathetic that i have no one???
none.... really none...
not the one who likes me, nor the one whom i like...
i still remember about last year...
even though i clearly know that i'm just a tool of his...
even though it is not a true love...
even though his wish is just so fake that he can't even remember my birthday...
but then... i'm still happy that i have a person...
unlike now that i don't know where i belong to....
i've lost my soul... included my heart...
feeling-les... empty... emo...

i don't wish that they told me this was all a surprise...
because this surprise...
hurts so much...
so so much....
and used a lot of my tears....

sings my lungs out? laugh my lungs out? or cry my lungs out?
i had given no choice beside this 3....

i am dead... XD because this is super hot yet super hilarious!! check out our SuperMinnie XD

2010-03-03T21:12:00.008+08:00

Warning : The video is not suitable for minors XD

Warning : Nose-bleed might occur, please prepare tissues/handkerchief

Warning : Do not drink while watching this, if you don't want your monitor to soak

Warning : Misuse of a "good weapon", Chinese Martial Arts stick -__-||

LMAO!!
our sungmin dancing with Brian from Fly To The Sky ...
im seriously dead,
mostly not because of the sexiness/hotness of him but ...
is really funny LOL!!
moreover, i got no time to spazz over his hotness/sexiness because im busy laughing my ass off XD
especially at the end,
it reminds me of JoKwon (2AM) who did the same movement and hurts his inner thigh during Star King LMAO!!!!
our super minnie is really cute XD
at the same time, he lost his innocence !!! O.O
also, you can see that Brian kept grabbing the top of the stick, a.k.a kept grabbing onto our sungminnie's hand O___O
and i'm certain that he did it on purpose XD
aeeee???? XD
who knows if Brian falls in love with our superminnie as well XD

oh well, is a new name which gave by one of my close net buddy, Zong...
she hates that im so crazy over sungmin and i think she accidentally call him like this one day when she is complaining :
"why huh?? watching your super minnie again??" LMAO!!
such a cute nickname XD

well, here is the link to watch only the dancing part directly
(the embed option has been disable for this user, thats why you need to click it) :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORmi3znnXks

and here is the sungmin cuts of Kang Shim Jang (Strong Heart) :

'wuri' clumsy cute boy, SungMinnie + Min's bad day

2010-01-29T23:08:00.007+08:00

for you to refer back the video...
i know this is kinda late already...
is about min almost fall in Gayo Daejaejun...
actually, i discovered this on 16th January midnight, but i just discuss about this in sjworld.net ..
and i decided to share it here as well,
as ELF (of Min) not from sjworld.net probably couldnt know...

when i was watching Sorry Sorry Gayo Daejaejun on that night,
at the part when donghae singing and they kneel down (at about 1:39),
i was like "why Min get on his knee so fast ??"
and i kept repeating and i can see that he is tying on his shoe lace...
and again i was like "aishh this clumsy boy"...
and still tying at 1:43 even though they already stand up at 1:44 ...
then i repeat watching from the front to see when did his shoe lace loosen...
about 1:19 - 1:20 (stare at his shoe and you will see it)

and about 1:24, he accidentally stepped on his shoe lace which makes him almost fall ...
luckily, and thank God that he didnt...
no wonder when i first watch this performance,
i felt something isn't right with his solo part that he dances too "differently" ...
(more like a drunker XD )
and now i know why ....
but i have to say this, he is really good in covering his mistakes...
i never notice that before i know he is tying his shoe lace...
i thought that was part of his dance even though i repeat watching that performance for tons of times,
but still didnt observed that ...
omo~~~
or maybe is the cameraman too good to cover up Min's mistakes XD

and then,
a few days back,
i was watching the fancam of Super Show2 in Beijing, Don't Don...
and again, he slipped, almost fall again **shake head**
thank God again that he get to balance himself...

3.20, he is running back, i think the stage is slippery, he shouldn't run this fast when he reach the stage...
3.23, he slipped -__-|||
aishhh Min is really clumsy...
you can see it clearly in another fancam,
i lost that video in my youtube list, and so lazy to find it LOL XD

and that day is a really bad day for Min...
he get hit by eunhyuk on his head at 2:16 ...
and Min looks like he is mad at eunhyuk...
(in another fancam, you can see eunhyuk sliding his hand from min's back down to his butt XD whoaaaaa eunmin moment! XD )
and eunhyuk dont dare to look back at Min after that XD

and shindong is the one who ask if he is ok -___-||
ShinMin!!!

and shindong's hair is so funny !! XD
LOL!!

i was laughing so hard when i watch that...
from the other fancam you can see Min and siwon bearing their laughter LOL!!
and Min looks really adorable,
whenever he laughs hard, he will cover his face/mouth/eyes XD

SuperShow2, i'm coming!! + miracles + stupid organizer

2010-01-18T22:33:00.006+08:00

yea!! thats my ticket XD
(dont doubt it, i scan my tickets thats why it is so clear)
wow...
what i said in my previous post about the RM238 seat and alone are now gone XD
my childhood friend is going with me XD
and because i've check the date of National Service, is on 27th March,
thats why my dad allow me to buy the most expensive one XD
miraclesssssss XD

but sad things come...
im kinda pissed on today...
i queue from 11.30am until 3pm+++ and only move a little...
well... im not surprise with the people there actually...
what makes me surprise is the line ...
omo...
is really...
like super junior...
the line is super long....
i guess is about 1km already???!!
you know why the line is that long???
all because of that stupid organizer...
real stupid....
they have only one counter...
how stupid that is???
when they already knew a lot of people would be buying it ...
even more stupid that they open another special counter for only RM458 one...
because they should have done that earlier when people is complaining about the shortage of counter!
yaishhhhhh
aishhhh we pay for the most expensive ticket and still, we have to stand for so long?
does that even make sense?
even idiotic, by right the poster is given on the day you buy...
who knows they say they will be giving out the posters on 31st January...
oh gosh....
so lousy lar! and they want us to stand for another day again???!!
i rather to stick my head to suju pictures with my 20" crystal bright LCD than lining up again to see the low quality picture -____-||||

and so...
when i queue at the RM458 line,
i've get to know this two ELF...
and i guess we are friend now ??
hahahahaha XD
glad glad...
both of them are DBSJ fans...
not DBSK, is DBSJ XD

another problem comes....
super show 2 t-shirts...
how am i going to buy ??? T___T
my dad only fetch me to the stadium at 6pm, while super show 2 starts at 7pm...
T_________T
any kind friends or ELF there willing to help me buy ?? T___T

Super Show2!! im coming!! + haengbok T__T im so fortunate to have my family...

2010-01-15T22:45:00.004+08:00

guess this would be the luckiest thing in my life...
is not that i can get to see suju...
but is because my parents allow me to go (mainly my dad),
and even want to pay the ticket for me (RM238)
unluckily, he doesnt has that chance as my brother is sponsoring me RM200 XD
(actually i thought of using my salary from work to pay...who knows....)
whooaaa T__________T
is like whole family are supporting me for such a "nonsense" by giving efforts...
(well, for me it is indeed meaningful, but for them, fangirling is meaningless)
while my mum will accompany me to KL Sungei Wang Plaza to buy the ticket... XD
i thought i would be going there alone to buy the ticket and maybe lost on street > <
(yea, im sucks in recognizing the places and roads)

well...
actually, i feel like helping the poor ELF who cannot get the tickets or afraid that it will be sold out if they book online...
but then...
this is the restriction...
my dad ask me not to bother about other people, just care myself...
which means, the possibility that im going alone is really high ...
what to do??? eottokhae???
but then i found that my childhood friend is interested too...
but still, i guess she need to ask her dad first ...
i really hope that she can accompany me **pray**
however... another problem came....
since she is rich, i guess she would buy RM458 instead of RM238...
which means...
im still alone T__________T
whoaaaaaaaaa....

and besides talking about super show2...
the other reason im blogging is because...
i felt that im really fortunate...
and finally i knew why my sifu ask me to treat my family (as in spending money) , instead of my friends....
though i do not have any bestie, nor a lover, but i guess, just my family is already enough,
isn't it?
i clearly know that i would lose either lover or friends when i know myself having a good family...
cherish...

LOL!!! Kenny G???

2010-01-11T18:12:00.003+08:00

this is actually quite awhile ago...
i just so lazy to blog LOL!!!
not really...
is actually im busy with other things....

so...
we bought this Kenny G's Love Ballads album...
original one lar -___-||
not pirated ...
as my mum loves Kenny G's songs a lot...
so this is the album's pic
(im so lazy to take pic of mine although mine is different from this...
so i just simply grab a pic from google XD )

and my mum listen to this almost every night when she is reading books in her room...

and one day~~~
she came home with a "stunning" hairstyle....

**thunder** **lightning**
and i was like ...
"omg...what happened to your hair??"
she just grins -___-|||
and i asked her " i guess you listen too much of Kenny G and now you are having the same hairstyle as him???!!"
and she burst out laughing... as well as me > <
yaishhhh...
and so... i gave her a new name...
Kelly G... (Kelly is my mum's nick..)
LMAO!!!!
story ends... -___-|||

first day&time works + am i lucky?or unlucky?

2010-01-02T21:51:00.003+08:00

my first day at working place..
my very first time working for money...
i know is kinda "old" for this XD
as people already experienced this when they are 15 > <
and i only began to experience the working life when im 18 (2010)....
not that bad ^^
not tired either...
hahahaha because i work as part-timer...
moreover, there are not much thing for me to do...
and and,
i knew the boss of mine,
she's my mum's friend...

but really have to say this...
i guess im the luckiest worker ever...
because i still can see my mum there XD
not much people can see their parents for the whole day huh?
but i see her almost the whole day XD

but also...
the most unfortunate things happen on the first day of my work...
first day working then "spoil" people's program -___-|||
the whole 2009 data couldnt be open already... (invoice)
omoooo....
the printer's fault...
or i should say the plug's fault -___-|||
so guilty.... T_____T
ottokhae???
luckily already 2010,
or else i think im already at home just now =X
really sorry...

so now...
should i say that im lucky? or not?

Happy Birthday to 성민~오빠，생일 축하해 !!! and Happy New Year to everyone~~!!

2010-01-01T00:00:00.009+08:00

woah...
just on time...
i was like waiting for 12.00am to reach XD
firstly, happy new year to everyone!!!

To wuri SungMin~~~

Happy Birthday, SungMinnie ~~!!!

생일 축하해~~~ 성민이~~ !!!
사랑해~~~~

(this pic looks more like he is singing birthday song to himself -___-|||
well...is actually telling that he is touched XD)

happy birthday to you~~
happy birthday to you~~
happy birthday to Minnie~~~~
happy birthday to you~~~~~~~

생일 축하합니다~~
생일 축하합니다~~~~
생일 축하합니다~~~~~~
생일 축하합니다~~~~

imagine...this would be his shy face after singing song to him XD >>>>>>

i dont have any special pics...
is these fine? hehehehe ^^
really love his smile...
just looking at his smile brighten up my day XD
and finally, the emo-prince is gone...
and our sunshine-prince is back!!!

hope that Min is happy now...
i guess suju is celebrating with him in the dorm?or outside?
maybe still performing for MBC Gayo Dajaejun?
is good if they are still at MBC,
so everyone included the fans are together with him, celebrating for him...

awwww....
i really wanted to watch it live T____T
but the streaming having problem yaishhh!!!

outing! outing! merry belated x'mas?? XD + sifu...haiz...anyeong~

2009-12-27T21:02:00.005+08:00

weeeeeeeee~~~
last night went to Pyramid together with my bro...
and his ex-classmates....
actually, is none of my business because is their gathering > <
however, my Sifu is there XD
and i felt like watching movie too...
so.... i beg my bro to bring me along XD

first round, sushi king...
our dinner ....
while the others came really late > <
and what i know next when they reach is...
ZhengYi is really hyper last night -___-|||
he really looks like he drinks a lot too > <
his face flush red...
not much different from my Sifu...
the only difference, my Sifu is not that hyper last night > <

after that then go to cinema, of course...
watched "Bodyguard & Assassins " ...
and my Sifu's reaction is really LOL whenever there is "bloody" scenes > <
the movie talks about rebellion...
no....
is revolution of China...
not bad...
and is quite funny too... XD
that hyper guy sit besides me and kept laughing like mad -___-||
oh gosh > <
the movie finish at about 11.50pm ...
real late ...

and third round at Barjana (Mamak)...
celebration for those who born on December starts....
again...the hyper boy...
im just so lazy to state out everything that he does...
but he's really funny lar > <
it's been quite awhile since i last see him...
and he changed a lot...

after that then my bro fetch them go home lu...
at that time is already 2am+++
wahhh real late...
guess last night is my second time that so late but im still on the street...

dont feel like letting my sifu go T____________T
kept tugging her sleeve and nuzzle her arm until she got annoyed XD
since i got nothing much to talk with her...
so...
this is my way on showing my miss towards my Sifu T____T

when we reach home...
is about 3am++++ already > <

didnt celebrate x'mas with anyone else...
and perhaps, last night is to replace the emptiness of mine...

sometimes...
i really couldnt understand whats on my sifu's mind...
ermmm...
maybe i should say,
most of the time...
examples...
she would treat me coldly for sometimes...
especially when we meet...
but then she will text me or call me up when she's in Singapore...
how weird > <
or...
put it this way...
when i didnt bother her, she would want to talk with me...
and when i wanted to talk with her so much, she wouldnt bother me...
or like this....
when she is a Malaysian, she never bother me...
when she is a Singaporean, she would care for me...
omonaaa~~~
what's with this girl??
难以捉摸...

perhaps...
is just like what my dad said...
she has intention.........
to approach me...
though i didnt want to believe my dad's words...
but i knew that what he told me is always the truth...
the fact that we wouldnt want to face it...
yea...but still...i believe in my sifu...
no matter what...
hmmm...
maybe i should say...
no matter she teach me sincerely,
or she has intentions...
no matter how and what...
i'll still see her as my sifu...
and respect her...
because she is my mentor...
but really...i rather to believe in my sifu's sincerity...
yea...she is as kind as i imagine she is....
even she denied it....

but...
how...
what if one day she come and tell me that...
she is treat me this good is all because of....
yea...intention...
omo~~
how should i react???
by now...
i can only know that i will be really disappointed if she is like that ><
ok! no more this kind of thoughts if i really believe in her...

i didnt sleep well last night...
kept awaking from my slumber T_____T
i wondering why too...
i guess is because im worry of my sifu...
so worry that i couldnt do anything to help her...
not even a simple comfort that i can do....
because im not given any "permission" to...
YAH!!!! for those who start to have weird thoughts on me...
stop that!!! im not like this and i will never ok???
i mean...will never...........yea.... you know....
is because she is sick...already...
yea....sickness....
serious....real serious one...
that im chanting for her everyday...
i can do nothing besides chanting...

but then im kinda happy when i woke up this morning...
guess why?? > <
i have this...dream....
what kind of dream??
is embarrassing > <
if you are interested, or curious? come and ask me in person...
and i will tell you secretly > <

wuri cute SungMin - 090626 Gee performance gifs

2009-12-18T00:52:00.004+08:00

awwww...
i really couldnt stand with his cuteness...
though his knee is injured...
but he still can be so freaking adorable > <
that i couldnt help but squeal > <
guess that he is the cutest grown man ever in the universe XD
thats why i made these gifs...

(if the gifs is not working, come back in someday...
because imageshack is not working for sometimes
if problems still persist, leave me your email address and i'll mail it to you)

ANY REEDIT IS PROHIBITED!!!
GIFs ABOVE OWN BY ME!!!

once again, be proud of my new babe(graphic card)... also, Window 7 + Minnie's pics = perfect

2009-12-12T22:40:00.007+08:00

i left out something in the previous post...
so, these pictures are "add-ons" > <
and so...
the second proudest thing that i own :
1GB ATI Radeon graphic cards (HD 4670)
ok, i know this is quite old already,
i mean the series, 4670...
but, who cares???!!
is 1 GB!!!
and im only using that idiot 256mb Geforce with the old PC > <

and actually im not buying this at first,
i mean it is not comes with the package,
the one in the package was Geforce,
and you know what,
i hate Geforce a lot > <
because im using a 128mb ATI before changing it to Geforce,
and i think the graphic and colours of ATI are so fine,
even though is only 128mb,
but i think is even better than that stupid 256mb Geforce > <
and so...
i requested to change...
but unluckily,
the technician said that 512MB of ATI (4650) is out of stock,
and he recommended us this ....
and wow~~!!!
i then own this 1GB one by accident XD

even the LCD,
i also own it by accident...
actually i wanted to buy the 18.5",
but before going to the shop,
my dad said that 18.5" is really small...
so he said straight away take 20"....
and so bad, we walk around the whole shop and all the 20" LCD aren't crystal bright screen...
and then i spotted a special box... (i've posted the picture in my previous post)
and my eyes are like this *.* (shining) when i saw the words "crystal bright" XD
or is actually written as "crystal brite" on the box XD

the other lucky thing....
i get to participate in a contest (you can only participate if you buy the Core 2 Duo processor)
looking at the prizes...
**jaws dropped**
the first picture, is my Panasonic Lumix TZ-7!!!!
omonaaa~~!!!
i want it so much that i can give out my life...
urghh kidding > <
i really hope there comes the forth luck in my life...
which is to let me get my TZ-7 !!!
i've been dreaming of it since the day i "met" my TZ-7 > <
and yea, i love photographing a lot!!!!
and im sick of my old Nikon E7900 because of the broken screen that caused by my bro...
aishhhh....
im so sorry, my Nikon,
i've been loving you for 4 years...
forgive me for "betraying" you because i've fallen in love with TZ-7...
(aishhh when did i start not loving human being but a non-living things??")

and then...
when im changing the desktop background,
i discovered something about Window 7 O______O
i can switch my background every 10 seconds ...
ermmm actually there are 30 seconds, 1 minutes and so on as options... XD
but im using the 10 seconds one...
wowwwww~~
and it means i dont need to be frustrated with which pic of Min should i put as background > <
because it can keep changing XD
cool cool cool~~~~

here's 2 screenshot of how the wallpaperssss work :

feel free to ask me anything regarding Window 7 ...
but i know nth much yet as i didn't really go and explore how it functions...
one thing im not contented with Window 7, it eats up lots of space!!!
just the window itself already 9GB +++
omonaaa~~~

and that technician, so smart....
went and set an uneven partition space for me -___-||
Disk C 118, Disk D 189 **fainted**
both drive should have the same amount of space ok?? > <
who will use Disk D that much???!!!

my new babe XD gonna be proud of it... + my addiction = fanfics XD

2009-12-10T23:53:00.004+08:00

new baby??
aeeeee~~
whats on you mind??
thinking that i have a lover???
or a pet???
no no no~~~
but it is also my companion,
my PC XD

i got my new cpu today...
well, actually already bring back my 20" wide, crystal bright LCD on that day...
but only started to use it today together with my new CPU XD
the proudest "property" i ever own in my life,
is the LCD ...
i guess non of my friends has this 20" wide, crystal bright LCD yet XD
(even the rich one...while im just middle class)
but i knew they will still own it someday XD
what makes me even proud is...
im using Window 7 !!
yea!! the latest window...
home basic?nonono, but home premium...
where you can switch to a compatible window when some software or games couldn't works with window 7 XD

but i have to say...
this LCD kills my eyes...
my eyes gonna be dead very soon > <
even i set the brightness to 10%++ still that bright...
what the ... -___-|||

not much to tell about ...
but im glad that finally that old old old and slow cpu can be "dispose" together with that spoiled spoiled spoileddd and oldddd monitor XD
really, if continue using that monitor i guess my eyes will blind even faster than using this LCD
> <

da darrrr~~~ new LCD...
(sorry, my camera isn't functioning well for this time )

and my cpu...
(i have no idea why there are so much dust and it was it's first day O__O)

whole set~~
(only the CPU and LCD are brand new, im still using the old speaker, keyboard and mouse XD)

and so...
went back to hometown on last two days...
bored like hell...
because my bro went to other places for business after staying awhile at there...
luckily he left his laptop for me XD
due to the coverage there (countryside),
i cant do anything much even i have broadband...
so i just kept reading fanfics fanfics and fanfics..
omg...why is all the fanfics kyumin??
even odd -__-|| yemin...
the cutest i've read before , ryeomin XD
( i will give you the link if you are interested)
and suddenly,
something came across my mind...
"whats with Min???? why is he pairing up with the smokers???"
yea, kangin and yesung are smokers...
(kangmin, yemin? O___O )
and then i've seen from somewhere telling that kyuhyun smokes as well...
omonaaa...
that magnae...really... > <
but is not that surprised, because he do looks " evil",
and so , the pairing, kyumin -___-|||
ohhh but i can guarantee that eunmin and ryeomin are totally fine...
eunhyuk and ryeowook dont smoke, ok?! > <
the biggest issue of mine is not this,
but with my addiction of fics...
what type of fics...
really have to tell??
is fics with "heavy" yaoi content...
aishhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~
i couldnt help it ...but its just so ....
tempting...
nonononono~~~!!!!
im not like that...
i mean, Min is tempting...
and he is just so sexy > <
being the bottom one ...
aishhh that scene still stuck in my head...
but i really hate the authors for making him be the bottom one!! > <
whyyyyy~~~~
why Min has to bear with all those "painssssss" > <
no way!!!!
Min is not as feminine as you-all thought...
ermmm...although sometimes he would be > <
but still he is manly!!!!
(and i started to wonder, why am i calling him Min now instead of Minnie??
Ming would be better > <
at least, change for a bit...)

and this is the only reason why i stay up lately when im outstation....
middle of the night, bearing the laughter (ermmm too excited =X)
so pitiful...because if i burst out laughing my mum would fly kick me > <
as we are sleeping together in the hotel room...
cough hardly to cover my laughter...
aishhhhh ...
how wish i wouldnt smile nor laugh when im encounter with embarrassment and excitements > <
i can't help it...
that's my genetic....
my bro has the same reaction when he is shy!!!

odd?? loving k-pop is sinful???!! + isolated...neglected...dump???

2009-12-03T22:16:00.007+08:00

went to KL today...
why?to celebrate Choi's birthday?
not really...
just going there to accompany her bringing her lover back -__-|||

** in Jing's car heading to Timesquare**
smart me...
that i brought my MP4 along this time XD
reason??
because the car's owner, a.k.a Jing always against songs that i like...
not only song,
i guess is everything...
when i sing, she straight away press "next" (even she likes that song)
skipping every song that i like -___-|||
but when others like Choi and SF singing,
she doesnt have such reaction -______-|||
conclusion : i can only listen without singing, having any reaction if my favorite song comes...
but...useless...
im a k-pop lover, they are c-pop lover...
we came from different world...
so...is super impossible that my favorite song will be play from her pendrive...
so this time, i bring my MP4...
ohhh luckily,
i sit behind...
i wont get to see even she gives those faces when i sing XD

**at Timesquare**
haizz...
got scolded by 3 of them saying that im overly excited...
too excited because is been a long time since our last outing...
and then...
when Choi met CC...
of course they will be together...
left 3 of us...
and then 2 of them walking together...
so...left me behind...
no one cares if im lost or what...
luckily our Choi still care even she is with her lover...
kept asking me not to walk behind ...
aiksss...
aiksssss....
already know such thing will happened on the day before...
i still cant find a reason why i follow LOL!!!
speechless~~
really...
is not like me...
is not like a talkative Joey...
that i talk this less...
theater.....
so... that couple are being separated to sit behind...
and 3 of us sitting at the middle row...
urghhh...
this time not being left behind,
but being left beside -__-||
haizzz...
not much difference to watch with them...
i mean ... is just like im watching alone...
watch myself, laugh alone, giving opinion about the movie to myself...
chinja...
aishhhhh...
and haizzz...

**in Jing's car - back from Timesquare heading to Sunway**
sitting in front...
wrong...
really wrong...
whatever i said, i will only got scold by Jing...
even didnt say anything still got scold...
k-pop fever?? = my fault???
i know she hates it when im listening to Sorry Sorry so much...
and im bearing not to sing and just listen to it...
suddenly i heard she said something...
something like that "you are really...... i heard that song from here"
ohh she didnt finish her sentence...
but i knew what she mean...
omonaa...
i really dont know what i've done wrongly...
even didnt sing, just listen to it...
still got scold...
later just inform/ask her if she pull her handbrake and got scolded again...
im just asking out of kindness,
still...my fault...
borrow a cushion from them and cover my face...
like that would be better...
or else she will scold me again when she saw my face -___-|||
and again...
silence is golden!!!
i didnt fight back with her because...
the car belongs to her...
and she is the one who drive us there...
so...
i should appreciate and treasure her effort...
even she scolds me...still...she is right -___-|||
haizzzz....

really dont understand...
why other friends didnt against the things i like but she do...
only Jing,
the one i care the most...
against with me...
maybe is really like that...
we came from different world...
im from MARS while they are from Earth...
why??because im always the odd one...

**at Sunway steamboat restaurant**
feeling a lot better here...
hahahahaha still because of the other friends who came after that...
they made my day even im not really close with them...
still better than the close one who neglected me T____T
no....
not neglected...
but dump instead!! T____T

**emo**
seeing the love birds...
really...really ....envy...
why i never have one?
or i should said...
never get to try even once??
yea...is my problem??
my problem because im not good looking...
so is my fault...
yet, it is not...

wuri SungMin's shocking hairstyle... heart attack

2009-11-30T13:21:00.018+08:00

omoonaaaa~~
**fainted**
he always gives us a heart attack by changing his hairstyle...
this is real shocking...
should i call it as "Minnie's shocking hairstyle"???
Unnie, have you watch SuperShow 2 at Bangkok, Thailand yet???
well...
he do looks hot...
but i still couldnt accept his hairstyle > <
is not that he doesnt looks good with it...
is just that...
i cant help it but he looks super hot with that LOL!!! > <
but...
is that too manly for him to perform Gee?? -___-||
indeed, it is > <
(Min ar...why are you so cute even with that hot hairstyle??? LOL XD )

i was so glad...
so glad that my instinct never told me the wrong thing...
i was watching the super blurry fancam of Don't Don...
i then spotted a person wearing all black with his hair tied up...
started to wonder if he was wuri Minnie > <
i thought for a long time ...
especially the way he dance,
the way he pose,
his hands movement when he is singing,
the way he fold his sleeves,
the way he run back to the "actual stage" ....
everything just like Min...
but i cant certain it at that time because of his "shocking" hairstyle which makes me think that is not him...
because i never thought that his "short" hair is able to tied like that O_____O
but his body's size is exactly like Min!!!!
even mine still couldn't, how can he???? O_____O
and then i found another HQ fancam of Don't Don,
an ELF leave comment there telling that Min is cute when he is running back to catch up the members...

and so.... i fainted...
Min arrrrr -___-||
what happened to your hair again???!!!
you just changing it non stop, is even often than other members, you know???!!
and even during the show you still changing non stop...

Photos as provessss :
(click on the images to view the actual one)

spotted the shocking hairstyle "creature" yet???

and you are now wondering "omg is that him?"

and so...this creature with a "superb" hair is pouting...
yea...still can pout when performing...
cant help it...it was his favorite ...

is him!!!
wuri Sung Min, Lee SungMin !!!

here ...
the difference...
spotted the changes of his hairstyle yet??

no??????

his hair changed into a braided one now!!!

Wuri Minnie's solo, Baby Baby :

SuJu's Don't Don :

SuJu's Gee :

a different sifu?? i dont want T___T my sifu is irreplaceable!!

2009-11-27T22:25:00.004+08:00

today my mami get my brother's senior,
ermmm also our childhood friend to teach me account...
since my account exam is on next Tuesday...
i felt...unusual...
no, should say unnatural > <
because for me,
only sifu can teach me well...
uh hum...no offense ok? > <
all of sudden, i started to miss my sifu...
sifuuuuuuuuu T____T
and so, i text her...
immediately she call me > <
"wahhh...so fast?here i text there you call me??"
"of course...im singaporean what...singaporean are fast and efficient " > <
aishhhh this sifu...
when did you became singaporean huh?? > <
you are just working there!! > <
"you are now replace by another jie jie lu~~"
"ohhhh so you just want to tell me this lar?"
"no larrrr of course not~~"
and i miss something to tell...
which is, my sifu is irreplaceable ...

during the lesson...
generation gap...
as she is 6 years older than me,
LOL same age as both Minnie and BoA > <

and finally...
the lesson ends at 4pm++++
real late...
although im not that understand,
but still appreciate her hardwork...
thanks a lot ^^

and also only i know that my first thought is right...
i would be fully understand if it is sifu who teach me T____T
i dont know if im bias or what,
but i just felt that sifu is good in teaching...
no offense no offense...
im still appreciate and treasure this other sifu who save me when my real sifu isn't around...
or else i would be dead > <
still...only sifu can settle me this naughty student XD
(ermmm so sorry, i know im crapping for the whole post -___-|||)

Sung Min - Baby Baby(original singer : 4men) romanized/romaji lyric

2009-11-22T13:37:00.005+08:00

4men - Baby Baby (romaji lyric)
Sung Min's solo song in Super Show2

Please take out with full credit !!!
is really a hard work and i put a lot of effort in it,
because i don't understand Korean!!!
and i romanize it words by words!!!
so please,
kindly leave a comment too if you are taking it...

lyric romanized by Me!!!

credit : KaNGaRooBaby or
ҜåÑĢäЯòó ЈöεΨ ➸ 910 / 091

eeyuleul mollasseo
oh naega byeonhaeneunji
hancham saenggakhaesso neowa
na mannaneehulo
na byeonhan geo katta
ahju manhee mariya
ee norae deurrinee
oh~~~

*neega neomu gomabjanha
oh baby
neega neomu yeppujanha
oh~~~
nuneul pel suga eobso
nae nunen neoman boyeo
neoman gyesok bara bogo sipjanha nan
oh jeongmal
oh~~~baby

haruga jinago
do dasi mannago
geureoda heeojigo
do dasi manange doego
neomu joheungeoya
manyang ugiman hae
eereon naega boeeni
oh baby

*neega neomu gomabjanha
oh baby
neega neomu yeppujanha
nuneul pel suga eobso
nae nunen neoman boyeo
neoman gyesok bara bogo sipjanha nan
oh jeongmal
**nae haruharuga
neomu haengbokhaeseo
oh baby
eereon nalee geuttnaji eonhkin
nudeunge da byeonhaji eonhkin
uh~~~uh~~~~~~~~

*neega neomu gomabjanha
oh baby
neega neomu yeppujanha
oh oh uh ye~~~
nuneul pel suga eobso
nae nunen neoman boyeo
neoman gyeok bara bogo sipjanha nan
oh jeongmal
oh baby~~~
ohhh uhhhhhhh ohhhh~~~

credit : KaNGaRooBaby or ҜåÑĢäЯòó ЈöεΨ ➸ 910 / 091

once again got insulted by those 贱男生!!! + will there be anyone would "protect" me from these??

2009-11-15T17:24:00.010+08:00

i know this is such a shame ...
i mean im shame of myself that i got insulted by this SON OF A B*TCH!!
ok...sorry for using vulgar words...
(probably got influenced by Unnie XD kidding XD )
and also this is so embarrassing + disgracing + humiliating + (anything) to post...
i dont want to fight back because i...
somehow...agree with him...
but im still pissed with what he said...
and i think that no point to argue with those who are not educated!!
(later you will know why i said he is not educated at all)
just wasting my energy, time and saliva...
moreover, he is not anything of mine!
dont even know him at all!!
he is just some sissy who came and add me and claim that im the one who added him and even ask him not to say "thanks for the add"
what the???!!!

ok, even i am yong sui so what??
so you are allow to insult me like that??!!!
having this kind of face is what i want?!!! HUH???!!
I WISH TO BE GOOD-LOOKING TOO!!!
really...
started to hate guys even more than ever...
why guys always acted like this to me and those who aren't good looking??
ok, except for my family and Minnie...
ermmm suju as well ok...
we are not good-looking and then??
is it sinful for not being good-looking???!!!
is that we should got insult by you just because we aren't good looking???!!!
you are just simply ridiculous!!! brainless as well!!!

for those who are already my friends in Friendster,
you can view the photo comments here :
http://www.friendster.com/photos/19315665/2/577512949

for those who aren't my friends in Friendster,
you can have a look here...
ermmm these are the photo comments of that(my) photo :

XIAO ER - posted - 10/28/2009

my 910 so kawaii lo^^

ღҜåÑĢäЯòó ЈöεΨღ - posted - 10/28/2009

-__-||| where got...so yong sui got lar
(yong sui = ugly)

唔爱你滴人 - posted - 11/14/2009

sei pop job~fuck Q la

(you can know that he is not educated by his words...wanted to say pork chop but spell it into "pop job"... how idiot??? LOL!!!)

唔爱你滴人 - posted - 11/14/2009

你懂你样衰~就好咯

(he said "is good that you know that you are ugly too??" in other words, i have 'self-knowledge' )

here comes the conclusion...
i mean the main point of me posting about these...
im wondering...
when will this stop???
and will there be anyone who would protect me from these??
now im not only need to protect mentally,
physically as well...

urghhh i guess...
the person who are against this for me will got insult too LOL!!!
especially.......
ok...nth -___-|| just forget it...
this is really not so nice to post...

again...im so 犯贱?? + is there anyone for me??

2009-11-12T22:49:00.004+08:00

went for chinese class today...
urghhh...
dont know go for what...
my soul is at home while the body is at school...
which means i learn nothing today in the class LOL!!!

then Choi told us that she sms and ask Ray why Ray lied to her...
urghh...
the process...of course im not going to reveal here -__-||
crazy ar > <
later the whole world also know...
but then that Ray really...
aishhh...
is her fault but still blame Choi > <
what the..
but im kinda...
hmmm how to tell the feeling??
unsatisfied??
with Choi's last words...
"i spent 3 months to chase Ray!!!and is my very first time chasing a person!!" -___-|||
immediately i said "3 months only and you are like that...how about me??one for a year and 7 months, another one for half year, and otherssss for monthsssss, but never get any???hmmm?"
"you are different from me what..."
"what so different?because i love to get hurt by others?love to be sluts?huh???"
and she just remain silent...
-____-|||

just 3 months already like that...
i mean said like she is so pitiful...
how about me???
im not pitiful then??
ohhhhh~~~ i know....
because i am 犯贱 what...
i guess she still dont know what "love" is...
or maybe i should say she never face any hardship on love??
she's so fortunate that everytime people come to her...
that she dont need to waste any effort on getting love by others...
while me?
so unfortunate LOL
no matter how much effort i gave,
i get nothing, but hurts and pains...
never been in any relationship...
never feel that being love or like...
i never ask for anything...
but just simply...
anyone...
is there anyone for me???
even for me to love and take care of also none??
how "lucky" i am?
for the recent case...
2 human being...
who saw my "effort" on them...
dont bear to speak out any words that will hurt my feelings although they dont have any feelings towards me...
but at last still.....
but i still cherish that they didnt let out any words which will hurt me directly although they dont feel the same way as i do....
they are guilty...
aren't they?
haizzzz...
haizzzzzzzzzz...
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
when???
when will this end???
until the day i die...maybe....and it still never ends...

my Casio stolen by someone i know!!! + gosh...not going to betray Minnie...fallen for Ga-In !!!!

2009-11-11T23:39:00.007+08:00

forgot to write this in my previous post > <
T___T last Friday (6th November 2009),
aishhh...
once i think of it then im...
kinda...not really angry but...
dont know who i should blame...
my watch lost...
not really lost, but stolen by a malay girl from the other class...
I KNEW WHO THE STEALER IS!!!!
NURUL FATIHAH from 5AKASIA!!!!
but what to do?
i told the discipline teacher...
but she said that is too late when i report about that...
because she probably pass it to her friends already and even they have spot check also useless... haizzzz...
why am i so stupid...
or i should say why is she so brave??
im just right in front of her although not facing her,
but she steal it T____T
while im in the class...
failure...
im such a big big failure...
Joey = FAILURE!!!
is even worse than those who left their belongings in the class and got stole by others after that... mine,
im in the class and so near with my watch but still got stole...
stupid me...
stupidddddd PABO!!!!!!

haizzzzz...
my Casio...
my beloved watch...
i didnt even wear for a year??
haizzz...
formerly, my watches died itself ...
really first time...
my very first time that my belongings (expensive one) got stole...
should i say R.I.P?
but my watch didnt die... > <

the last pic i took with my watch...

27/7/08, D.O.B of my Casio...
the date i bought it...

hahahaha what should i say? my watch is not photogenic ?? LOL
it doesnt looks good in photos...
but it shines in reality...
that people always thought that i bought a new watch...
the glass of it is really flawless although i didnt protect it and dropped for several times...
still flawless...
crystal clear...

although i do blame myself for my stupidness and carelessness....
but...
YOU!!!
I WILL REMEMBER YOU!!!
WHO MADE ME NEED TO WASTE ABOUT RM100+++ AGAIN TO BUY ANOTHER NEW WATCH!!!
WHILE IM ALREADY VERY POOR!!!
AND IM CLEAR THAT IS NOT YOUR FIRST TIME ON STEALING...
PLEASE STOP THAT!!!
YOU ARE SINFUL!!! SINNER!!!
ALLAH IS LOOKING AT WHAT YOU ARE DOING!!!
BE CAREFUL THAT HE WILL SENTENCE YOU!!!
TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOUR HAND...
BECAUSE SOMEDAY, IT MIGHT BROKE INTO PIECES OR TWO !!!

ok back to my 可悲 life again...
omg...
recently...
not recently but yesterday...
i...
im sorry Minnie T_____T
mianhae mianhae~~~
it seems like i've fallen for Ga In > <
NOOOOOOOO~~~~!!!
I STILL LOVE MINNIE!!!!
no way no way...
of course i still love Minnie hehehe...
but i know im loyal that i will only have one idol at once T.T
dont worry Minnie, she wouldnt replace you...
her hotness couldnt replace yours as well hahahahahaha...
Abracadabra's fault... -___-||
no...is Jonn's fault...
YOU!!! ROYAL JONN > <> < why is she so hot???
hotness overload...
especially their comeback special performance > <
the white shirt...
omg...once i think of it and my nose will bleed LOL
kidding -__-|||
briefly introduction ----->
Birth Name : Son Ga-In (손가인)
Stage Name : Ga-In (가인)
Group : Brown Eyed Girls (브라운 아이드 걸스)
Pictures : below~~~ (BEWARE OF HER HOTNESS XD)

watch Abracadabra MV or performance yourself in Youtube and you will know how hot she is XD
that even other girls said that she is sexy...
for me, i address her as 魔鬼般的天使 (an Angel which acted like a Devil)

know more about my gang+super disobedient Choi + misunderstanding?? [Saturday, 7th November 2009]

2009-11-08T13:36:00.016+08:00

Introduction of my gang+profiles :

Lim Joe Ee (910/091)
Normally being call by Joey, 祖儿 or 祖儿 in cantonese
Leader/President, a.k.a 主谋 of the gang.
the eldest in the group (B.O.D ----> 13/3/1992)
Ratio of maturity & childishness ---> 1:1
Position : Banker (has the thickest wallet)
Addiction : SuperJunior's SungMinnie!!! & internet
Hobbies : collect pictures+watch videos+read fanfics of Minnie!!! XD
Play guitar&basketball, photographing(not myself but scenery -__-|| )
Status : available (who want me??? T___T)

Noel Ng Jing Jing (577)
Normally call her Jing...
Sub Leader/Vice President, a.k.a 帮凶 of the gang.
the second eldest in the group (B.O.D ----> 17/5/1992)
Ratio of maturity&childishness ---> 4:1
Position : The driver (Own her own Perodua Myvi SE)
Hobby : cam-whoring!!!! (she is a narcissist, you can see her taking photo of her own everywhere)
Addiction : Phone calls, internet, 雄性动物(MALE) and Jay Chou
Status : Available

The two leader always make decisions for the gang...
went to chinese class more often than the other 2 friends do...
knew each other and being best buddy since Primary 6 (5 years)

both of us have "number name", which is 910 and 577
(translated using our chinese name with chinese numbers)
Jing photographing skills = poor,
Reason : her face or our face always gone half

910 always got hit or smack by 577 because 910 always telling nonsense,
where 577 hate it very much > <
although she is having fun listening to my nonsense but she still smack me...
without a good reason -__-||
Conclusion : 577 = unreasonable+violent
910 = pitiful+废

910 will turned to be childish whenever she is stick with 577...
and then will be scolded by 577 or got hit by her...
can only be childish when im with her because she is super mature...
but being super "manly/boyish", reliable and brave when being with the other 2 friends,
which is the magnaes
(注解 : magnae(韩文) = 用来称呼在团体里最小的那位...)

Name : Wong Siew Fun
Nickname : Raiy
Mostly when we are talking about her in the internet,
we will call her as SF / Raiy...
the second magnae of the gang,
a.k.a the second youngest of the gang (D.O.B ---> 2/10/1992)
Ratio of maturity&childishness ----> 0:5
(and now you know how kid-liked and childish she is XD)
Position : ermmm for us, she is 多余, no position LOL!!!
SF = very rude but feminine, super ridiculous, unreasonable and VIOLENT!!!! > <
Hobbies : love to hit people hardly (we are always the victim), bite people (im always the victim), scold people without any good reason, like to use rude/vulgar words, and the most important is, she likes to SMS!!!
also, SF very manja because like to "teh" people > <
Addiction : her lover > <

910 ---> SF's ex-hubby ....
because couldnt endure her personality and thats why...
we divorced...
moreover she has too many lovers outside... ><>

SF's besty----> our magnae, Choi....
they were friend since primary 1 (10 years friend)
Choi take care of her very well as always...
SF always made Choi pissed ....
they often stick together and sometimes wear the same thing...
teachers always mistaken them to each other...
both of them are small in size XD

SF gave herself a nick, which is 披着兔子皮的狼...
which means a wolf that disguise as rabbit...
she often said that she is a wolf...
thats why she owns this hoodie and love it so much ><

although she is super childish and cant be count on,
but she is mature when it comes to lovessssss...
she knows how to love and what does it mean...
i think this is the only good thing that we found on her LOL!!!
but she is super irritating when she has a lover...
because she will kept mentioning about her lover NON-STOP!!!
really non-stop and also everywhere...

Choi Yoke Keen
Normally being call as 阿菜(vege) or Choi
(she has too much nicknames to tell ) > <
and here comes our magnae!!
the youngest in the gang (D.O.B ----> 4/12/1992)
Choi = hate medicine a lot especially a little bitter one or tablet...
only like the sweet one, haizzz > <
became kid-liked/childish, disobedient, naughty when she fall sick...
Position : Bear? because she always accompany any of us to go here and there...
Hobbies : cam-whoring as well!! same as Jing XD another narcissist... > <
Ratio of maturity&childishness ----> 1 : 1
Addiction : her lover, 张芸京 & 方大同

actually she is not that cool in reality...
but she is cute and pretty XD
not so boyish の tomboy...
our not so magnae の magnae...

Choi's current job is to accompany our Jing to drive here and there...
because Jing dont like to drive alone as she likes being paranoid when she is alone...
and this may lead to an accident!!! > <

910's health consultant = Choi
always control the food i consume > <
magnae cares about my health the most...
once i eat something which im disallow to eat,
i will got scold horribly and terribly by magnae > <
you cant win her when she is scolding you about your health...

among the magnaes,
she is the most reliable one that we can count on her...
compare to SF... LOL > <
she is the person i always take pic with...
because she always want to take pics with me compare to the others...
(dont misunderstand that im a narcissist too, IM NOT XD but a inferior person XD)

whenever she has problem...
the first person she would fine is SF (formerly),
but right now it would be me or Jing..
perhaps, we are more reliable right now compare to SF LOL!!!

and today's story starts :

Jing fetch us to Taipan because our Choi said that her ear is pain and for quite some days already...
to where?
to clinic of course...
before seeing the doctor,
i guess i knew the reason why her ear is pain..
after seeing the doctor and listen to what the doctor said...
aishhhh really wanted to slap the girl...
-___-||
have you see people clean their ear hole everyday???
=.=
overly clean...
wondering if she is a neat freak... > <
people just do it once a week ok?
haizzz... **shaking head**
and i think she hurt her eardrum ...
doctor said that the wax of the cotton bud left inside the ear and got stuck there which cause pain....

this is the result for not reading newspaper...
because i ever read newspaper telling that do not clean your ear hole too often...
is not good for health -___-|||

i think she is the most disobedient teenage -___-|||
she always scold me and i have to listen to her whenever i have a problem(mostly health)...
(or else she will be angry at me and dont want to talk to me =.= )
but she just never listen to any of us when we scolded her about her health...
even how fierce you are or what she still insist to stay the same,
never want to change...
**vomit blood**
ask her to bite when she eat,
what she tell me?
she is lazy to bite...
i've scolded her for tons of times but she just never want to listen to me...
not biting the foods especially bread = gastric...
ask her to eat, dont want to eat -__-|||
one word, stubborn...
never have a proper breakfast but tell me that she isn't hungry...
aishhhhhhhh....
and then...
cannot eat tablet, ok fine, ask her to drink panadol soluble...
and then she complain about the taste...
aishhhh is better than bitter what...
kept complaining non stop...
really...
worse than kids -____-|||
you know what, for so long time that im living,
i never complain about the medicine even it is bitter...
Chinese medicine you know?
the one that you need to cook for hours and super bitter...
i always drink that when i was in primary school...
never wriggle and say that i dont want to drink...
injection?acupuncture? i never cry and say that i dont want that...
what to say?
the way she acts is just like a little kid -___-|||

luckily she isn't my sis,
or else i will really vomit blood having such disobedient and hardly convince sis...

and then time to pay and get the medicines from counter...
LMAO at the nurse's expression...
because Choi broke, got no money to pay, so im the one who pay for her...
when i open my wallet and take out the money notes,
the nurse is like O___O
and kept staring at us with a "curiosity" looks on her face...
ohh please, dont misunderstand...
because im the one who accompany go into the consultation room and im the one who paid...
i guess she must misunderstood that i am her lover or something LOL!!!
and Choi said that "cant you be my sis?"
and i said "look at us, we are about the same age and with a super different look, how can be your sis?"
moreover her hair is so boyish > <
sure the nurse misunderstood me as her lover LOL!!!
somemore if she think me as Choi's sis then she wont need to look at me with such expression...

To BoA : Happy 23rd Birthday!!!

2009-11-05T23:27:00.003+08:00

omg..
im really bad...
how can i forgot about BoA's birthday??
really thanks a lot for

[Sandbucket BoAvrilrock - SM]
she reminds me of BoA's birthday...
or else i am really sinful...

and i thought BoA isn't 23 -___-|||
because few years ago, she was 21st...
and now, years past... and still 23?? > <

and i just noticed that BoA and Minnie are about the same age O___O
both of them was born in 1986...
how come they never interact with each other before > <
basically, BoA should call him Oppa...
but technically, Minnie should call BoA Nonaa hahahahaha
because BoA debut since she was 13 -___-|||
Minnie debut when he was 19 =.=
call her nonaa because he is hoobae, and BoA is Minnie's sunbae XD
ok, this is non of my business -___-|||

wondering if BoA again celebrating her birthday today with her fans just like last year?
a picture of BoA...

omg im even mean that i do not have her latest pic...
-____-||
BoA's stalkers fault that they didnt take pic of her...
but is hard too since she is staying in America or Japan...
dont want return to Korea already, huh??

among them...im the only one...and the only odd one....

2009-10-31T22:40:00.008+08:00

last night went out yamcha with my friends...
after i get into the car...
rolled my eyes...
why do i have to sit with the love-bird??
they are being so intimate which annoyed me...

i talk less compare to what i usually did...
perhaps....im the oil and they were the water...
and thats why...
cant even get one of my leg in their topics...
keep quiet will be better???
but i dont want to show any awkwardness...
so...better speak something....
was thinking...
am i coming out at the wrong time and date??
i shouldnt go with them and should just stay at home...
maybe i would be happier to be with the virtual one than reality...
perhaps, internet and forums are part of my life....

oh yea...
went to McDonald...
where everyone is eating except me...
urgh...
im the odd one again...
the foods...quite tempting...
but i just couldnt eat even a bit...
how pity??
then what for to go out? i wondering.....
i was left in the corner of the table...
awkward....
trying so hard to bring out topic...
but just... dont know why, i lost my ability on communicating LOL!!
this is what happened after stuck with the internet for weeks without going to school...

and finally,
we can go home...
arghhh how tired...
disguise?is really tiring...
really....
and still...
SuJu's Sorry Sorry boost me up...
hahahaha thanks for not against on the song i want to listen...
usually, Jing will skip all the songs i am singing or the songs i like...
=.= dont need to be curious or surprise,
because they always against with the things i like...
never ever support before LOL
fandom, idols, just everything...

at the moment when im at the back sitting with the love-bird...
i started to think that...again...im the only odd one...
my friends in the car...
all of them ever been in relationships...
ever liked by the others...
just me who are so odd LOL!!!
odd case?
not only this...
all of them are taking additional mathematics,
just me who are taking ERT, alone...
how odd??
i was forced by the teacher to study ERT...
what the hell...
judge me like that because i get B for Math during PMR???
please dont underestimate my ability ....
and please understand that i never touch any books during PMR...
but at that time...what to say??
can enter account class already lucky....
so...better just shut my mouth...

ok, back to the odd case...
all of them are into c-pop, just me who are into k-pop...
LOL!!! funny...
having different fandom already a problem
even different language...
one thing that i dont really understand,
i never bash your idols nor favorite artist,
why must you bash mine???
why must you against with the things i like???
only Taiwanese/Chinese are normal?
so Korean artist are abnormal???
that you have to bash for everytime im talking about them?
moreover, i knew and thats why i didnt talk about them infront of you all...
compare to SF, who always talks about her lover,
im better a lot LOL!!!
hardship...
because we are so different...
that i couldnt find any similarity on us...
but....
indeed...
i still take you all as my close friends...
no matter how you teased me, scolded me, shouted at me, treated me...
yea...
and im just so stupid...
stupid and silly...
being used for this and that...

and for SF...
happy to see that you are so lucky...
and finally you are not in my gang anymore...
happy to know that you dont need me (mentally) anymore...
you're no longer be like me...
you are crying for love now,
which shows that you had grown up...

left me, the only odd one here...
who are crying like you too...
not much different from you,
as im crying alone here for love too...
however, im crying for love to reach me,
and melt my heart...
unlike you who crying over something that you already have...
temporary, Minnie will be the one who replace my love....
but still, im eager for it...
hahahahaha i know im greedy that i want two....
but i will throw one away when i get another one...
i know im mean...
at the same time im loyal too... > <
just ignore what i said at the above...
i think im a little unconscious...
out of my mind...and also out of control...

I Love My Dear FriendS!!!
And Also People Who Always Be There For Me To Support Me!!!
No Matter What,When,Where&How...

Can't Live Without You-All~~~
My Family, My Friendss & My Unnie.... (no oppa)

Arraso?? (知道了吗？)

p/s : simply leave a comment of Yes or "Neh" to answer my questions... not so hard right?

home = flood T.T what an unlucky day... [ Thursday, 29th October 2009 ]

2009-10-29T18:46:00.003+08:00

just now,
i was taking nap...
and suddenly black out...
because of the thunder+lightning ...
my grandma said if on the switch now later will black out again...
so...
we just stay like that...
and my mami came back with KFC... > <
while eating, i was trying to take out my lamb chop to unfreeze it...
suddenly, hmmm why is something dripping on my feet,
(because there isn't any light so i couldnt see properly at first)
turned around, what the heck "MAMI!!! OUR HOUSE IS RAINING!!!"
actually is common that there is water dripping/leaking out from my kitchen's ceiling...
it happened everytime when rain heavily...
but this time is really...omg...
the water is leaking out everywhere...
almost the whole kitchen that even pails cant help anything...
adn then i called my daddy "papa! ur house is flooding !!"
and because i have to deal with these,
my whole body gone wet ...
haizz first time felt like holding an umbrella inside the house T.T
if you are here you will know how serious it is...

went to sms my bro to tell him...
gosh, he still joking with me > <
really...
and even ask me if there is any gold fish in our house =.=

my room...
even worse...
my whole bed is wet T.T
and the water until now still dripping...
my mum said my bed need to be throw away already because is like half of the bed is wet...
T___________T NOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~!!!
my queen size and comfortable bed T.T
even my comforter is wet...
haizzz..
where am i going to sleep tonight??
luckily my bro's room is the only room didnt encounter with the "flood" > <
so...probably, im sleeping there tonight...
i want my bedddd T_____________T

busy sweeping and wiping away the water just now...
arghhhh so tired...
please~~~
**protest** I WANTED TO MOVE TO THE OTHER HOUSE!!!!
i couldnt stand with this house anymore...
because my hosue is even worse than those small houses -___-||

SungMin gifs in Oppa Band EP08

2009-10-22T19:37:00.005+08:00

grannyLEE!!!
here's your gifs hahahaha
and the other 5 will give you "under table" XD

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i would like to meet more Minnie's biased... XD

basketball??cigarette??Neway+Sing K... [ Monday, 19th October 2009 ]

2009-10-22T00:18:00.004+08:00

early in the morning...
went to play basketball...
not really...
just play for awhile and then started to sit there and talk again XD
today...
my very first time...
seeing Choi holding a cigarette in her hand...
i've stop her...
but she is just like...couldnt control herself...
i kept scolding...
she just ignore my words...
and she still lit up the cigarette and started to smokes...
gosh...
what happened to all my friends??
at first SF...
and now her turn...
why cant they be more mature???
why are they doing this to harm themselves while showing others that they dont love themselves...
is this the only way to solve problems??
frustrated??
i am too, as well as everyone...
did they do the same thing like what you did??
you are just looking excuses for you to smokes...
i'm alcohol addicts too...
but did i went and booz until vomit everywhere when i am frustrated??
even after drinking or smoking,
things are still the same, never change...
really...
incurable...
i dont know what should i say about them...

went to Neway to sing K after that...
of course i will choose Sorry Sorry hehehehe...
what makes me surprise is Jun Lim knew about the song as well...
wow XD
even know how to sing...
and that is the first song that he is singing...
unfortunately...
he only get chorus...
for me...
i sing till almost out of oxygen...
never have that chance to breathe...
1 person singing 13 person's parts...
non stop -___-||
gosh...
and also the song is fast like hell...
at last when i reach heechul's part even off pitch LOL!!!
so embarrassing > <

after singing then went for tuition...
when i got back im already like a dead meat...
tired like hell...
plus last night didnt sleep well...
only sleep for few hours...
haizzz...
pitiful...

"teh"?? + lunatics in the class + weird dream > < + Chinese class incident [Thursday, 15th October 2009 ]

2009-10-15T23:35:00.010+08:00

on Tuesday...
at E.T. (for tuition of course)
Mrs Lee say me very manja... > <
and i was like "huh???am i??"

and on last night...
the truth hits me T.T
i found that i am really like that LOL!!!
duhhh~~~
on last night, we have addition class for account (tuition of course)
and we need to do test...
but then ...
since i long time didnt do some of the question so i've forgotten how to do it...
and kept asking for teacher's help...
who knows teacher kept going for others while i kept calling her...
after a long time she still continue to ignore me and ask me to wait...
then i started to wriggle and act like a kid...a.k.a "teh" > <
until my teacher also couldnt stand it and kept laughing there ...
aishhhhhhhhh -___-||
and when she is teaching me...
i'm correct but she said that i am wrong so then i fight back...
and she noticed that she see wrongly and i started to wriggle again and she laugh again...
and sayang me by touching my head/back...
it keep repeating like this > <

oh one more thing...
actually wanted to complain that i got scolded by SF again on last night asking me to shut up...
feeling so bad and hurt with her words...
but then seeing her acting like this during account class...
i make up my mind not to blame her nor complain...
because...
understandable ...
she is out of her mind LOL!!! she's just like a lunatic, kept talking with herself ...
i mean like, having conversation with herself...
if not then shout loudly all of sudden without any reason...
oh God...save us -___-|||
not only her, sue yinn, chu ling and eugene also the same...
especially that sue yinn...
holding my hand sanitizer and said "joey...next time dont buy this brand you know?"
and i was like "huh??why?"
and she said "you seeeeeee this only kill 99.9% of germs and bacteria but not 100%, u better dun buy this" and she start laughing right after she finish her sentence...
me and Choi went like this >>>>> -____-||||
and Choi said "teacher, lets move to other room and left the mad ones over here... for our safety"
but we didnt have that chance T____T
and that SF remain to be crazy...
she is just like a drunker ....
the way she speaks and all...
and Choi scolded her "you can go back blog-ing said that she 发'siao' "
"huh?? i think she not only 发siao...
but straight away 发孝...
fermentation you know?her new name...fermentation"
and SF agree by saying this "yeaaaaa thats why im like a drunker because i am fermentation ... alcohol is processed through that..."
-______-|||
leaves rustle~~~~ and wind blows~~~
is so cold =.=

and finally comes to today's event...
event -___-||
wrong word...
going for chinese class...
and i sleep really early on last night...
but ...not dont know why, i know the reason why i wake this late...
is because i had a dream again...
what the...
wondering why...
on these days kept dreaming dreaming dreaming which made me wake lately on everyday...
all weird dreams and also foods dreams which i dont remember clearly after i woke up...
the same for today...
i just remember that this dream is kinda sweet...
awwwwwwwwwww....
is embarrassing to tell here.... > <
i mean to tell in a public area which is visible to anyone...
and also im not qualified for that lar... (talking about my dream)
if you are curious or wanted to know,
you can ask me ...
and i'll consider on telling you personally about it...
dont be late...
because i easily forget the content of my dreams...

and also have so much fun during chinese class...
our Pn Yong is still being that humor ...
and im so surprise that SF came for the class too O.O
even more surprise is she came together with "104" O________O
omoooo~~~
whats on earth is happening??
why is she acting strangely/weirdly on these days????
that even she herself also wondering why is she like that?????

what a phone conversation...which once again making me feeling bad...[ Tuesday, 13th October 2009

2009-10-14T22:38:00.008+08:00

had a talk with Jing on the phone...
is so excited ehh??? hahahaha

but suddenly..
i not really remember what makes me start to be blue again...
when responding her,
i slip of the tongue end up saying this : "yea...wondering why...the guys you met are always good one...me?? lol.... not a pervy then an insulter..."
(didnt want to let her know about such disgraceful things about me actually...but since she already knew everything and i ever told her some of it...so...let it be...)
and she ask me to not say so...
and i replied her " why? it isn't like that?"
and she kept quiet...

apparently ...
that is the fact....
non of the them that i met is a good one...
besides bad...they are still bad...
maybe...
when they are with other people, they acting good?
and when it comes to me, they act differently to me...
is because they arent gentleman?or is because of me?
probably...no...obviously...im the cause...
until now...
i still didnt know that what and how a gentleman is...
a good one maybe??but how...i really have no idea with it...
and even see the bad one as a good one...
admittedly, how blind i am??? LOL
hey...
just to tell that im not stupid nor idiot...
is just...blind...
what kind of blind??
love blind LOL!!!
i'm smart enough, kay?
i still know how to distinguish a white and a black...
(of course, im not having colour-blindness LOL ) > <
and also i see everything before they reveal/do it...
is just that...
i choose to .... hide "them"...
which is the fact that i wouldnt want to know but what to do?
i already knew it right before it is being reveal...

smart?is that good??
is tiring...and sad...
sometimes i wish to be a dumb dumb...
be pure and simple...
innocent as well...
but he is my papa...
and i inherited what i didnt want from him...
papa is tiring you know?
need to be alert and aware of everything and anything...
even just a tiny stuff, but you are over-reacting to it...

if i am not...
i might not know that...
they actually never ever have feelings towards me...
never really like me...
non of them...
but just playing with my feelings...
have so much fun huh??
im just a companion when they are lonely??
maybe... when their real girls weren't around them?
and im just a replacement after all....
they are so worse...
really...worse...
worst ever...
or is just me who is the worst one??
accepting me...
not as their love's one...
but as their slave???
lol...
slave... i am a slave...
yea...and that is why i said im so worst...
that im agree being their slave...
so...again...is my fault on being their slave willingly??
or is their fault on taking me as their slave ??
slave... kinda polite on describing me... isn't it?
should just straight away admit that im a slut instead of slave LOL!!!

c'mon...
slave...slut...bitch...
anything...
because 3 of them suit my personality and actions so well...

my Choi...
ever protected me in front of the other friends...
saying that im not like that...
is just because i love the person i love...
and that is why im acting like this...
but it doesnt mean that im a bitch or something like that...
thanks a lot for your words...
it's you...
and only you will protect me by ignoring what others had said about me...
neorago.....
im glad with that...cherish...and treasure...
but then...i somehow felt that i am just like what they said...
and they are right...
and actually...i didnt admit that at the first place...
but after that...i felt like...
everyone is agreeing and is just me who denying...
maybe that's the fact thats why everyone is agreeing ???
must be like that...
and i started to accept the fact that i am like this, so what???
it might be humiliating for me...
not might...
but certainly, it is...
anyhow... accepting the fact...is a good thing...???

fanfics addict. XD

2009-10-11T16:40:00.004+08:00

grannyLEE arrrr~~
gifs is coming soon...
you must be patient ok???
im looking for people's help of making a clearer gifs...
with small file size...
and still scratching my head with your recording stuff...
whats your recording arrrrrrr
really curious....
is about SuJu??
hmmmm but you said is not singing?
hmmmmmm....

recently kept reading...
arghhhh exam is around the corner...
but...
im reading...
yea im reading....
reading fanfics LOL!!!!
not text books -___-||
what a good student > <
and also addicted with the fanfics...
people who knows me well should know that im lazy and also hate to read long article...
but of course...
if is Minnie then different case hehehehehe....
even read for the whole midnight until forgetting myself...
-____-|||

the fanfics....
a lot of "yaoi" content and also "yadong" LOL!!!!
uh hum...
Midnight Fantasy huh???
i knew im underage hahahahahhaa...
but the writer really...
really -___-||
i have no idea with them...
they like to pair up KyuHyun and Minnie...
ok ...well kyumin... everywhere...fine then...
(personally, i prefer KangMin hahahahaha....)
but they really likes to put something "weird" on Minnie -___-|||
i've read some of the fanfics telling that Minnie is pregnant > <
what the.....
Minnie is the only one who always pregnant -___-|||
aishhhhhhhhh....
or else then Minnie is the one who always got "bang" by kyuhyun -___-||
aishhhhhhhhhhhhh....
cant blame too...
Minnie is feminine...thats why...
but he is manly right now aeeeee~~~
haizzzz...
no choice too...
since most of the fanfics writer were kyuhyun fans...
even it is not, i can only see kangteuk but not kangmin...
eunmin is not bad too...
ryeomin maybe??hehehehe so that it will be "vise versa" uh hum~~~

bless you + went to yamcha... [ Wednesday, 7th October 2009 ]

2009-10-09T01:49:00.003+08:00

over here...
just wanted to say that...
i hope everything is fine at Phillipine...
especially you!! grannyLEE !!! dont die.... > <
dont leave your dongsaeng like this...
i'll miss you...
miss changing comments with you...
haizzz....

went to yamcha together with Jing and Choi...
my program starts...
and is so torturing to see delicious foods...
we first went to Old Town....
and i cant believe that i really ordered the half boiled eggs for myself LOL!!!
it cost me RM2.50 ...
is expensive isn't it?
but is Omega egg LOL!!!
and also the eggs is all right to be serve...
didn't take pic of it -___-|||
but is not as expensive as Jing's lime juice LOL!!
RM3 blekkk and she only has RM3 in her wallet -___-||
wondering what kind of person is this...
didnt order things before knowing how much she has...

and then they wanted to eat "Luk Luk"...
fine then, i will be just standing there watching them...
cute of them, each of them just ate a stick =.=
before we leave, i turned around and saw "Mat Dou Yao",
and i said "wooooo is Mat Dou Yao"...
and suddenly the tauke of the Luk Luk's car said "mat dou mou jor lor" (because is late already)
and we laughed LOL!!!

and then went to Mamak...
again T.T roti roti roti...
i wanted to eat so much...
arghhhhh....
and our 问题 Jing again has lots of questions...
asking the waiter whats the difference with Thosai Ghee and Thosai Paper...
arghhhh...
she is always like this...
and compliment herself after that...and say that we should learn to be 不耻下问...
-___-||
3 words...
受不了.... > <
and then kept looking at the pricelist...
and she got scolded by Choi that she come here not to check the price of each food -___-|||
and then this girl...
i guess she is full but felt like eating Thosai but afraid that she cant finish it...
so what she did??
kept making her Thosai "flying around"...
because the Thosai is crispy and thin, thats why can fly easily > <
when we're going to pay...
only she realize that her Thosai cost RM3...
and i scolded her "you are check the prices just now dont you??and why didnt you look at the price of food that you ordered??dumb dumb..."

Sung Min gif - 090502 Sorry Sorry Performance

2009-10-04T19:16:00.012+08:00

Sung Min at 090502 Sorry Sorry Performance...
gif ----> made by ME!!! KaNGaRooBaby910 !!!

Minnie dance differently for this time > <
he looks super hot XD

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kor tod na...but i wont "return" ... + double dare?? my double 1st time as well -___-||| > < [Sunday, 4th October 2009]

2009-10-04T15:48:00.004+08:00

last night...
no no...
is last last night...
really appreciate...
thanks a lot for spending your time on listening to my annoying things...
only you would listen to me willingly and also being so interested to my things...
im so bad to you....
but you still treat me good like this...
maybe that is what i get from treating you nicely formerly...
i felt really guilty...
but i will not turn to be like what i am formerly...
mianhae...

last night went to Pei Pei house...
because of the lantern festival of course...
play like mad with her friends...
double dare?? never play before...
but really fun???
fun because i only got it once LOL!!!!
but seeing them doing something really ... insane???
arghhh i forgot her name, just remember that her name start from Y -___-|||
Yan Yin Yam? forgot which one....
but remember that the other girl is her twin sister...
so funny that they asked her to go up stair, open the door, scream loudly, and come down LOL!!!
and my parents, Pei Pei's parents and all the uncles and aunties were at up stair singing karaoke...
i thought she not going to do it...
who knows she run to upstairs open the door and "AHHHH~~~!!!" then came down...
we laughed our ass off... -___-||
really funny...
laughed till my stomach hurts...
really super funny...
and she said there was one uncle sitting beside the door and when she screamed, that uncle looked at her LOL!!!!
i guess the uncle turned deaf already...

and also...
this double dare...
took away 2 of my first time T.T
my first time kissing people ... on her cheek of course ... luckily, she is a girl and luckily, she is Carmen hahahahaha... > <
and also...my first time being kiss...on my cheek of course lol... but cannot resist...
-____-||| > <
aishhhh somemore that girl...i dont even know her -___-||
again dont know which Y...
Yin Yan Yam??
just knowing her for the first day and also for few hours LOL!!!
and i knew she would choose me when Pei Pei disallowed her to pick her friends ...
she should choose Carmen LOL!!
people who knows me well must be thinking how can i do that LOL!!
is because i drank...but im not drunk yet...
just drank 2 glasses of Gold Label ...
or else i wont be that daring XD

一个。。。没人帮得上忙，又不能说出口的痛苦。。。很累。。。却很想维护真相。。。

2009-10-02T23:35:00.005+08:00

黄晓芬！
生日快乐。。。
很抱歉。。。
未能和你一起出去吃一餐。。。
也感到很遗憾。。。
不知道你是否会来读我的blog。。。
不过还是祝贺你了。。。
你刚刚说的话。。。
也许是真的。。。
但。。。因为某种原因。。。
我。。。仍然感觉不到。。。
在乎？？真的。。。感觉不到。。。

吴晶晶！
对你无礼了。。。
对不起。。。
不想对你发脾气。。。
却又控制不了。。。

妈的。。。
今天烦死了。。。
刚刚跟爸吵架。。。
现在？
懒得跟他吵。。。
他讲完。。。
每次都是这样。。。
喝醉酒就这样。。。
为了维护他们，真的找了很多很多的理由。。。
不对。。。
对爸来讲，我是再找借口。。。
很累。。。
真的很累。。。
有什么办法？
他们的确是这样。。。
爸说的没错。。。
一点都没错。。。
只不过是我自己不想接受事实。。。
不想承认他们的确是这样。。。。

菜。。。
并不是你所说的那样。。。
我自己知道。。。也看到。。。
他的确是有用功。。。
也花了比我们多一倍的努力。。。
你。。。
可以不要再拿你的儿子和别人做比较吗？？
如果不是Gohonzon。。。
哥。。。根本不会有今天。。。
根本不会上到大学。。。
而菜。。。
并不像哥那样有福气。。。
可以在Gohonzon家族里长大。。。
不要因为他和你没关系，
就把他说得一文不值。。。

或许你会说，他交到我这个朋友，是三生有幸。。。
可是。。。我也很幸运。。。可以交到像他这样的朋友。。。
平时在你们看不到我的时候。。。
都是他在照顾着我。。。
管着我的健康。。。
虽然他做的不比你们多。。。
可是。。。却补了你们的“漏洞”。。。

吵到说不出话来了。。。
有话。。。只是不想和爸吵。。。
自己其实也很清楚。。。
在为着自己找借口。。。
无可否认。。。
多多少少。。。
我。。。
被影响了。。。
以前的我。。。
很像没有这样糟糕。。。
现在？？
真的很糟糕。。。
东西不做。。。
家务也不做。。。
学校不去。。。
书又不读。。。
有。。。临时抱佛脚就有。。。。
我。。。到底变成怎样了？？？
我。。。还是以前的我吗？
突然觉得自己很浪费资源。。。
真的没有一点是好的。。。
浪费父母的钱养我。。。
浪费地球上的资源。。。
还敢说自己很爱护地球。。。
其实自己就是那个在破坏地球的人。。。

该死的我。。。
有家庭却不珍惜。。。
有记忆力。。。却不读书。。。
可以考到很好的成绩。。。自己却放弃，在混。。。
我。。。
到底。。。
是怎么了？？？

School reopen+lonely+emo [ Monday, 28th September 2009 ]

2009-09-29T20:16:00.002+08:00

finally...
we are at school today...
have so much fun on creating nicknames for friends LOL!!!
what ...
Lace, Cells, Moon, Lungs everything came out -___-||
is related and "linked" actually...
but im so lazy to type the long long story out...

due to the long "vacation"...
im kinda not use to it on schooling...
especially during ERT...
because i'm all alone again...
haizzz...
such a hard time for me...
an hour +++ ...
felt like dying even just sitting there for few minutes...

提起了他。。。
SF 说有尝试着帮我,
可是他告诉SF我的脾气太暴躁了。。。
对着不同的人就说出了不同的理由。。。
是借口吧？？
不喜欢。。。所以借口都多过理由。。。
不喜欢。。。就是不喜欢。。。
坦白就好。。。
兜兜转转，以为这样就不会伤到我？
反而伤得更深。。。

仔细想想了。。。
我怎么觉得我没有向他发过脾气之类的。。。
暴躁？是他吧？还很小气。。。
一点点就生气。。。
而且一生就很长时间。。。
我只不过很jealousy,很emo。。。
哪来的暴躁？
我都没生过他的气，有都是玩玩而已。。。
对他。。。
emo 多过伤心，伤心多过心疼，心疼多过开心，开心多过生气。。。
那。。。你应该知道。。。
生气。。。有多少吧？
哪来的暴躁呢？
他是要说我 emo 吧？ -___-||||

ruining actual song's lyric again -___-|| [ Saturday, 26th September 2009 ]

2009-09-27T00:34:00.006+08:00

arghhh forget to post about today's breakfast...
i mean...
(Saturday morning)...
like what i did recently,
went to Choi's house then go mamak have our breakfast...
talked a lot...
or i should call that as "gossip"???
hehehehe...
about what??
nahhhh...
not going to tell you of course...
after that walk to tuition centre lor...
she having tuition mar...
i then accompany her...
and then she said "arghhh is been a long time that we didnt sing our song...(爱死你)"
me " yea..."
den i again started to sing with broken chinese...
and accidentally sing it into "yai" 死你... (cantonese)
which means step on you (until dead)...
the next line : "'yai' 死(是)婴儿纯洁也是爆裂~~"
LOL!!!

then she scolded me say that i didnt go on that day (singing competition)...
or else we can sing this...
after that Choi played the song (the version that sang by 超级偶像林宗兴 & 张芸京)
and she said "dont know why...i love this one more than the original"
me "me too..."
like usual, im the rapper and she is the vocal...
then before the rap part, 张芸京 said "超级偶像林宗兴~~" and then 林宗兴 starts to rap...
then i asked her "if we follow this version, what should you say at that part instead of 超级偶像林宗兴??"
(and after Choi finish singing is my turn to rap)
and suddenly...
i came up an idea "i know i know!!! SMK Alam Megah 的林祖儿!!"
Choi looked at me like that -____-|| and said "is too long lar...must be 4 words"
ok fine... > <
and another idea came "i know i know!!! 蔡玉娟的林祖儿!!"
and she "fall" hahahahahaha...
laugh like mad > <

✖犯贱+可悲+没人爱惜の我✖

why is it always like that????!! (just another post that no one will bother.... )

just a post to express the thing that hides deep inside my heart...

Frustration + Miracle = Life couldn't get better~~

seriously, what is up with my life???

my dream... is broken... goodbye to my Archos 43...

CNY???!! today definitely not a good day for me...

dream of BoA~~

List what Mr. Lee Sungmin do/can do?

damn it! i'm back to the "mad-at-kyuhyun-phase" again!!

compare?is it good? or bad? + fiction i wrote... for Syane(?)

放下。。。

reason of Min being emo?? + SCREW THE ANTI!!! + MY "Min journey" + Min's extra-ordinary personality + My words for Min

favorite UFO replies from Sungmin XD

GRRR!! CHO KYUHYUN!!! .... but kyumin save it all?? maybe...

my ideal guy ??

URGH!!MY LIFE!! WRECKED!!! | am i being too naive to even believe them?? (Tuesday, 15th June 2010)

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia - Fancams Download Links

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part4 (Fancams!!!)

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part3 (Fancams!!!)

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part2 (Fancams!!!)

Big Five Test Results

100320 Super Show 2 Malaysia Part1 (Fancams!!!)

My birthday gifts (?) + SuJu's 3jib Asia Special Edition

why am i so pathetic??!! + what a month/year??

i am dead... XD because this is super hot yet super hilarious!! check out our SuperMinnie XD

'wuri' clumsy cute boy, SungMinnie + Min's bad day

SuperShow2, i'm coming!! + miracles + stupid organizer

Super Show2!! im coming!! + haengbok T__T im so fortunate to have my family...

LOL!!! Kenny G???

first day&time works + am i lucky?or unlucky?

Happy Birthday to 성민~~~오빠，생일 축하해~~ !!! and Happy New Year to everyone~~!!

outing! outing! merry belated x'mas?? XD + sifu...haiz...anyeong~

wuri cute SungMin - 090626 Gee performance gifs

once again, be proud of my new babe(graphic card)... also, Window 7 + Minnie's pics = perfect

my new babe XD gonna be proud of it... + my addiction = fanfics XD

odd?? loving k-pop is sinful???!! + isolated...neglected...dump???

wuri SungMin's shocking hairstyle... **heart attack**

a different sifu?? i dont want T___T my sifu is irreplaceable!!

Sung Min - Baby Baby(original singer : 4men) romanized/romaji lyric

once again got insulted by those 贱男生!!! + will there be anyone would "protect" me from these??

again...im so 犯贱?? + is there anyone for me??

my Casio stolen by someone i know!!! + gosh...not going to betray Minnie...fallen for Ga-In !!!!

know more about my gang+super disobedient Choi + misunderstanding?? [Saturday, 7th November 2009]

To BoA : Happy 23rd Birthday!!!

among them...im the only one...and the only odd one....

home = flood T.T what an unlucky day... [ Thursday, 29th October 2009 ]

SungMin gifs in Oppa Band EP08

basketball??cigarette??Neway+Sing K... [ Monday, 19th October 2009 ]

"teh"?? + lunatics in the class + weird dream > < + Chinese class incident [Thursday, 15th October 2009 ]

what a phone conversation...which once again making me feeling bad...[ Tuesday, 13th October 2009

fanfics addict. XD

bless you + went to yamcha... [ Wednesday, 7th October 2009 ]

Sung Min gif - 090502 Sorry Sorry Performance

kor tod na...but i wont "return" ... + double dare?? my double 1st time as well -___-||| > < [Sunday, 4th October 2009]

一个。。。没人帮得上忙，又不能说出口的痛苦。。。很累。。。却很想维护真相。。。

School reopen+lonely+emo [ Monday, 28th September 2009 ]

ruining actual song's lyric again -___-|| [ Saturday, 26th September 2009 ]

Happy Birthday to 성민~오빠，생일 축하해 !!! and Happy New Year to everyone~~!!

wuri SungMin's shocking hairstyle... heart attack